Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts, Final Fantasy, nor Fullmetal Alchemist

I have had a few girl friends back at my old home. They never really lasted long because I never really loved them. Every relationship that I've been in, was a lie to me. I only agreed to go out with them because I thought I had feelings for them, but after a while the feelings disappeared. My feelings for Riku are strong and true, unlike I had for anyone else. I've never felt this wonderful feeling in my life. It's new and strange to me, but it makes me feel happy. I have to keep everything hidden, though. A lot of people have issues with homosexuals even though they have done nothing worth of being accused as a freak. Riku would most likely shove me away and call me a faggot. I know if that happens, my heart is going to shatter into a million pieces that can never be fixed.

I know that sooner or later, I'm going to have to confess to Riku. It can't wait any longer. Hopefully, he won't look at me differently.

Mom opened the front door and put her purse down on the side table. "Sora? Is something wrong? You don't look so good."

I smiled up at her and replied, "Everything is fine, Mom."

"Okay, Sweetie. I'm going to the store to get some groceries. I'll be back." She kissed the top of my head and was out of the door in two minutes.

Getting up from the couch, I walked upstairs to my bedroom. The whole stair thing was getting annoying. It took a lot of energy just walking five steps.

I went into my room and picked up the phone that was sitting beside my bed. Picking up the phone, I dialed Riku's number. He picked up and for a second I couldn't speak.

"Hello? You there?" asked Riku, hearing nothing on the other line.

"Riku, you wanna come over?" I asked, hoping he would decline. I was getting nervous about telling him.

"Sure. I'll be right over."

I ran downstairs and opened the door as Riku was about to knock. "Hey!" I said, hoping he didn't suspect anything.

He walked in and smiled at me. I thought I was going to melt at his perfect smile.

I smiled back at him and said, "Let's play some video games in my room."

We walked upstairs to my room and I turned on my game console. I stuck a multiplayer game in it and plugged up the extra controller.

For the next half hour, Riku and I played the game. After we were done, we both just sat on my bed. If there was a time to tell him, it was now.

I looked over at him as I felt my hands starting to sweat. "Riku, I've got to tell you something."

He chuckled and said, "Okay. What is it?"

"Well, the truth is that I'm... I am..." I couldn't get the words out at all. I leaned over and kissed him on the lips as my eyes closed. He didn't seem to budge and I pulled away from him, opening my eyes. His eyes had been closed too and he looked over at me.

"Wow...Sora, I think I'm going to go home now." He got up and walked downstairs to the front door. When I heard the door close shut, I let the tears fall down my face.

"He rejected me..." The pain in my chest was becoming unbearable. I couldn't believe that he just walked out of the house like that. I was hoping he was gay as well and it looks like I was wrong.

Why couldn't anything go my way? I wish I never met Riku in some ways. If I never would have met him, I wouldn't be so miserable right now.

I heard my mom walk in and scurry around, putting groceries away. Without realizing it, I just walked downstairs into the kitchen. When my mom turned around, she saw me standing there in a daze.

She quickly walked over saying, "Sora, baby, are you feeling okay? You really don't look so good."

My mouth wouldn't open and even if it could, I wouldn't have said anything. I wasn't exactly going to tell my mom about my true orientation since I had no idea how she would take it and I doubt it would be good.

Mom hugged me and checked me over again. "You are going to be staying home tomorrow. We need to make sure you are back to your normal self before going out."

'Back to your full self before going out.' Yeah, as if I could ever go back to being normal. I didn't reply to her in any way. I just slowly walked back up to my room, without another word.

As I layed down on my bed and looked at nothing, my mom could be heard talking on the phone.

"Tidus, how much do you know about teenagers and being sick?" she asked as I could hear her pacing in the living room.

I occasionally heard a "yes" and "uh huh" throughout the conversation.

"Sora's not himself. He wouldn't even talk to me or respond. It's like his mind is not here, like he's depressed. You don't think it's because of the move do you?"

They continued to drag on as I kept losing focus and zoning out.

Mom finally hung up and I could hear her walking up the stairs towards my room.

She opened the door and I just looked at her. Mom slightly smiled at me and walked in.

"What's wrong, Sora? Why are you so down? Is it something I did?" she asked as she sat on the edge of my bed, rubbing my back.

I decided I better respond somehow so I shook my head and buried my face in my pillow. My mom sighed and stood up, heading for her room. She turned around and said in the nicest voice anyone could ever have, "Whenever you want to tell me, tell me. If I'm at work, just give me a call and I will listen, but please, Sora, cheer up."

I nodded and soon fell asleep as a nightmare played in my head.