Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns Twilight. India.Arie (and Don Henley) own the song "The Heart of the Matter."

The Heart of the Matter

Chapter 3

I've been learning to live without you now

But I miss you sometimes

The more I know, the less I understand

All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter

But my will gets weak

And my thoughts seem to scatter

But I think it's about forgiveness

Forgiveness

Even if, even if you don't love me anymore…

Chapter 3: Screwed

"Oh Alice! I can't believe how stupid I was! I've ruined everything haven't I?!" I said with tears rolling down my face.

"What? Ohh…" Alice just had a vision. "Well, I was going to ask you if your eating habits had changed, but now I see what happened. I just had a vision of you confessing to me what happened with that Jacob Black this morning." She did not look happy.

I could not believe that she did not know until now. If had not slipped and just played along with her whole "eating disorder" thing, everything probably would have still been okay for a while. It would have been like nothing had ever happened. I might have found myself in a treatment facility for the next few weeks, but I could live with that. Living without Edward, however, would be unbearable.

"Bella, you are like a sister to me. Edward is my brother though. I have obligations to both of you. Frankly, I really don't know which side to take now. Whatever I do will hurt both of you in the end. I just can't believe you acted so irresponsibly! You're marrying my brother in three weeks for crying out loud!" Alice sounded hurt, but also extremely angry with me.

"You can't let him find out Alice," I pleaded.

"Chances are he already knows. Remember, he can read my mind and hear my thoughts," Alice replied.

What had I done? Here I was, so naively thinking that my almost sister would take my side. Of course she would side with her brother. Of course.

The tears came more profusely now. The gravity of everything was catching up to me. I heard a knock at the door next, but I just let it go, figuring it was a figment of my imagination.

It was Edward.

Edward had heard me crying from down the hall and wanted to make sure everything was all right. I pleaded with Alice through my eyes to clear her mind. I could not believe I was lying to Edward. How could I have let myself do that?

"Bella! What's wrong, love? You can tell me anything!" Edward said, worry present in his eyes.

"Nothing, just a little bit worried over the wedding and all. I mean, what if I trip walking down the aisle?" I lied.

Edward chuckled and gave me my favorite crooked smile. He did not know.

"Don't worry, love. Alice will make sure everything goes smoothly. Nothing to worry about," He replied and then walked out of the room confused, and with what I thought was a look of sorrow in his eyes.

I was so screwed.

A/N: Sorry this was a short chapter. I'm not really sure where to go with this. I'm having a writer's block lol. I'm working on another fic now and once I finish it, I will probably come back to this one. Sorry!! xoxo, :)