Lost – Making Amends

Okay someone asked me to do this and I don't know how good I am at it. It's not really a lemon, but than again it's not so pure...

BELLA

"Edward," I wisped as his hands smoothed around my abdomen, cradling my back as I arched towards him. My arms slowly crept around his neck drawing him closer to me. Bringing his lips to mine, he caressed them passionately.

Gradually, his kisses migrated to my jaw bone until I traced them behind my right ear. "I love you, Bella," he whispered sweetly. I responded as if was my first time hearing him say it.

I smiled and whispered the words back. He continued to warm up my icy skin.

I secured a good grip onto his shirt sides and slid it off of him. Tracing his chest, I was in awe over how beautiful he was. It didn't matter how many times I saw him, I still became breathless. Luckily now, breathing wasn't essential. His hand stroked my face trailing down to my shirt which was still half-buttoned. I reached for my shirt getting through two buttons until I felt Edward softly take my hands.

"Bella, would you please stop trying to take your clothes off." His voice was rough with lust. "Let me do it."

His nimble fingers patiently unbuttoned, one by one. Soon, my torso was as exposed as his except the only thing covering me was a bustier. Before today, I figured this must have been something I had worn as the dominatrix Bella. Edward ran his hand over it causing a sigh to escape from me.

"Just take it off," I whispered to him. He nodded as I rose to let him release me. At his touch I trembled in desire, but he didn't quicken his pace. I wanted him to go faster, but he wanted to take his sweet time. "Edward, hurry please."

He was almost done when I turned to him, ready to encounter his lips again, but he placed his index finger cleverly on my lips. "If you're truly sorry and truly love me, you'll let me do this my way."

I took his finger into my mouth to show how serious I was about this. His finger glided out of my mouth, leaving its taste lingering. His eyes tried to smolder me into submission, but I just smoldered back. He frowned and lifted himself away from me leaving the ether between us. "Edward, I'm sorry, but I can't wait anymore. Stop teasing me."

"I'm not teasing anyone, Bella," he whispered. My eyes closed as I thought I was being controlling. I was supposed to be making Edward happy, not the other way around. I thought I was a cruel person for trying to get Edward to speed up our first reunion. I was supposed to be making amends with him.

He lightly brushed against my eyelids. "Edward, stop," I whispered, but I doubt he would. At this very moment he was probably smiling.

Opening my eyes, I was correct, for Edward was smiling as he cradled the nape of my neck. He placed butterfly kisses along shoulder, my collarbone. "Edward, please" I spoke, barely audible. "This is unbearable."

"No," he mumbled. His kisses progressed from my collar sliding sensually into my bosom. Over my silent heart, he said softly, "This is teasing…"

I didn't think I could take much more of this. I was on the verge of grabbing and laying him on the bed so I could have my way with him, but I fought against the urge. I moaned aloud so Edward understood exactly what he was doing to me. "Teasing is mean…" I pointed out before he leveled his face with mine.

"You mean like this?" His velvet voice was dripping with pleasure. He brought his right hand right above my knee, loitering his way up to the top of my thigh. I clenched in frustration as he grazed my leg.

"Edward, I'm going to ask you one more time to just…stop."

He smiled and kissed me lightly. "Or what?"

My eyes suddenly went raven black. "Or…I'll rape you." He drew away from me again, pondering over my answer. I thought he had given up this time.

But, I thought wrong. Edward came back hovering over and his eyes were lakes of molten gold. His expression was arcane to me. Lowering his head, he inhaled my amatory fragrance and brought his lips to my ear again. My breath caught as he instantly pressed my body to his.

"I believe they don't call it rape if it's consensual," he uttered coarsely.

I grabbed his chin forcing a kiss onto his lips and he didn't object. Slowly, he rolled around, so I was on top. "Edward, you are way too patient," I muttered on his lips. His hands slid up and down my back as I knotted my fingers through his unkempt hair.

"No, silly girl, you're too impatient," he explained as he regained control and rolled until he was on top again. I shook my head in opposition when he took my face in his hands. "Bella, we have forever to be together and you want to rush. I'm going to do this nice and slow – they way I like it."

"Edward…"

"Shh, unless you're going to scream my name, there is no talking," Edward directed as he hitched my legs around his hips.

"Yes, sir. Now, give me something to scream about," I purred. He smiled as caused me to moan his name, and that's when I knew this was going to be a pleasurable night.

Morning –

Swells of passion filled the room. Edward and I lay together under the sheets with our limbs tangled together while he stroked tendrils of my hair as I rested on his bare chest.

"Edward…" I called out. He had moved on from playing in my hair to fondling with my ear when I raised my head to look at him.

"Yes, love."

"Don't – ever – make me wait again," I pressed lightly and he chuckled. "I'm not joking. I almost combusted and then you still would be tied up at this point."

He stroked the tip of my nose while he spoke, "I'm quite sure I wouldn't mind." Smiling, I replaced my head back onto his chest, inhaling his aroma. It was pleasant just to be able to lay with Edward and not have to worry about the rest of the world – no Jacob, Tanya, nor the rest of the Cullen family.

But then, I thought about all of the people I have hurt the past days and I felt horrible. I made reparations with Edward – I can honestly say I enjoyed it. But I don't think Edward would approve of me using the same method for the other people I hurt.

Tensed in self pity, I didn't notice when Edward kissed into my hair. "Bella, what's upsetting you so?"

I twisted myself around so I looked him directly in the face; his eyes flashed a concerned copper. "I feel like I have been such a dreadful person and put everyone in awkward positions, including you and -"

He silenced me with a soft brush of his fingers on my face. "Love, if you feel that way maybe you should give everyone a formal apology."

"You make it sound so easy…" I thought in my head.

"Because it is easy," he mentally corrected as he tried to smolder an intense golden glare on me. I felt my defense dwindle down. "All you have to do is decide to go through it."

"Well how should I go about this?" I countered.

"Well, you could start by making it up to me…" he smiled.

"Oh and how would I do that?" I was curious. I thought we already 'apologized.'

"We could start with you letting me buy you a new car…or pay for your tuition."

I shook my head because I didn't need anything else from Edward. "I don't think that such a good idea," I frowned.

"Bella are you going to be committed to this plan, because it starts with me, otherwise…" he trailed off. I sighed. Without being mentally prepared, I was breathing shallowly as I thought about Edward's offer. He wanted to give me things just to express my request for forgiveness; that was ironic.

"Edward…why is it that we are so backwards? Shouldn't I be the giving you things so you know I love you and I'm sorry?"

"No – I like us the way we are, backwards and all. After all, the lion did fall in love with the lamb."

I rested my chin on his sculpted torso while he touched my cheek. At the perfect opportunity, I quickly kissed his hand and slowly pushed my body up to level with his.

"Now, Bella, you mustn't do that," Edward stuttered.

"Do what," I asked coyly. My fingers dragged along his chest, leaving Edward breathing unevenly.

"Tease," he emphasized as he seized my hips in an iron grasp.

"You mean like this…" I brought my mouth to his, osculating with every erogenous notion that swept through my mind into his.

"Bella." His voice was muffled by my aggressive stunt. When I thought my job was done, I quickly pecked Edward under his chin and playfully tapped his cheek. Leaving Edward in a daze, I climbed off of him, grabbed the comforter from the bed, and draped it across my exposed body.

Tossing a suggestive glance over my shoulder, I strutted towards our bathroom – satisfied.

EDWARD

I shouldn't have teased Bella last night because this morning her teasing left me partially paralyzed. I couldn't think or act on what she was relating to me. There were so many…inappropriate thoughts that I only could pick up fragments. What I came up with was something about public place…a girl…the meadow…and the counter.

Once, my body regained sensation, I got up from the bed and went over to closet. I grabbed the first clothes I saw – something without buttons for Bella's sake – and exited the room. I needed to see Carlisle.

"Come in, Edward," he spoke from the other side of the door. I slowly slid into his office and took a seat in front of his desk. "What do I owe this visit?"

"It's…Bella," I whispered. My brows rose as I tried to suggest what I was implying.

He laughed lightly, "Was it a long night, Edward?"

"Yes…and an even longer morning. You see, Bella, has changed." I stared into his eyes to see if he understood.

Carlisle brought his hands onto the desk as he thought about what I was saying. "Oh…well that's to be expected Edward. She did choose what she wanted for herself and maybe that's what she wanted. It also could be another power we don't know about. But who knows. I certainly don't have the answers. The only thing I can say right now is watch – and I mean watch her this time – and see how she changes. It might only be a side effect from the traumatic experience."

"Thank you, Carlisle." I rose from the chair and proceeded on the way out of the door when he called for me.

"Edward, I know this is none of my business, but when you and Bella…express your love, try not to tease her; no woman likes to be teased."

I smiled nervously and swiftly exited heading towards the sitting area. Unsurprisingly, Emmett and Jasper were there involved in yet another round of video games. I plopped down onto the couch in dire need to hunt again – Bella was wearing me out.

"Guys, can we go hunting, like a camping trip?" I spoke up. Jasper put the game on pause; I knew he felt my anxiety.

"Does this have anything to do with you and Bella?" Jasper wondered which also caught Emmett's attention.

"Partially…but I also think that a male-bonding trip would be beneficial to all of us. It will give the girls a chance to catch up. So would do you say?" They turned to each other exchanging glances.

"Yeah…sure…why not?" They expressed at the same time. I smiled in relief as we all got up and headed towards the garage to 'pack' for our camping trip. Pulling down our human props, I stopped when Bella's voice filled my head.

"Edward, where are you?" Ignoring her I continued to pull out necessary camp gear. "There you are!" she sang and I tensed up. "Don't ever leave me again, Edward," she said playfully. "Hey Emmett and Jasper."

"Hi." They waved in her direction as she came loping inside – she seemed a bit intoxicated.

"Oh and I'm sorry about laassst niiiighhhtt," she slurred. I didn't know what was wrong with her. She smiled peculiarly and swayed precariously. I nervously came to her side and gripped her waist. "Oh, Edward you shouldn't do that." She came towards my ear and whispered brazenly, "It turns me on." I gulped as she laughed under her breath. Emmett and Jasper snickered together but she didn't seem to notice.

"So, Edward, where are you guys going?" Puzzled, she folded her arms to her chest.

"Well, the guys and I decided to go camping."

"Great, I'll go with you."

"It was just going to be a male-bonding trip. I figured that you would start on your atonement and amends while I was gone. Or shop with Alice." Her face fell as she realized I didn't want her to come, but that wasn't the case at all. I wanted to be with her all the time, but not be with her all the time.

"Oh. Well. That's fine. I'll go start on that now – call Jacob. Have fun, Edward." She wriggled out of my hold and exited without kissing me goodbye.

"I love you," I whispered as she disappeared out of my view. "Okay, so let's get going," I said to the guys. After that we loaded into the car Emmett's jeep, told our loved ones goodbye and began our journey of just the guys.

Okay so people don't ask questions yet. I know it is a little confusing, but I will answer any questions in the next chapter. Just put them in your review. I know it has been a long time, too. Sorry :(