Back to Kaworu's POV. Third chapter already.
"Spoken words", Thoughts
Disclaimer: The only thing I really own is my computer and it doesn't work. I don't own NGE, and I don't own Evanescence's song (though I can sing them pretty well LOL)
Song used is "Fields of Innocence" by Evanescence (obviously).
Is there still hope to fly?
I still remember the world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were clouded by what I know now
"How did he came to be on this state?"
"They didn't say…some couple found him and they called the police….they thought he was dead already, you know?"
"How could that be? Who would do that to a child?"
"It's incredible how mean people can be…"
"And no one has came to visit him? No one at all?"
"The police said he may be from far away because no one seems to know him. They even published a picture on T.V., hoping that someone would know him, but that was months ago and no one ever came…"
The words seemed to be miles away from his pained mind. He spend like ten minutes listening to the conversation between the two women without giving it the importance it had. He couldn't understand what they said, though; his brain was still feeling lethargic from the comma state he had been the last months. He could listen to a variety of sounds…something that seemed like water, then the gossiping of the two women, and then a sound like that of people running everywhere. And a siren…
Where has my heart gone?
An uneven tried for the real world
But then, everything became clearer…and he realized he was actually hearing something…the torturing silence had gone away…and that's where he really woke up from his comma, and opened his red orbs to finally found out what was going on.
Oh, I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything
And knowing nothing at all
One of the women was still talking when the other one grabbed her arm and pointed at the now fully awake teenager. He thought they looked like nurses…and when he sat down on the bed he had been lying on, he could appreciate that he was in some kind of hospital room. The first woman, who seemed to recover faster from the shock, went out of the room murmuring something about calling the doctor, but the second one stayed and stared at the silver-haired teen in front of her.
"Where…where am I?" he heard his own weak voice saying. He gazed at the woman, like he was trying to get the answers out of her with his crimson eyes.
"In the hospital" the woman answered automatically. She seemed too surprised to say anything at all, so he was lucky that she had actually answered his question.
"What?…What happened? Why am I here?" He widened his eyes and starting scrutinizing the room like searching for something familiar. But when he tried to turn his head to face the wall behind him, he felt a pain so intense that made him close his eyes and fell to the bed. Physical pain…that could only mean something… "Am I alive?" he mumbled, eyes closed and his hands on his chest, where the pain was becoming stronger.
I still remember the Sun
Always warm on my back
Somehow it seems colder now
The nurse, because she was a nurse, didn't answered to his queries, because at that precise moment, a male doctor entered the room and started questioning him.
"Can you move your legs? Can you breathe normally? Do you know your name? What's the last you remember?" And he kept checking his vital signs, moving his finger in front of his red eyes, taping him in various places and asking "Does it hurt there?" so fast that the silver-haired couldn't have answered correctly even if he wanted to. When the doctor was finished convincing himself he wasn't talking to a dead body, he started questioning the teenage boy again. Now, he felt a lot more calmed and tried his best to answer the doctor.
"Do you remember your name?" the doctor stared at him, while the first nurse wrote everything down. He closed his eyes trying to remember… my name….my name…
"I…I do not know…" he confessed and buried his face in his hands. And then it hit him harder than a truck would have. "Shinji…" he whispered.
"Is Shinji your name?" the doctor was still staring at him, like x-raying him.
"No." the word left his lips firmly. "No…I think I'm Tabris…" but that wasn't true….he wasn't Tabris…not anymore…"I'm Kaworu. Kaworu Nagisa" he added resolutely. Kaworu of the seashore?…who this boy really is? the nurse wondered…
"Ok." said the doctor, who seemed to be an infinitely patient person. "What's the last you remember?" he added some seconds later. The nurse was writing madly on a clipboard…he found that sound very amusing, but that was probably because it had been like ages since he had last heard something.
"Light. A lot of light" he said trying to remember more.
The nurse and the doctor exchanged looks that seemed to mean 'typical'. The nurse nodded with the professional expression of those who are used to hear everyday about staircases that lead to Heaven and of light-ending hallways.
"Am I on Tokyo-3?" Kaworu asked, his eyes wandering from the doctor to the nurse and back again to the doctor.
"Yes, you are…" the nurse answered this time. " Where you born here?" her voice had a light hope note, like she was trying to get more information about this pale boy. The doctor glared at her for the interruption, but she paid no attention to him.
"No…I used to live here…but I'm not from here…" his voice faded away, his only thoughts on a certain brunette. The nurse and the doctor didn't get the real meaning of Kaworu's words though… After a small exchange of opinions, they simply decided that it was better for him to rest and left him alone.
Where has my heart gone?
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
Oh, I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything
Now Kaworu was astonished…Rest? Where those Lilims mad? He couldn't rest! Not now he had escaped from Hell. There was no way he could just lay there and wait for those baka Lilims to decide he was healed…
He reunited what was left of his strength and stood up. He dressed himself with some clothes he found in the room, even if he realized they weren't his clothes as soon as he tried them on, and he left the room straightforward.
Later he would found out by the Lilim's newspapers that he had been found on a lake, fully injured and naked. That a couple walking near the lake had spotted him and they had called the police when they thought he had drowned. And that from the moment he had been declared barely alive, he had spent six months in a comatose state, until the doctors had lost all hope of recovering…but the real truth hadn't paid him a visit yet…
Where has my heart gone?
An uneven tried for the real world
Oh, I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything
Oh, where, where has my heart gone?
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
Oh, I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything
He tried his best to make his way to NERV's offices, as he remembered the right way to get there.
I still remember….
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