AN-Here we go again. Thanks for the feedback. I hope you enjoy it.
Working for Helena was interesting to say the least. Tina could see what was going to happen but she could not warn her friend and former lover. The woman was headstrong and all too often she lead with her heart and not her head. It made for an amazing woman but also for someone to be taken advantage of.
What was stranger was the attraction she felt for the newest director. He was good looking and charming. But he was also an ass as she had come to find out. All she wanted was for him to be inside of her like it had been before she had met Bette. She was looking for a relationship just a good time.
But the guy had been crass. Why had he had to mention the fact that not long ago she was a lesbian? Why couldn't he have just had his way with her? She had been a sure thing. All she wanted was for him to take her and take her over and over again. But no, he had to be this macho jerk that didn't believe in girl on girl action.
It was not exactly that she wanted to give that up either. There was nothing wrong with falling in love with someone. But there was something wrong when they proceeded to try and control your life and every move that you made. There was something wrong when you no longer felt right in a relationship that you thought would be the last one you'd ever have.
That was why she had gone through with the second insemination and why they had little Angelica together. At one point, she felt their love and connection was so strong that nothing could destroy it. But then Bette had cheated and it had shattered that bond. Tina was now wondering if it was beyond repair.
Was that why she had wanted to have the affair with a man? Or was she really going back to boys' town? She was still not sure of how she felt. And yet, there was someone else now that was peaking her interest. He already had a son of his own. The two had an instant connection over the kids. Could that lead to more?
Part of her wanted nothing more than that. Part of her wanted to bury so deep all that she had with Bette. There was no one that had gotten her like her ex. There was no one that loved her like her ex. She needed to destroy it and completely. The only way she could do that was to be with a man. It was the total opposite of what she had with her ex.
But was it really what she wanted? Was destroying the one thing that had made her happier than she ever had been the right thing to do? Or was she just hurt so badly that all she wanted to do was to get back at Bette the way that would be the most painful? Revenge was a dish best served hot. But was this revenge?
Tina looked at the picture of Bette holding Angelica. It made her heart sing. It made her entire body sing. If she were true to herself that was what she wanted was for her family to be back and not here with Henry preparing to have sex with him. All she wanted now was to forget what
Bette had meant to her. That way having had it destroyed the way that it had would not hurt so much.
Or would it? Tina felt Henry inside of her and it made her want to cry. Not because he was giving her such pleasure. But because it was the final straw in killing what she had once shared with Bette. Because she was not sure if or when she would ever be happy again. Because she was not sure if she could get back to the place she wanted to be. She was too afraid that she had fallen to hard and fast to ever get back to that place again.