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A/N: Yes, I know. I think it was about 3 weeks to a month this time? I'm really, really, really eternally sorry! At least now it's summer. Hopefully, chapters will come out faster. Unless I start getting lazy. Then I need to kick myself in the butt to get to it. Thank you to those who still read my story. :) I'm really grateful. Seriously. Anyway, I digress. Here's the next chapter.

Confession

Would she hear me if I called her name?

Would she hold me if she knew my shame?

Tears Don't Fall - Bullet For My Valentine

He was right.

Why the hell did he have to be right?

I sighed to myself, sitting diligently in front of Bella's home. Charlie had already gone to work so now, I was just waiting for Bella's return. I knew I had to tell her the truth; if I didn't, she'd probably start searching herself. She always did have a knack for trying to find things out. Especially if it was something she was really determined to know.

There were two major outcomes that could result from my telling her the truth. She could either:

A, just accept it and love me anyway for trying to make her life better.

Or B, she could hate me and not talk to me for as long as she wished.

I wasn't sure whether or not there was a happy medium between those. I'm sure, in time, she would forgive me. But our relationship would never be the same. Even as friends, she would still find some distrust for me. And I desperately wished that she would go along with the first outcome. That was highly doubtful. I was wrong to lie to her; completely wrong and I went with it anyway because of my own selfish reasons. I know I wanted the best for her; I really did. But I still knew deep down, her being my lover would satisfy me more than it would satisfy her.

"Hey Jacob." I snapped out of my thoughts and saw her beautiful face. She seriously was the most beautiful person in the universe. That leech was lucky to win her heart over.

"Hey Bells." I looked over to him and just nodded a thanks to him. It might have seemed immature and rude but I still couldn't get the hang of his presence.

He, however, was always polite. "I'll leave you two alone now. Please keep her safe." Like I wouldn't. Damn leech. With that, he turned around and left. I looked towards Bella. She looked sad. I could tell she missed him already. His effect on her was just that strong.

"I really have to talk to you, Bella. Could we talk now?"

"Sure, Jake." We went into her house and sat in the living room. The place I had committed my ultimate crime. We sat in silence for a while. I couldn't bring myself to tell her. It was difficult to word. I couldn't just say 'Oh yeah. About your life. I lied about basically your entire existence. You love him, not me.' "Are you okay? You seem depressed."

"I'm fine. I just.. have to tell you something important. But I don't know how to word it." I, the werewolf, was afraid to confront my fears and tell the girl I loved the truth. I wasn't afraid to fight and kill a vampire but was terrified of talking to a girl.

"You can take your time. No one's rushing you, you know." My conscience is rushing me.

"Thanks." I was glad she was trying to comfort me. It might be one of the last times she would be nice to me. I took a deep breath before starting. It was now or never. "I lied."

She stared at me, unblinking. Finally, she blinked and responded. "Excuse me?"

"I lied. About Edward and him hurting you. I mean he really did hurt you but not in the wanting to bite you way. He left you to keep you safe because he didn't want you to put yourself in danger."

"Put myself in danger of what?" She interrupted.

"In danger of.." I paused. This was the moment of truth. ".. of loving a vampire."

To no surprise for me, she was definitely shocked. "But I thought you and I.."

"I know. I lied about that too."

The look on her face killed me. She was hurt by my actions. "Why? Why would you lie about such a thing?" It seemed like she already knew that I lied; it was like she was waiting for me to tell her. I was being non-responsive. I just couldn't look her in the eyes. "Why would you keep me away from him?"

"I just.. just wanted to protect you from him. I thought he was dangerous, Bells."

Her demeanor turned stern. "Dangerous? Jacob. You're dangerous too. But you didn't lie about your being around me."

"Because I'm still human."

"I'm human too. And I'm a detriment to myself."

"That's not true."

"It definitely is. Do you realize how clumsy I am and how often I get myself into trouble?" I didn't answer. There was a sudden change in the atmosphere. She sighed. "I'm sorry."

"Sorry? For what?" I was confused.

"Sorry for exploding. I'm being selfish."

"What are you talking about? I was being selfish."

"You had a reason to lie to me. You wanted to protect me from being hurt. I was only thinking of myself. I just really had a strong feeling of attraction towards Edward and so I wasn't thinking about how you would feel when I was angry." She was completely turning this around so that she was the guilty one. Why was she doing this to herself?

"It's not your fault. It's mine, Bella. Please don't blame yourself."

"Seriously, Jake. It's okay. I'm sorry I hurt you." She sighed. "I think I'm going to my room now, if that's okay with you." It was ironic but I now wanted her to believe that it was my fault. That everything that happened was according to my lies. Her reaction didn't match at all. At first, she was mad. Then she blamed herself? It wasn't supposed to be like that.

"Before you go, though, I just want you to understand that this is not your fault. Okay?" I tried to joke with her, to make everything alright like it used to be. She only half-smiled and nodded, before getting up and heading to her room.

I had been sitting there for a while. A long while, till Charlie came back.

"Oh Jacob! I didn't know you were coming over. Are you here to see Bella?"

"She's in her room."

"Sleeping? Already?"

"I'm not sure. I've just been sitting here for the past few hours."

"Why? You could go see her."

"I don't think she wants to see me."

"What did you do?" He was more stern now.

"I told her I lied to her."

".. Oh. Lied about what?"

"About being my girlfriend."

"I see." Silence. "So she knows about Edward?"

I decided not to tell him that Edward was here. It would upset him even more because he was no longer fond of his presence.

"Yeah. She does." More silence. "What should I do? She's blaming herself for everything when I really was at fault."

"Maybe you should just give her some time. Then, talk to her. She might not be ready to talk yet."

I sighed. "Yeah. I guess so." There was a small, awkward silence before I decided to go home. "I should be getting back now."

"Alright then. 'Night Jacob." I was about to leave when he suddenly called me. "Hey Jake."

"Yeah?"

"Thanks for taking care of her. She'll talk to you eventually."

"I hope so," I muttered before exiting the house.

It had been two weeks and she still hadn't talked to me. In fact, she hardly talked to anyone. It was almost like the time when he left her and she was a shell of a person. But he was here and he was willing to talk to her. I even allowed it but every time I would bring that up to her, she would tell me that she didn't really feel like talking to anyone at the moment. How long was this moment going to last? I couldn't even tell what was going on in her mind.

"Bella." It was now the first day of the third week and I was determined to have her talk to me.

"Yes?"

"Would you mind telling me what's on your mind? You haven't said much since I told you about everything."

"There's not much to say, Jacob."

"You don't even want to see Edward. That's what scares me."

"Aren't you glad I don't want to see him? I mean you wanted me to avoid him in the first place."

I was starting to get mad. She was turning the tables on me. "Well, I don't enjoy seeing you with him but if it's something you want to do, maybe you should do it." I couldn't believe I actually wanted her to go see him.

"I don't want to see him." She snapped back.

"Fine then. Don't see him. See if I care."

"Ugh!" She stomped off in the direction of the woods. When she was out of sight, I had to let out my frustration. I punched a nearby tree.

My mind was finally cleared of any anger and common sense was taking over. It was nearing night and it wasn't safe for her to be --

A cut-off scream could be heard coming from the direction Bella had gone into the forest. Panic rushed through my body as I changed into my wolf form and ran to her. If anything bad were to happen to her, it would be my fault and

I would never forgive myself.

A/N: Just to clear things up in case anyone is wondering, it is BxE. It'll come to that part eventually. Anyway, thanks for reading!