Here you go I hope you like it. Thanks to JillCullen for her help!

Chapter 6 : Changes

My family had suddenly disappeared and the door of the bedroom was shut. She looked up at me nervously. I couldn't believe her.

"So you are perfectly willing to stand three days of complete torture and eventually death to be with me but you are unsure that you want to marry me? Don't you think that is a little twisted?"

She still looked nervous but it looked as if her anxiety was lessening as what I had said was sinking in.

"Edward, the idea of marriage is just scary to me, I can't help it. I didn't have the best role models for this, your family was the first time I have ever seen marriages that really work."

"Do you really think that I don't feel the same way about you that Carlisle feels about Esme?"

I could see the skepticism on her face.

"Bella, I know it's hard to see how much I love you after this past week but you know I do. If it wasn't true you wouldn't be here. I only did it to protect you I know it was stupid but I had to try I didn't know what else to do…."

"This is exactly what I am worried about! How could you make a decision like that and just assume you knew what was best for me when I had told you a million times that it wasn't the life I wanted?"

"I do love you but I wanted to keep you safe and happy. I know it was wrong but Bella I'm not perfect and I've been trying to tell you that. There is probably only one thing that I do really well and that is love you. Marry me and let me do that for the rest of eternity, I will make this up to you I promise. I don't want to try to live without you again, I missed you too much."

"I love you too but I need to feel like we are making decisions together and that you actually value my opinion. You may technically be an old man and I may still technically be a teenager but I need to know we are on equal footing here or you are always going to be keeping things from me and handling things without me. I don't want that not if you really want to stay married."

"You know I don't want that either. Bella, you make me feel more like a seventeen year old everyday and don't assume that I have learned anything in the past. This is all new to me and that is why I keep screwing everything up. I know I am stubborn, over bearing and that I have a bad temper but you make me better and I need you. Please trust me that I will always love you and I will never leave you again."

I noticed the tears starting to escape and roll down her beautiful pink cheeks. I was going to miss that pink but it was worth it if she really wanted this and she really wanted me.

"I trust you Edward but now you have to trust me. Don't you get it? I love you more than this life, it would only be a life if you were in it. I want forever I don't ever want to leave you. You have to change me you have to prove to me that this is what you really want too and when I come back to you I will marry you."
I couldn't stand looking at those beautiful lips anymore I crushed her lips to mine and I grabbed her and put her in my lap. I held her as tightly as I could without crushing her little body. I couldn't believe the feelings that she could invoke in me. I wanted her so badly in every way. I was kissing her more passionately than I had ever dared before and when her tongue touched my lips I couldn't resist her and all my old boundaries came tumbling down. Her tongue in my mouth was indescribable and then I could feel her lift the back of my shirt and her tiny warm hand was suddenly running up and down my back . I felt like I was on fire I knew I had to stop now or I wouldn't be able to.

My voice came out hoarse and raspy, "Bella I have to stop I can't hurt you, just wait a few more days and then I will give you whatever you want I promise."

I saw an evil smile cross her face, she was a very dangerous woman and I was about to make her even more dangerous.

"Do you need to talk to the family at all before?"

"Yeah."

They didn't wait for an invitation they all came barging in and I knew from their thoughts that they had been listening to everything we had said. Emmett was still laughing at the fact that Bella had called me an old man.

Bella spoke first, "Thanks everybody for your help."

Everyone was offering Bella assurances, hugging her and congratulating her on the impending wedding which she still seemed really nervous about. Carlisle was asking me whether he needed to stay with me or not but as worried as I was I wanted to do this alone. So I decided to ask Alice.

I whispered as quietly as I could."Alice do I need anyone to stay with me?"

No, you will do fine, and gave me what I was sure was supposed to be a reassuring smile.

I'm taking Jasper away he won't be able to handle this and plus I need to get everything ready for the wedding and try to stay out of my head so you don't ruin it!

I nodded my head at her and turned my attention back to Carlisle and shook my head no.

I looked back at Bella, "Are you ready? Are you sure?"

"Yes and yes." she said with a nervous smile.

The rest of the family quietly left the room and I snuggled up close to her on the bed pressing her warmth against me one last time. I put my head on her chest breathing in her scent and listening to the sound of her heart. It was the most magical sound in my world. I loved her so much and even though this still seemed wrong I was inherently selfish and now I couldn't wait. The thought of having her with me forever was more than I had ever let myself dream possible. I loved this woman so completely but I honestly was going to miss the human part of her.

Her voice interrupted the silence. "Edward, are you worried about how you will feel about me when I am different?"

"No it could never change the way I feel about you but I will miss it."

She was running her fingers through my hair and kissing the top of my head. I was starting to get nervous again, how was I going to put her through so much pain?

She broke through the quiet again, "I know it's going to be bad but let's just get it over with, please."

I tried to say something but nothing would come out. My breath caught and I looked at her lovely face and started to kiss her again. I needed her and I needed to do this. I could feel her breath on my neck as she kissed a trail back up to my lips. The smell of her fear and excitement was driving me mad and her blood... I could almost taste it. I made my way to her neck and then I heard her voice, "Do it, just do it!"

I kissed her once more and then sank my teeth into her neck . The monster inside me roared to life as I drank the blood that had been calling to me for over a year. It was so sweet and intoxicating I didn't know if I could stop. I was going to kill her if I kept going and I couldn't lose her now. I forced myself to stop and I dropped her back down to the bed. I looked into her beautiful eyes, "I'm so sorry."

She smiled up at me as I bit into her wrists and ankles allowing my venom to flow quickly through her but her smile quickly turned tortured as she let out a deafening scream. When she caught her breath she looked up at me to speak, but she couldn't get out the words.

Then with great effort she gasped, "Edward I love you, and I can handle this I will be ok."

I held her close kissing her and pleading with her to forgive me. I heard her raspy and frightened answer, "There is nothing to forgive."

The pain took over and the screaming continued. How in the world was I going to sit and watch her for three days writhe in agony? My beautiful angel was dying and it was all my fault. I grabbed her close and whispered I love you over and over into her ear. I begged God to forgive me for what I had done to her, and I begged him to let my angel keep her soul. I started to hum her lullaby and held her close as she thrashed around in pain. As I hummed she quieted. She seemed to dance in and out of consciousness. The only words she said were uttered to comfort me. She was going through hell but couldn't stop thinking about me. I didn't deserve her but I couldn't be without her.

My song for this chapter was Warning Sign by Coldplay