Actually I wrote this chapter some time ago, but didn't think of posting it up because I lost it for about 3 months. I'm going back to our protagonists. And for all of you who didn't know who was the mysterious speaker from the last chapter, she's an OC that plays into my story, but not in a major way.

Wake Me Up With Summer Rain
Story 10: Diary Entries and Letters: Part 1

As I gaze out into the night sky, I wonder about my choices in my life. Especially about the one about her.

She was kind, gentle and really shy. Night coloured hair framed her luminous snowy white face. Her eyes were also white but like pearls, during the day. At night I thought her eyes were like the starts of the sky. She as petite but was powerful, if you underestimated her.

When I met her, she looked fragile, that she would break at any moment.

The starts aren't out right now. Like how she isn't around me.

I can't forget her even with the pain she caused me. I can't explain it.

Heh…

You would get hurt if you underestimated her power.

I think I read too much in our friendship.

A one-sided love that suddenly flipped.

She chased me. Now I chase her.

How ironic.

Slowly (1)…

I'm an asshole. Sasuke-teme was being so shitty today.

Maybe it isn't him who is the bastard.

I almost killed him after all.

Dammit…

I only thought of her and how she would react to what I'm doing now. Sasuke-teme, why do you have to be right all the time?

"She loves you still you dumbass! Even I see it, and I was blind about everything! Dammit! Get over yourself, Naruto, talk to her! I'll kill you if you don't. Don't let me know that the one who saves us can't save himself from himself…"

So much for reading "underneath the underneath." Sorry Kakashi-sensei.

I wonder what she's doing right now.

Gradually (1)…

Have you ever wanted to die? I do.

I've thought of it before, when it was dark. When I didn't let anyone close. Some man I turned out to be.

Onee-san is depressed about me. I don't understand her sometimes. She tells me so many weird things. Makes me think of that time…

Anyways…

Onee-san complains quite a bit. I don't really understand why, but Oba-chan says her half-demon heritage puts her on edge, the majority of the time. I think I understand her grouchiness. She's isolated right from the start but she never let it interfere with her life.

She trained under Onee-san, and loved her like sister.

Why do I keep talking about her in past tense? She hasn't died…

I'm a bastard.

Insanely (1)…

How long has it been? Three, maybe four years since I left. Is it wonderful as I left it. Konoha? Is it?

Onee-chan is good to me. She's a little bitchy, but it was because we got attached by a bear demon yesterday. (Oct 27) Onee is worrying me though. Even though I'm protecting her, it's more like she's protecting me. DO you know why? You did train with her.

I miss Home. Bye.

Naruto

END NOTES: (1) I took this off of a translation of Rurouni Kenshin volume 19, the last chapter. It is describing the development of Naruto-kun to his horrible point. As for the letter at the end, it was sent while Naruto was traveling with Jiraiya and met up with my OC. That is NOT important to the story, but plays a small part in Naruto's development.