AN Oooh so much angsty shit in this chapter. I know a few peopel's reviews were like no this cannot be Lit. Let's face it what she did in that episode was not good and how she expected Jess to wait for her. so this is just a harder version to get to our couple okay, rory really has to work her ass off :)
Rory sat on the small wall of the balcony as listened as the music filtered upstairs, she didn't feel like being sociable. But she knew she had to make an effort for her mother and Luke, after all this was her night and she didn't want to ruin it.
Emily Gilmore had been looking for granddaughter everywhere; there were a few respectable boys that she had wanted her to meet. She looked up to see her make her way down the staircase, grabbing a glass of champagne she passed it to her.
"Rory, why don't you show Chad the patio?" Grabbing Chad from his conversation, Emily pushed him towards Rory.
Rory smiled and rolled her eyes and stepped towards the French doors leading to the patio.
"So you graduated from Yale?" Chad enquired, his glance watching the sway of her hips underneath the slim dress.
Yeah about two years ago, I got a job on the Obama campaign not long after but I quit last week." Rory closed the doors behind her and followed as Chad walked towards the pool.
"You quit your job! So you have another job to go to right?" Chad stood by the pool and turned his head.
"Actually, no."
"Why would you do that? You must be aware there are not many jobs in your field that you can just pick and choose. "Rory opened her mouth ready to argue that it was not his business.
"Yeah, exactly why would you quit your job Rory?" She spun on her heel to Jess leaning against a tree.
"What I do is none of your business." Jess smirked and stepped closer.
"Oh but I do think it is my business." Chad looked suddenly between Jess and Rory, their stances defensive but in tune with each other.
"Actually it's not. I do not answer to you Jess, and from what I can remember you made it very clear to me also." Rory began to raise her voice and crossed her arms across her chest.
Chad took the opportunity to leave the warring couple and back slightly until he was safely back at the party.
"I know what I said, and I still goes."
"What did I do to you, that so wrong?" Rory lifted her hand and pushed the hair away from her face.
"Poor innocent Rory, you'll never really know what you caused." Jess shrugged his shoulders and feigned nonchalance.
"You're impossible." Rory spun on her heels and marched back into the party. Jess clenched his jaw and watched her walk away from him.
Rory entered the house and went in search of her mother; spotting her in the corner she tapped her lightly on the shoulder. Lorelai excused herself and allowed herself to be pulled away by her daughter.
"Mom, I don't feel well." Lorelai placed her hand on Rory's forehead.
"Okay hun, although this may be a new disease kind of like Jessititus." Rory lifted her head in annoyance.
"Please not tonight, apologize to grandma for me." Rory kissed her mother on the cheek.
Standing by the door she accepted her coat from the maid with a smile, turning she saw Jess enter the house and glance at her. Giving him one she opened the door and left.
Rory fastened her seat belt and looked up when she saw her passenger door open; Jess sat in the passenger seat and folded his arms.
"Get out of my car."
"No." He settled back into his seat and waited for her to start the car.
"My mom can get someone to take you home."
"I'm not leaving this car Rory." Grabbed his seat belt he buckled himself in.
"Fine." Rory turned the key and stepped on the gas pedal reversing quickly out of the driveway.
Rory didn't realize how quickly she made it back to Star's Hollow, until she parked out Luke's. She stared straight ahead refusing to turn off the ignition, Jess on the other hand sat and waited.
"Your home, time for you to get out." Rory continued to stare through the windscreen.
"I don't get why you're so angry with me." Jess replied.
"You know me so well Jess, well I'll tell you, you don't know anything. I needed you and I ruined it, end of story." Jess looked at her for a moment and unbuckled his seatbelt.
"Don't you dare do this to me again, I've done it. I've gotten over you." Jess fumed.
"Jess?" She turned to finally face him.
"No Rory, You made your choice two years ago, you don't get what you want this time." Opening the passenger door he exited the car and slammed the door behind him.
Rory watched as he opened the diner door and disappeared into the darkness, sighing to herself she pulled away from the kerb.
She sat in the car the headlights shining on the front porch, the engine was still running. Glancing over the steering wheel she wondered if anyone would really miss her, she was never a depressed sort of a person. She was aware of how long she had sat in the car, but it wasn't until there was a shadow against the driver's window. Turning off the ignition she opened the car door and rested back against it.
"Come back for a second round? Let me tell you, I'm kinda not in the mood."
"No, I want to know. What do you really want from me?"
"I don't know." Rory hot her fist against the car door frustrated. "I miss you, and seeing you back in this town. Makes me realize what mistakes I made."
Jess glance at her and tried to remain indifferent, but his stomach was churning with anticipation. He only wanted to come back for his Uncle's wedding there was no other excuse but that , he wanted to finally get over the girl he couldn't seem to forget.
"There was a time when I missed you, but you actually put me in my place."
"I know, and I regret that."
"I can't give you what you want." Jess placed both his hands on either side of the car blocking Rory against the car. Rory could smell him all around her and she closed her eyes at the memories. "But maybe I can give you what we both need."
His lips touched her neck, the skin raised against his soft touch. Grabbing onto his arms for support she leaned in further and whispered against his ear.
"I'll take whatever I can get."
Warm breath flutters across her breast, and hard, steady hands touched every part of her skin. But it was those lips that she remembered, lips that would cause her stomach to jump and roll and threaten to fall out.
These were memories she would keep and bury them deep, allowing no one to touch. But it was when she looked into his gaze, she didn't see Jess she saw someone cold, unmoving. Cold dark orbs that when she really looked into him she saw nothing but stone.
This was not how she expected sex to be with Jess, she still had her teenage fantasy. The first boy she ever thought of sleeping with, how she wanted to be magical and they would laugh and embrace each other and whisper they would be together forever.
He couldn't look at her; she would understand this would mean more than what he told her. Her body was so welcoming so pliant, that he was certain her would fall in and never return.
Her lips were swollen from his kisses, and his was his name on her lips and not anyone else. He had to prove to himself that he could feel nothing for her, she was just another girl. Rory closed her eyes and lifted herself slightly from the bed, his hands pulling on her lower back.
As he pushed and entered her, all he felt was fire. Her legs wrapped tightly around his waist, and her breasts crushed against his chest. They were a perfect fit in every way; her gasps grew louder his name a mantra on her lips. It was then he shelved this time and place for him alone and no one else.
Jess let go of Rory when he reached his climax and fell back onto the bed beside her, his arm pressed against hers. Her breathing began to slow down to a normal pace, and she trend to face him.
"I love you." Whispering just loud enough for him to hear.
"I don't." Jess replied although he wasn't entirely sure he meant it.
Rory turned away from him and pulled the sheet over her body, she wouldn't let him see the tears that ran down her cheeks.
"If you really wanted to hurt me, well mission completed."
"I told you I couldn't give you what you wanted."
"Did you have to be so cruel?" Rory tucked the hair behind her ear.
"Were not kids Rory, did you save me this cruelty two years ago?" Rory sat up in the bed shocked.
"So that is what this is about? I hurt you pride, you find a way to hurt me back."
"You kissed me back, and then tell me you're in love with someone else. And I'm supposed to be nice dependable, gullible Jess."
"If I could take it back, I would." Rory turned back and looked out of her bedroom window.
"It's too late for that now." Jess climbed out of the bed, grabbing his boxer shorts and slipping them on.
"You just made me feel like a whore." Rory spat.
"You could have said no and sent me on my way, Listen we have to get through today. After the wedding I'm out of here."
"Why am I not surprised, It's your signature now." Jess lowered his head; grabbing his clothes he left the house.