Chapter 12- Convicted part 4. FINALE

Give me a reason to believe that you're gone
I see your shadow so I know they're all wrong
Moonlight on the soft brown earth
It leads me to where you lay
They took you away from me but now I'm taking you home

I will stay forever here with you
My love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on

Some say I'm crazy for my love, Oh my love
But no bonds can hold me from your side, Oh my love
They don't know you can't leave me
They don't hear you singing to me

And I can't love you, anymore than I do

People die, but real love is forever.

(Evanescence - Even in death)

The tune ran through Kats mind as she stood in the graveyard, standing before a cold stone crypt, sacred symbols carved onto it, but overgrown with ivy and weeds. Kat laid a White Rose on the lid. Yoh stood close behind her. She smiled, and shook her head. "You want…my story." She said softly. Yoh moved a little closer.

"Would be nice." He said.

"Alright…You remember that night…when my sister was killed…your parents found me…kneeling beside her body, and the body of the killer?"

"Yeah."

"The police thought they'd finished each other off…but they hadn't…I killed him. I saw him cut down my sister, the only one on this god damned earth who gave a shit about me…cut down, and murdered by her very own brother…" Kat paused. "Being one of eight hardly encourages sibling affection…especially when our father took favourites. He killed her, and out of rage I killed him. I didn't mean too…I only wanted him to hurt, but I killed him…" She paused again.

"But that's not it, is it?" Yoh said. "You left only a week after that… only three years ago." Kat smiled slightly.

"How well do you think you know me Yoh?" She asked.

"Well enough. Why?"

"The things I did in those three years would make your hair stand on end more than it already does… I did drugs, I smoked anything that I could get, I drank to forget myself, and my sister, and I killed…Eventually I was bought back to earth, very suddenly."

"How?" Yoh looked at her.

"I saw my reflection." Yoh looked puzzled. "I looked just like Katie did before she died…and I realised, why she had died…why we always lived in poverty, why she was always so tired and worn out." Kat wiped tears from her eyes. "She wanted me to be great. She told me everyday that I was going to be better than her, if it killed her, she would make sure I lived better than she did, and I never understood her until that day. I saw my reflection and realised I had become everything my sister had asked me not to be. She raised me, taught me, and loved me, I owed her…the least I could do was honour her wish. I took myself to rehab eventually. It took weeks to drag myself in. But I was a mess…I was thin, tatty and broken…"

"And Faust…" Yoh pressed.

"I see him, and I see myself looking back. I know what its like to hurt the way he does." She paused again to wipe more tears. "And I sure as hell could have done with someone to help me! I bet you can't imagine it can you? Me, as a hooker, a killer, a junkie. But I think that deep down, you do know."

"Yeah." Said Yoh. "I guess I did… when you came back last month…you got mad quicker, and when you did…you were dangerous." Kat nodded.

"I guess, I should have told you then…but I was afraid…I was still trying to forgive myself…"

"And now, by helping Faust, you think you can make up for it?"

"Something like that."

"Do you love him?"

"I love him now, yes…But he won't be the same man if he gets over this…I can't guarantee that I'll love that man." Yoh looked up at her again.

"I think you will…" Kat raised an eyebrow.

"How come?"

"I have my ways!" Yoh joked. Kat smiled slightly before bending down to the crypt where the name was engraved. Clearing the overgrown plants she revealed the names 'Katie and Elluren Star. Loving brother and sister.' The irony of the statement made her smile even more.

"…Dr.Johan Faustus is sentenced to St.Mary Clinic." The judge passed judgement and Kat felt relief wash over her. She sat in the front row. Her friend who sat beside Faust, who was buried in the random notes he'd been scribbling through the trial, oblivious to his surroundings, turned too look at her.

"Thanks Janie." Kat said.

"You owe me one girl."

"I thought taking you with me to rehab was payment enough!"

"Alright, we're square then!" Kat smiled.

"Thanks." Janie smiled and turned away again. Kat stood and placed a hand on Faust's shoulder.

"You're coming with me aren't you?" He asked her.

"Of course…"

"Where is St.Mary Clinic?" He asked.

"It's out of town…not too far…but far enough." Faust smiled and started gathering all his scraps of paper.

Kat was packing her bag. Faust had been taken to the clinic that morning, and she'd promised to be with him by dinner. Anna was standing in the doorway. "You going again?" She asked. Kat looked round.

"Yeah."

"Did you tell Yoh?"

"No…I left him a note."

"Coward."

"Anna, I don't need this ok!" Kat snapped. She sighed. "Yoh doesn't need me anymore…I looked out for him when we were kids…then you came a long just before I went away…he didn't need me then, and he doesn't need me now…" Kat threw the last item into her bag before closing it and swinging it over her shoulder. "I'll see you around Anna." Kat departed, dropping a white envelope into Yohs room as she passed. Inside it read:

Yoh,

I've gone with Faust to St.Mary. Or at least, I've rented an apartment over the road…sorry to leave in such a hurry, but goodbyes just don't work for me.

Faust and I will see you at the second round.

Katherine X

This story is well and truely finished now:-) Thank you reviewers!