Chapter 2
"Damn." He muttered to himself. How would he be so stupid? Of coarse she had a class around here at this time.
He was trying to avoid her since the break up. It would be easier for the both of them to just not run into each other…but of coarse there he was with a girl right in front of her. A mix of emotions surged through every part of him so strongly that he shivered.
Anger. Guilt. Heartbreak. Grudge. Sadness. Emptiness.
It was so much for him to endure. He loved her so much that she couldn't even begin to imagine. If it wasn't for his stupid pride, and his stupid self than they wouldn't even be apart. But, under the circumstances, this was the easiest thing.
Believe it or not.
He had to let her go. He had to make her think that they just couldn't be together and didn't love her anymore. It, in his eyes, was easier than the truth.
He loved her so much. His heart ached. There was a feeling in his stomach that made him feel like a bottomless pit. A deep abyss of emptiness. Without her he was nothing.
She was his everything. His day and night. His life support. There were really absolutely no words that he could use to describe how he really felt for her. Love was too simple of a word to explain it. No. It was far more than love. It was everything.
If only things could have been different. If only he didn't have to do this to her.
Looking at her…she looked terrible. Broken. He cringed at the thought that he was the one who caused it all. It was him. He broke her heart and tore it to shreds when all he wanted to do was protect it and keep it safe.
Her eyes were shot from crying. She had already looked sickly. It wasn't good. She looked almost dead. She was a mess.
'Kagome, I'm hurting too…terribly. I just want you to move on with me and be happy soon. Please. I can't bear to see your beautiful eyes tainted with hate and pain.' He wanted to talk to her. Help her. Touch her.
He wanted nothing more than to take her in his arms and protect her from any harm that may come her way, but he couldn't. It was him. He harmed her. He broke her. 'I'm broken too, Kagome, if I can't have you.'
"What are you damning?" She looked over to the side to see Kagome run into the bathroom looking pale and green, like she had been on a boat that seemed to rock non-stop as waves continued to crush into the small weak boat. He looked bitterly at her.
Seething through clenched teeth, "Kikyo, stay out of it." He warned her with those few words. If you ever heard his warnings they were more threats of bad things to come if he were to be defied. Kikyo flinched, but then smiled warily as she reached out and stroked his cheek.
"Stay out of what, Inuyasha? There's no longer anything there." She leaned forward and kissed him on the lips. They were received but not returned. His lips tight together in pure sickened defiance. Kikyo just chuckled as she walked away to her next class.
Inuyasha took a defeated sigh. Without Kagome, he was nothing. He screwed it up and he would have to pay the ultimate price. Losing the one thing that ever truly mattered to him in his entire existence. Her.