The weird thing was that, at first, when Kairi found out about Riku's recent tendencies of kissing me, she was fine with it.
'That's so hot! Yaoi!' she had cried.
I'll never understand girls…
But anyway, time passed and my birthday rolled around and Riku promised me a good present, and I just called jokingly him a perv, and pushed the comment aside. It was a week until Halloween, and we had just come to my house after going to a costume party. Kairi had to work, so it was just Riku and I in my room upstairs.
I had stuck my tongue out at him playfully when he teased me, only to find it stuck between his teeth as he slyly pushed his own tongue inside my mouth. All too soon I found myself pinned to the bed by Riku. He placed gentle kisses up and down the side of my neck and face, calming my raging senses.
Too caught up in the moment was I to think to stop Riku before things could escalate. He ran his fingers up and down my chest and sides, kissing me as I forgot how to breathe and began to gasp for air.
He eventually saw my need of air, so he lay to the side of me, pulling me, gently, to his chest.
"Love you," he breathed.
A wave of warmth hit me like a wave, and I felt as if I was about to cry.
I had waited seventeen years to give away my first kiss…
My first…anything…and it was to the right person…
It was all so perfect.
That is until the bell rang, informing us of Kairi's presence outside.
Riku practically leapt from my side to go answer the door and let her in, immediately gracing her with a deep kiss, telling her how much he missed her while she was away at work. Kairi smirked at my disheveled appearance. My hair was messy… well… messier… the front buttons of my shirt were untidily fastened and a red love mark decorated my throat like a tattoo.
She wrapped her arms around Riku and chuckled lightly.
"You had so much fun without me?" she asked, feigning hurt.
I sighed sadly, unbeknownst to the couple, raking a shaky hand through my hair.
They looked so happy.
He looked so happy.
So much happier than I ever could make him.
I asked Riku if kissing me really meant anything recently…
He said that he couldn't be sure…
He stopped kissing me after that…
Weeks passed and Riku and I grew distant.
He spent all of his time with Kairi now, only calling me whenever he wanted to complain about how he hadn't seen her in three days.
I was his last resort.
It began to be hard to even speak with Riku without crying. I felt like such a baby, but I hurt. So bad…
I felt like I was being used.
Actually… I was… I just didn't realize it fully yet.
I stopped talking to people, with the exception of Roxas and sometimes even Axel, when he wasn't busy with collage or his band. Roxas is the only crying shoulder I trust anymore. I want to cry so often now a days, but I keep it in now for Roxas and Axel's sake… they worry about me enough.
I'll be okay on my own.
I mean, it worked for the first sixteen years or so…
It should work now too…
Right?
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