AN-Had intended on this as a one shot fic but I had one very good review so here's another chapter. Hope you enjoy and if you want, I'll try and write more.
Another day and yet no real prospects for a job. It was getting frustrating for Bette. For so many years she had been the sole wage earner of the family. She had unconditionally supported Tina in whatever she had wanted to do. Though they had nearly gone their separate ways for good, one thing kept them together.
That was the one thing that kept her going as well. Though she loved Tina and wished that she wanted for nothing, the one thing that drove her more was little Angelica. The baby had stolen her heart the instant she was born. Even before that, just knowing that she was growing and thriving inside of her lover was an amazing thing. Of course, Tina had kept it from her. But had she had a good enough reason?
There was something else for her to think about. The relationship was already strained. They had settled into a nice routine. But that left no real time for just the two of them. They loved the baby, but that was also driving a wedge between them. The fact that Tina had kept it from her for so long hurt more than words could say.
So Bette sat in the kitchen having a rare moment to herself. Tina was off on a play date that had been made at a time when Bette was not available. Perhaps it was only because that was the only convenient time for the other children's family. But a part of her could not help but wonder if her partner had excluded her from things on purpose.
The lesbian took a deep breath and inhaled the lemony goodness in the herbal tea. It was supposed to help relax a person, but these days there was no relaxation in her life at all. Her focus was not like it had used to be. She was once such a driven person. But something was holding her back. What, she was not sure of. It was all part of the mystery that was her life now.
It was still making her wonder if this were all truly real. Like a repeating heartbeat, so was her love for Tina. That would never change no matter if they were able to work things out and be with one another. They had shared too much of themselves and knew each other too intimately for the two to ever totally stop loving one another. But was that enough? Was loving someone really the cure all for a relationship? Shouldn't there be more to a relationship than love and a child?
Bette took a sip of her tea and again tried to focus on her presentation for the next day's interview. She had not told Tina, but there were a few prestigious art galleries in New York that were after her. Word of what she had done for the CAC had spread quickly through the art community and she had a few offers. But none of them felt truly right. Nothing felt truly right anymore.
Closing her eyes tightly, Bette let herself wander just to a year ago. It was just before she had cheated on Tina. Things were going so good, as far as she knew. In just a year's time, things had gone so badly that the one she thought she was going to spend the rest of her life with had left her and now she wasn't sure what she wanted out of life anymore.
One thing was for sure. She would do anything for her little girl. Though it would nearly kill her should she and Tina split up, she would me Angelica's other mother until the day that she died. Heaven help anyone that tried to get in the way of her and her daughter. That would be a fight to remember.