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Chapter 3

I didn't know what to do anymore. I wanted more than anything just to talk to Edward, let him explain things to me. So I decided to go.

"Bella, what are you doing, where are you going?" Oh! Alice, I forgot she was here.

"I am going to see Edward. Do you think you could give me a ride, my truck will wake Charlie up" I said casually, although I really wasn't very sure she would let me go. Not that it mattered. I was going to see Edward with or without her permission, I thought. Well…she is stronger than me.

"Um Bella, I don't think that is the smartest idea right now. Plus he has gone hunting, so he won't be home" She sounded slightly weary though, so I wasn't convinced she was telling the truth.

"Well then we will just wait for him at your house then, wont we?" I was determined. I was going to see Edward.

"Bella-" I cut her off

"Alice, I will see Edward, so why not take the safer route by driving me yourself. Otherwise I will drive myself, and you never know what could happen to me in this frazzled state" I added sarcastically.

"Whatever Bella, leave a note for Charlie, so when he wakes up he isn't worried…" Oh. My. Gosh. I won a battle against Alice.

"Good, let's go!" Not even trying to hide the happiness in my voice.

The drive to the Cullen mansion was longer than normal. I glanced over at Alice, and it looked like she was in an open eyed trance. She was looking into the future. She snapped out of it and seemed pleased. After that she looked as if she was concentrating very hard on something.

"Alice, are you mind talking to Edward?"

"Hmm" She processed what I had asked her "Yeah just making sure he is ok"

Why would he not be ok? The sinking feeling that he was thinking of going back to Italy came into me. No. He just said he wouldn't put me through that kind of pain again. No. I just needed to talk to him. Tell him it was ok. Even as I said this, the worry was growing. If he went to Italy, I don't think my heart could make it. Even as I was thinking this the hole in my heart was starting to ripple.

As soon as we made it to the house, I ran out of the car. And being my usual Klutz tripped on my own feet and fell forward. But instead of hitting the cold damp ground, I was being helped up by something colder. Edward. But replacing the coal ravenous eyes of earlier where liquid gold eyes filled with grief.

"Edward" I clung to him as much as I could. Relief rushed through my body. He was here, and I was his arms, he wasn't in Italy, where Aro would be doing god knows what to him. I just started crying into his chest. I felt him pick me up and take me into his room. He placed me down gently on the stupid, unneeded king sized bed.

"Shh love shh" He tried to soothe me. But I needed to know what happened back at my house.

"Edward, w-what happened-" I sniffled "-back at my h-house. What happened, why did Emmet have to drag you off me?" I wanted to know that answer, but I was scared. I had always thought Edward could never hurt me.

"I-I don't know what happened. I let me self control slip. I was thirsty and and-" He was talking to fast I had to strain to hear each word "-I didn't expect you to lay on top of me like that. I thought I was doing fine. But then you stopped kissing me, so my lust for your blood started to overpower my lust for your body. Other than the wonderful smell of your skin, I had almost forgotten you were there; I was fighting a horrible battle in my head. Between the monster I am, and my will to keep you alive. It wasn't until Emmett pulled me off of you that I realized that, that I could of killed you. So easily."

"Edward, you can be a thousand times stronger than I am, I thousand times faster than I am. You can want my blood. But I don't think you will ever, ever hurt me. The only way you could hurt me if you left me again" (A/N I know that last line is kinda corny, but eh, I girl is allowed to be corny, plus blame Sarah) I breathed a sigh of relief, Edward was going to be ok, I just would have to remember not to cuddle when he is thirsty, that's all.

It was still late at night, and when I thought about it, I couldn't believe it was only earlier this night when Edward had slipped up. I decided I would just spend the remainder of the night at the Cullen's house. So I crawled back into the extremely comfortable, but still unnecessary bed. Edward immediately started stroking my hair and humming my lullaby. I fell asleep almost instantly.

I started dreaming. About Jacob, and the pain he must be in. How he would feel when I was changed? Would we still be able to talk? I had wanted so badly to invite him to the wedding, but I don't know if he would come.

I was in my wedding dress, my flowers in my hand. I was running. I heard myself screaming for Jacob, where was Jacob? I saw Edward instead and hugged him tight.

"Edward, can you find Jacob? Why isn't he at the wedding? I thought he was supposed to be here?" I told him franticly

"I will find him, I will try" That is all he said, before running off.

I woke up with a jolt.

"Bella, love are you ok? Are you sure? Is that what you want?"

I stared at him confused. "Is what, what I want"

"Love you were talking again…" I started blushing "…you said you wanted Jacob to be at the wedding. Is that what you want?"

"Yes, it is" I was so chemary red, that I was setting a new record ( A/N I had to throw that in there. Chemary red Cherry + Strawberry red. Yes my friends made it up, apparently I blush this colour…) As I said this, I remembered. Jacob was gone. My heart sank. He couldn't be at the wedding. Nobody had heard from him since, since the day I handed out wedding invites. Wait, that can't be a coincidence can it. But Jacob wasn't on the list. He wasn't sent an invite, I didn't want him to have to come but be crushed, then go werewolf on everyone. But now, he had to have more control right? I wanted him to be there. So badly. At least to tell him, that that…I don't know what I wanted to tell him. But I knew that I wanted to see him, to see him slightly happy. If I only knew what he was doing now…

A/N : So REVIEW!! PLEASE!! I REALLY want to continue the story, but I don't know if I should even bother. I NEEEED REVIEWS. I want 10 JUST 10. I am not going to ask for like 50 like other authors do. I JUST WANT 10 REVIEWS. And maybe you will get to find out what Jacobs been up to nudge nudgeWink wink