Chapter 2.
The minute my eyes closed, I could hear James' voice taunting me, as he had done when we were in the dance studio and I could see his face as he bent over me to suck the life out of me. I could even feel the venom spread through me and my body convulsed in pain, as if I was having a seizure. I heard a scream echo around the room and it took me a minute to realise that the scream was my own. My teeth were chattering and my mouth filled with blood, as I had accidentally bit my tongue. And as the blood started filling mouth, I started to choke on it and was spluttering and coughing, basically making an awful mess. I felt like I was dying and if I wasn't then I wanted to die. I just wanted to get over and done with.. I wanted to give up.. Stop fighting… leave everything behind and not look back. And just when I was about to do so, to stop trying to keep my heart going and let it come to a halt, I felt cold arms around me, a sign that showed me why I got up every single morning, why I lived even when yes it would be easier to just die already. I did it for him. I did it for Edward and I know that if I give up now, that he'll do something to himself. And I couldn't have that. I didn't want to drag him down with me. I'd make him go, so I wouldn't hurt him. It'd be best that way. I'd leave when it was the right time. I'll have everything planned he wont miss me for a second. But for now, I need to act fine, otherwise he'll think something's up and something is up, but he can't know that. No, he can't know. But for now Bella, I told myself, you need to get your heart rate back to normal, you need to breathe properly and you need to open your eyes, to show everyone that your fine and after that. After that we can start our brilliant plan of escaping. Escaping this life forever.
Once I opened my eyes I felt everyone around me relax, well slightly anyway, they were all holding their breath, especially Jasper, I knew he would have normally left, if it wasn't for the fact that he was probably calming me down. Noticing that I was only covered by a small towel and that there was seven vampires looking down at me, I uncomfortably moved my arm around until I found another towel that I had managed to bring down with me when I fell, to wrap around me. I hadn't said anything yet, and I knew they were all watching me, waiting to hear what I had say. To give an explanation or something. But I could think of anything, my mind was a total blank.
"Ahh…" I opened my mouth but that was the only thing that came out. They all leaned forward to hear me and even Rosalie looked concerned for my wellbeing, then again maybe she was just doing that, so that Edward wouldn't yell at her. Everyone continued staring at me, as I racked my brain of something to say and ended up saying the first thing that popped into my mind. " Can you guys please give me a minute. I kind of need to get dressed." I said motioning to the fact that my very naked body was only being covered by two towels both very short and not covering much.
The instant I said that, everybody looked down to see that I was in fact wearing practically nothing, thought hey did it so fast that I barely saw them do it, then they all started walking out the door. All but Edward and Alice.
"Bella would you like me to help you?" Alice asked, trying to helpful, but I just shook my head.
"No thank you Alice, I think I have embarrassed myself enough for one day. I'll be fine. I'll see you all downstairs in a second, ok." I said, which was really me telling them not asking. They seemed to get the hint and Alice left, but Edward lingered, not wanting to leave me alone, in case something happened again.
"Edward, I promise I will be fine and if I'm not down in five minutes you have my permission to charge in here, even if I'm not dressed and start screaming at you bloody murder. OK?" Edward seemed fine with my proposition and followed Alice out, before finally leaving me alone in the bathroom with my thoughts.
So, how does one kill their selves?