Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto... What the hell are you staring at? Can't you see I'm grieving? Damn people... Can't even make a public spectacle of myself and embarrass my family without someone thinking it's their business...

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What had he done? He shouldn't have acted on his desires. He had always been there for Naruto and they had grown closer all the time they spent together. But that was how all this had happened: his own feelings for the younger male had grown out of control.

Iruka sighed. His relationship with Naruto, not to mention his relationship with Asuma Sarutobi, was over, evevn if Sasuke or Naruto decided not to tell.

Iruka knew he would always want more of Naruto.

But Naruto and Sasuke are together. How could I even think of separating them? I should be glad they've found happiness in each other.

But he wasn't.

Iruka knew he should apologize but you couldn't exactly walk up to someone and say,' I'm sorry for raping you and knocking you unconscious can we go back to the way we were?' and he didn't want to upset Naruto even more. What had come over him? He had betrayed Naruto's trust, his friendship, for a few moments of pleasure.

Who are you kidding? It was a lifetime of mind-blowing, body-numbing sensation. So much more than Asuma ever gave you--- or ever could.

Why... why can't I control my thoughts? I don't think I truly feel that way... I know I don't.

As he unlocked the door and stepped inside, he came face to face with Asuma.

"A-asuma! How'd you get in? What are you doing here?" Iruka stammered.

"I came to see you, Iruka." Asuma chuckled."You gave me a key, remember? I thought I'd surprise you."

Asuma pulled Iruka close, lowering his lips to meet Iruka's, but Iruka pulled away.

"Wha-?"

"Asuma, I don't think we should see each other anymore."

" What? Why?" Asuma demanded.

"I'd like my key back, please."

Asuma frowned. "You've found someone else."

Iruka averted his eyes. "No, it's that we're two very different people. I'm sorry that it took me so long to realize that-"

"This isn't over, Iruka. Whoever it is, I will hunt them down and make them sorry they ever met you." Asuma promised as he stormed out of the home.

"Kuso! This is all my fault. I never meant to hurt either of them."

Feeling remorseful? You can't be. You've never felt a such a rush, taking what you want even though it belongs to another, causing pain, destroying lives.

No! That's not how I feel! What is wrong with me?

Iruka looked at his shelf and retrieved the picture that had caught his eye.

Naruto, his eyes shining with laughter and happiness, smiling for the camera. A grin spread across his own face as he remembered the day this picture had been taken.

Flashback

"Thanks for treating me to ramen, Iruka-sensei!" Naruto said happily, tearing into his third bowl.

"You earned it, Naruto." Iruka smiled.

"How's that, sensei?"

By being so damn sexy. "By training hard and giving it your all in class."

Why had he said that? He'd know that there was a more perverted reason for taking Naruto out all the time. Naruto never even paid attention in class!

"..."

Kuso, Naruto had figured it out! "Naruto, I-"

"Okay!"

"O-okay...?"

"That's what I said, isn't it? Geez, old age is really getting to you, sensei."

Iruka's brow twitched. And he was in love with this boy.

Naruto called for the chef of the stand. "Hey, mister! Refill, please!"

Suddenly, Sasuke appeared, holding a camera. "Smile, dobe."

"I told you not to call me that!"

"Whatever. I'm stuck with photography for the academy's yearbook so just shut up and say tomatoes."

Naruto grinned full and wide. " If you say so, Sas-Uke..."

Sasuke snapped the picture then punched him in the face and snapped a picture of that, walking off. "Well, I'll be going."

"Ketsunoana!"Naruto called after him. "You better not put the second one in the yearbook!"

Sasuke merely lifted a hand in departure.

"I hate him-Ooh, ramen's here!" Naruto said, digging in, stuffing his face, Sasuke forgotten.

End of Flashback

He sighed, the smile fading away as he traced the outline of Naruto's face with his finger, a single tear streaming down his face before he placed it back on the shelf.

"Naruto..."

That was a look at Iruka's feelings, showing you that he's in constant conflict with himself. If you're wondering about the tomatoes thing, that's Sasuke's favorite food.

' Ketsunoana' means 'asshole' in Japanese. Excuse my French...lol!