The Choices We Make.
Chapter Five.
"Edward had bitten you." My mouth dropped open, my eyes were wide, my hands dropped to my sides. I didn't feel the pain of it. I was numb. I couldn't breathe.
This is what I wanted. To be changed by the boy I loved so much. Right? I wanted this. Didn't I? I did. I do. The why do I feel so, numb. Was I numb from the fact? Or was I numb in shock and sadness?
Carlisle's hands were around my shoulders. "Breath Bella." I took a gasp and remained in my numb state. "Keep breathing." I was glaring into his eyes, but my eyes were still empty.
I took a couple of forced breaths before I could breathe again. Carlisle sat back down next to me. "When we got to you, it was to late to suck the venom out. I still tried. A little came out, but not enough."
In three days I would be a vampire. Just thinking it made a shiver go down my spine. Carlisle looked at me. "This is what I wanted. And it was Edward." My voice trailed off as I said that. "Where is he?"
He didn't answer me. He just looked out into space. I got up from the table and went out the door that six of the Cullens left from. I wandered a little in the dark and I saw them.
All six sitting in a circle on the ground, there white skin glowing in the night. Carlisle was right be hind me and went to sit with his family. "Edward," My voice came out in a whisper. Like I was afraid he wasn't really there. Like he would disappear as I spoke his name.
He didn't disappear. He didn't react. I knew he heard me. He gave the slightest flinch at his name. Like it was the venom from my lips. Alice nudged him. He looked at her and stood up.
Before I could blink, he had my hand. He looked deeply in my eyes. He started walking and I fallowed. Soon we were out of view from them. I let go of his hand and fell to the ground, overtaken by the sobs I was holding in.
He was right next to me. Arm around me as I cried. "This is what I wanted. Right? I wanted to become a vampire, by you. And spend my life with you. I love you." It took me a second to stop gasping through my sobs to speak again.
"I hurt you Edward. I hurt you deep down. And I never ever wanted to do that. I love you so much. I never want to hurt you. I love you with all of my heart."
"You don't have a heart anymore. And that is my entire fault. I am not mad at you Bella Swan. I am mad at myself. I do love you. I do want to spend all eternity with you. But how can I live with myself."
He looked at me. And held my hands in his. "Bella I am a monster. I killed him while you were lying there on the ground. Bleeding! You were lying there, bleeding horribly. And I tore him to shreds" I cringed.
He paused, skipping over parts in his head. "And then I did this." He pushed me on my back. And keeled next to me. He tugged up the corner of my shirt and placed a kiss on my left lower stomach area above my hip.
I sat up and looked at it. There was a crescent shaped scar that was like the one on my hand. But I was much bigger. I looked at him again. "Edward it's okay. I love you and you love me, and now we can be together. Forever."
He helped my off the floor and pulled me into a hug. His face buried in to my matted hair. He took a step back. There was great sadness in his eyes. I placed a small kiss on his lips.
I whispered into them, "Edward Anthony Masen Cullen, you are forever forgiven, if I am forever forgiven."
He took a deep breath. "Isabella Marie Swan Cullen." The sound of it made me smile. He began to speak but I put my finger on his lips.
"Bella Marie, Cullen." A giant grin wiped over his face. He placed a kiss on my lips.
"Okay Bella Marie Cullen. You are forever forgiven. I love you."
"I love you more." I teased.
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The three days passed painfully slow. I was so thankful graduation was over so I didn't have to go to school for the last week. I told Charlie I was going camping again with the Cullens.
It wasn't exactly a lie. We did go camping. Vampire style. I killed my first bear. And it was the sweetest thing I ever tasted. It was hard. I wanted more. Always wanted more blood.
So I had to stay in there house for the most part. And Edward was always at my side. I loved it. I had gotten my wish. To always be with the one I loved.
He took me to where they burned Jacob's body. We sat there all day. Mostly in silence. It took me a few weeks but I had gotten over it. I did love Jacob. But never loved him more then I love Edward. Edward was my one and only. And it would stay that way.
We were sitting in his room just listening to his stereo. It was about 1 am and since I no longer need to sleep, my nights were held in the Cullen house. He looked up at me. "Happy one month." He kissed me.
I was passionate. I didn't want passion. I picked him up and threw him on the couch. I looked at me. He didn't like when I used my newborn strength. I shrugged it off.
I got on top of him so I was sitting on his hips. I started to unbutton his shirt and got frustrated and ripped it off. He saw where I was going and ripped my shirt off as well.
He bit down on the front of my bra and it was dangling in his mouth. Smirking like he was challenging me. A tug of my jeans and they ripped down every right stitch and I pulled them off. Then stood up and daintily pulled down my panties.
He laughed and stood in front of me. He was kissing me and unzipping his jeans at the same time. I moved his hand out of the way and yanked them down. He picked my hips up so I was resting on his.
I was placing little kisses all the way down his neck. He pushed me onto the floor. He was sitting on top of me. He kissed me fiercely. I broke it just so I could start then next one. I shoved my tongue in his mouth.
For the first time he didn't pull away. I was indestructible now too. My cold tongue went over every little piece of his mouth. He broke it. I didn't realize it but I was on top of him. He pushed me back down. And shoved his tongue in my mouth.
It was amazing. I would get to have him. In all the ways I wanted him. With no restriction. He picked me up and pressed me against the wall. He was sucking on my pale neck. And I had my head nuzzled on his shoulder.
Little moans were escaping my mouth. I was impatient. I flipped him over so his back was pushed to the wall. "I want you in me." My words came out with fire behind them.
I jumped up and wrapped my legs around his waist. He pushed in me all the way and I cried out. He pulled all the way out and I cried out again. Then he pushed himself in all the way so hard. And just stayed there. I was panting. "Edward." I moaned out, soft an slow.
I had done it. He was going in and out of me so much and so fast. My head was spinning. I wasn't breathing and neither was he. He stopped for a second. I heard it too. Alice was standing in front of our door.
I giggled and gestured to the door. With me snug around him we moved to be up against the door. And just started up again. Alice muttered freaks and walked away.
We both smiled but I still wanted him. I knew he wanted me too. He pushed me to the ground and was doing it again. Pushing all the way in and pulling all the way out. I was gone. I wasn't moving.
Just one more thrust in and neither was he. He pulled out slowly and we lay on out sides staring at the other. He kissed my forehead and put his arms around me. I snuggled close to him.
"You know what?" Speaking into his ear.
"No what?" He whispered into mine.
"It is going to be an amazing forever, together"
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Authors Note: OMFG! YAY YAY YAY! I finished my first fan fiction! Did you like it? I did:D So I was thinking, and I decide this story takes place after Eclipse. But like Eclipse with a different ending. Where Jacob was so damn suicidal. I think I am going to start a new story in a week or so. Leave a review? Thanks. Much Love.