The Choices We Make.
Chapter Four.

I can't remember exactly how it had happened. It was the three of us. Jacob, Edward and me. In my back yard. I had just come home from Jacob's. Breaking it off with Jacob.

But we had to have that one last fling of lust filled passion. If we didn't he would still be here. The boy I thought I loved would still be with me.

There was yelling. Lots of yelling. And growling, lots of that too. I don't remember when we moved from my lawn to the forest. But I do remember the cold clammy surroundings.

And I remember falling. And cutting my arm. And Jacob. I cried out for him to help me. I was like I couldn't see or scream. All I could do was sit there and cry. Edward turned around...and he helped me up.

But why, why didn't he stay and help?

Oh yes. Jacob had jumped on him. No, not Jacob, not My Jacob. The cold hearted werewolf Jacob. I fell to my feet again. Screaming at them to stop. Please, please stop. No more fights because of me.

I stared at them. It was as if they were dancing. Dancing with way too much anger. Way too much aggression. They would jump on each other... And pin the other to the ground. And claw.

Oh how they would claw at each other. No matter how hard I screamed, nothing calmed. Nothing stopped. It only intensified. I had to stop this. But how? How could I stop this?

Then I remember the cut. I had taken something from the ground, and made a slit down my non-bleeding arm. And then threw it at them. Edwards noticed it first, then Jacob.

Edward fallowed his nose and his eyes met mine. I was on the wet ground again. My arms at my sides. Bleeding for all they were worth. And the tears. They were flowing constantly. "Stop." I managed to whisper out.

The word hit them like a truck. Then I collapsed. Onto the cold, wet but hard ground. And drifted off into the swirling black of non-consciousness...

"Where am I? What's going on? Don't touch me...who are you? Where is Edward?!?!?!?!" The words screamed like venom when I awoke. I didn't know where I was, but it was dark and cold.

"Bella, I'm here." It was his voice, but it wasn't him. It wasn't my Edward. His voice was as cold and hard as his skin. Three times as much acidic. Something happened, if only I could remember.

Why did both of my arms hurt so much? And where was I? Wait, where is Jacob. I realized my eyes weren't open. I almost had to think about how to open up my eyes. But when I did I wanted to close them back tight.

All seven pair of golden vampire Cullen eyes were staring into mine. I sat up, only to fall back down due to the dizziness that fallowed. I looked around. I was on their dining room table with a pillow under my head.

I look down at my arms. Bandaged tightly from my wrists to my elbows. "Some one really needs to tell me what happened." I looked Edward in the eyes. His were then only ones slightly black. He stared back for a second and practically flew out of the room.

I looked at Alice, sweet little Alice. Then to Jasper at her side. Blank faced as normal. As my eyes met his, he followed Edward's path out of the room. Before I could look at Rose she was gone. I locked eyes with Emmett and he mouthed 'sorry' and walked out too.

I found the eyes of Esme. Her sweet loving eyes. There was pain in them. Carlisle's matched hers. What had happened? Someone was going to tell me. I sat up slower this time, with Alice's hand on my back. I mumbled a thanks.

She threw her hands in the air and walked out. "Boy do I know how to clear a room or what." Esme looked at Carlisle and said something illegible and walked out too. I stared him in the eyes. What had happened? Did I do something? Why did six people closest to me just leave, with out any reason.

"Carlisle, what happened?"

"Bella." He sat next to me on the never used table. He pinched the bridge of his nose with his fingertips. "Bella...Bella Jacob is dead." I gasped so hard I forgot how to breathe afterwards. Carlisle had his hand on my back telling me to breathe and relax.

"How can I relax? Jacob is dead. He is never coming back. And it's all my fault isn't it?" My voice went from a horsy scream to a sobbing whisper. "Carlisle, what happened"

"You see Bella. Edward and Jacob," I flinched at the name. "They were fighting in the forest. And I guess you were trying to stop them and," He pointed to my wrists, "You did this to yourself." I gasped again.

"I did what." My voice was trembling. Flashes of a dark lonely forest came to my mind. And suddenly, I remembered everything. The fight, the yelling, and the cut. Then the black.

"I remember, then it is all black...Carlisle did Edward kill Jacob." The words didn't come out as horrified as I felt.

"You see Bella, here is where the story gets rough. You don't remember and Edward hasn't spoke a word till you woke up." Shivers when down my spine. Edward hated me. I hurt him. I remember his eyes.

I looked Carlisle deep in the eyes. He took a deep breath and continued. "We found pieces of Jacob." I shuddered at the thought. "And you were laying on the ground out cold. And Edward. Well we don't really know. We think he was running around the area. He came as soon as we got to you. See we could smell all the blood..."

I had started to cry harder. I was shaking. He was dead because of me. Dead as dead can be. Gone forever. Carlisle had a cold hand on my back. I jumped of the table only to have my knees give out. And fell to the floor.

But Carlisle was there to catch me. He put me back on the table and sat next to me again. "Wait Bella there is more. You see...when we found you. Well," he took a deep breath, "Edward had bitten you."

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Authors Note: End of another cliffhanger chapter! Chapter 5 will probably be up tomorrow or the day after. But don't get mad if it isn't.. Sometimes the site won't let my log on. -.- So leave a review! Much love.