Okay, I know these chapters are kind of turning into random oneshots… but I can't do the Cullens I haven't done, (Rosalie, Emmett, Esme) until I have more ideas! And I do have an idea for Emmett (XD) but I wanted to write this one first!

I dedicate this chappie to my friend who is a Jacob-lover. She is a bit depressed at the moment, so this is dedicated to her and I hope she feels happier soon! GO CAZ (That's her name XD)

And BixxaCullen if you are reading this, then YOU ROCK TOO!

As do all my lovely reviewers!
DISCLAIMER: I don't claim to own the characters.

PS. BELLA IS A VAMPIRE IN THIS CHAPPIE!

Warning: This chapter is angsty.

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Jacob Black (Told from Bella's POV)

Edward had gone. Hunting.

I was alone in the house; the others had all gone with him, apart from Esme, who was cleaning so quietly downstairs that I could hardly hear her, even with my vampire hearing.

I was been changed, almost forty years ago, to this day. This was the first time Edward had left me alone for even an hour, in all that time. I was getting better at saying no to my overwhelming thirst for human blood, and I hadn't even drank from a human once. My slate was clean.

With nothing to do to pass the time, while my love was gone, I went over to his music CD collection and slipped a CD into his player. The room that Edward and I shared in this house was similar to the one in Forks, and Esme had tried very hard to make it that way when we first came. My heart twinged with affection for her. She tried so hard to keep me happy.

The CD was by the Red Hot Chilli Peppers, one of Edward's choice bands. The extent of my music collection was the CDs of Edward's composed piano pieces that he had made me over the years. All the other music that I wanted to listen to was in Edward's collection. As soon as I told him I liked a certain band, he went out and brought every CD they had ever made.

The music hummed quietly through the speakers, and I leant back and buried my head in the mountain of pillows on our bed. I blankly heard the music, but my thoughts were somewhere else. The music I had put on was just for background noise.

My mind wandered down the roads of memories, and alone in the room, I went down a path I had left untouched for decades. I went back to Forks.

Charlie…

My father had died five years ago, of a heart attack. I had first heard, through Alice, who had had a vision. Even her visions weren't certain, I had pleaded when she had told me. Let me go back to Forks, and check on him, I had begged. But then the next day I had received a letter. From Jacob. Alice's vision had happened- my father was dead.

Jake…

I could see his face in my mind now. His beautiful skin, his full lips, his dark hair and eyelashes. His lanky body that was banded with muscle. The way he stood so much taller than me, the way he would laughingly lift me onto his shoulders so I could see above the crowd.

Then I remembered the last time I saw him. A year after my wedding, a year after I had been changed. His crumpled face as he looked upon the monster he saw me as.

And then the Chilli Peppers song that I was listening to caught my attention, reminding me so much of Jacob that my heart panged with loss.

I got dosed by you…

Closer than most to you…

Take it away, I never had it anyway…

That part was so true. When I had suggested that I leave- take away my love for him so that he wouldn't hurt- he told me that he had never had my love anyway. I had almost cried because of those words- but as a vampire, no tears came.

Take it away and everything will be okay…

Way up on the mountain where she died…

Oh, the irony, I thought. Edward had bitten me on a mountain. Under my request. I had been feeling odd that day, and had begged Edward, as his wedding present to me, to take me to Mt. Everest. Like I wanted, he bit me way up on the mountain, at about the first camp. Except he had booked all of the camp tents, so no other humans came to get in the way. And the snowy mountain helped the burning pain I felt when changing.

And once I was a vampire, I kept it together (refusing my thirst) for long enough to climb all the way to the top of Everest, without a problem. I didn't need the oxygen masks that the humans needed. I felt on top of the world, up there.

All I ever wanted was your life.

This was also true. Jacob had never wanted me to change; he had wanted me to stay human. But I couldn't give that to him. I loved Edward. I loved Edward as much as I could physically love anything on the planet. I would give everything and anything up for Edward, and that is what I did when I decided to become a vampire.

That meant that I had given up my family.

Charlie.

Renée.

All my friends.

And the one that hurt the most… Jacob.

But I had chosen to give him up, and it was done now.

Standing up, I switched off the music.

I could hear the faint slam of a door as the hunters returned.

And my heart sang.