A/N: I'm back!
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You guys are still mad at me aren't you? )))) Because I left a cliffy? o.o
I won't make this a long A/N so that you can read up. I'll talk later.
I just want to say, Holy Mother of Spaghetti. I was only gone for 2 days with no internet access and when I go online to check my email I cursed. )) I had tons of un-read email and when I checked they were mostly story-alerts and review alerts. I think my eyes widened of the size of plates… ))
Anyways, I recommend you listen to 'Now you know' by Hilary Duff. :)
HERE YOU GO! :)
"I knew it," Tanya laughed, then walked over to me, "You're just some sick, stupid wannabe. You want to be just like me, to be able to sing! You can't even sing. You can't do anything. You can't even escape with your lie. And I bet you thought of this plan and dragged poor Eddie into it. 'But you're just like everyone else.'" Tanya quoted from Edward.
I bit my lip, fighting the tears and the comebacks that were to escape.
Edward stepped up, "You want proof? I'll show you." And he took my face in his hands.
He leaned in and I stopped breathing. From the corner of my eye, I thought I saw Tanya freeze. And then, slowly, but surely, he pressed his lips lightly against mine.
I heard a scream and suddenly I was pulled off of Edward. I blinked about twice before I knew what was happening. Tanya had pulled me away from him.
"What's your problem!?" I asked, glaring at her. His lips were so soft, they seemed so fragile, so delicate, but it was wonderful, no matter how short it was.
Tanya snorted. "I-I have enough proof already." She stuttered.
I scoffed. "Sure."
Edward sighed dreamily and I wondered what he was thinking. Then he glared at Tanya and said, "Now you know. It's the truth."
Tanya just looked at him, then gave me the meanest glare ever. She walked up to me and said, "He will be mine, Swan."
I just shrugged.
She left, pushing the people that blocked her way. Then again, I never really noticed who were around. I looked around and gasped. People had just left from the cafeteria. Some had just exited from class, some going. Did they see Edward and I kiss?
I looked at Edward, but he looked like he didn't care. His eyes were unfocused. He was thinking. But about what?
Then again, this was embarrassing.
"I-I better get going…" I muttered to him.
I turned around but he grabbed my wrist.
"Please don't go. I know it wasn't necessary and I know how much you hate attention. I'm sorry I kissed you. I'd thought you'd want her to leave, and—and—and—"
"Shhh," I told him, putting my finger to his lips. "I'm leaving because I completely forgot about Alice," I lied casually, "Please don't take it the wrong way."
"You hate me now." He muttered.
I smiled, shaking my head. "No, no, no, the complete opposite, actually." I looked down. I just admitted a bit of…what I felt?
He seemed shocked a bit and I blushed.
"So…right, Alice." I yanked my wrist from his hands and started walking to our cabin, only to find Alice not there. I walked in and looked around. Her laptop was still on and our song was almost complete. Suddenly, the door slammed closed and I turned around, flinching.
Alice stood there in all her glory, glaring at me, one hand on the doors knob and one with her cellphone in it.
"Isabella Marie Swan, explain this!" she yelled, walking toward me with her cellphone open, sticking it to my face.
I fumbled with her hands and the phone and snatched it from her. There was a picture of Edward's lips on mine.
"What the hell, Alice!" I yelled, deleting the picture. She didn't care, she just wanted an explanation. I explained to her what Tanya did and what happened. In the end, she cursed Tanya to hell and started squealing over the fact that Edward kissed me.
"My prediction is coming true!" She squealed, jumping on her bed, her squealing muffled by her pillow.
"Alice, it's not like that. He only did that so Tanya would stop bothering." I told her.
"Oh come off it!" Alice yelled, raising her hands dramatically up in the air. "He is totally into you, you just don't see that."
"Alice he's a star!"
"Do you think stars can only date stars?" Alice asked, raising an eyebrow.
"No, but—"
"HUSH!" she yelled, then waved her hand in front of her and walked back to her laptop. I sighed in defeat. Whatever you say, Alice.
2 days before Final Jam
"I'm so, so, so, so, so, so—" Alice continued with her 'sorry' speech to my mom until the 67th so, "sorry Mrs. Swan. I still haven't finished the song and I have to prepare the outfits and decorate Final Jam and—"
"Alice, ok, ok!" My mom chuckled, "I understand, you have a lot to do. I won't hold it against you. Someone offered to help while you were gone," my mom smiled at her when she sighed in relief, "I was shocked at who volunteered too…" my mom muttered. Wonder who volunteered. Oh god please let it not be Tanya…
"Thank you so much, Mrs. Swan, I promise I'll work tomorrow. I'll finish everything today, I promise." Alice told my mom.
"Oh, no. Since Final
Jam means it's almost the end of camp, I don't see why you still
need to help. You don't have to anymore." She smiled.
"Oh,
but, I think that—"
"It's alright Alice."
Alice smiled a thanks and kissed my Mom's cheek and left.
"She's a nice girl isn't she?" mom asked.
"Uh-huh." I muttered, going to the dough.
The door opened but I didn't bother to look.
"Oh! There's Alice's replacement. Why don't you do the dough with Bella? Fetch an apron there." Mom pointed out the supply closet. I heard footsteps go there, but still did the dough.
"I'll be right back Bella, I'm going to help Alice place the food." And I heard the door open and mom's footstep's die out.
I was still folding the dough when a velvet voice whispered in my ear, "May I?"
My eyes widened and I turned around to face Edward Cullen. He was smiling down at me, holding a rolling pin and wearing a white apron. No matter what he was wearing, he looked cute anyways.
"S-sure." I stuttered, stepping to the side. He went to the dough and started shaping it.
I walked to the right and filled a tray with dough and started shaping it too.
I tried to keep my mind off the hot, superstar to my left and concentrated on shaping the dough into a CD.
"Bella? Can you pass me the CD shaper?" he asked.
"Sure." I repeated, passing him the shaper. Our hands touched, but we didn't pull back when we did. I think I enjoyed it too much.
He entwined his fingers with mine and placed his palm on mine. I stared at our hands and he stared at me. I looked up at him and he raised his free hand and used the back of his fingers to stroke my cheek gently and I blushed.
"Bella?" he called.
"Yes, Edward?" I whispered. There was a really long pause, and then he said,
"Bella, I lo—" the door opened and he let go of my hand and we stepped away from each other. Mom was there, carrying a huge box. Obviously, she didn't see what was happening.
"Can anyone of you please help me?" she asked, her knees slightly buckling.
I hurried over and so did Edward and we helped her and carried it onto the table. Mom sighed and stretched. "Thanks so much, guys."
"Sure." Edward and I both muttered and sighed.
"Did I miss
something?" Mom asked.
"Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no…"
I said, a little too loudly, shaking my head.
Edward bit his lip, which was twitching a bit. Was I that obvious?
"Oh, well, just continue doing the dough. Gotta get back with more boxes." She sighed and left.
Edward and I kept our distance for the rest of the kitchen duty. He'd place the shaped-cookies in the over and then I'd do it. We'd never touch anymore and we'd pretty much stay as far as we could from each other. What was he meaning to tell me? I lo…rd? That doesn't make sense. I lo…yal? Er—what? I lo…st? Could be…I lo…ve?
I gasped loudly and he looked up to me.
"Something wrong Bella?" he asked, not sounding concerned at all.
"No, no, I just…bit my tongue." I lied.
He shrugged and went back to work.
I'll go with lost. He probably lost something and he wanted to know if I saw it anywhere. That's probably it. Yeah, I'll go with that.
After we baked all the CD cookies, we took of our aprons and hung it up and I turned to face him.
"I'm really glad you came to help me today, Edward. I'm glad you volunteered." I told him, smiling.
He smiled back and said, "No problem, Bella."
"I—" I stopped, blushing really red now.
"What is it Bella?" he asked.
"Nothing, nothing."
"Just spit it out."
I sighed and then asked, "I just wanted to know if…we still have to…you know, pretendtobeboyfriendandgirlfriend?" I said the last part a little too fast but he caught on.
He chuckled and shook his head, but his eyes were sad for some reason. "I don't think so. Tanya figured out about the whole charade while I was telling it to my brothers on the phone. She followed me back to my cabin, I guess, and ended up hearing the whole conversation. I saw her telling everyone." He rolled his eyes.
"Oh." Was my brilliant reply. Lovely!
He smiled and kissed my cheek, stepped down the stairs and waved goodbye to me. I waved back and watched his retreating figure, then put my hand to my cheek.
Of course, I knew I was in love with Edward Cullen. I was hopelessly in love with him. I was falling for him. Hard. But that's exactly the problem.
He said 'I lo—' what does that mean? If it could possibly been love, did he then feel the same way too?
I could have been mistaken. It could have been lord, loyal, lost, loco, long, lock, locomotive, (seriously, Bella?), loop, look, loft, London, locate, location…
But there was an 'I' in the beginning. You can't say I London or I loop…
Could it possibly be…?
I wanted to get my mind off of it. So I let my feet take me where they would. I ended up near the lake, where Edward and I first met. Kind of.
I walked to the edge and leaned down into the water. I looked at my reflection. My face was flushed and my face was a bit sweaty. I heard footsteps from behind me and I figured it was Edward. I stood up and turned around, my eyes widening.
Tanya stood there with her arms crossed, smirking.
"Just so you know…I don't plan on letting you win Final Jam. I doubt you'll even enter it by tomorrow." She informed me.
"Carlisle's sure to enter me." I muttered.
She laughed. "This is me…is that your song?" she asked, smiling, taking out papers from her bag.
I realized, those were my songs.
She extended it out of bounds, putting it over the lake.
"No!" I yelled, reaching forward.
"Ah, ah, ah," she said, raising her pinky. "You better not even tryout, Bella."
"This is unfair. It's all blackmail!" I yelled.
"It seems fair." Tanya shrugged.
"Tanya!" I yelled, but I wasn't the only one.
She turned around and I shot a pleading look to Edward.
"Give her back her songs." Edward growled.
"What are you, sweetie? The knight in shining armor?" Tanya asked him, battering her eyelashes.
"As long as you're the evil, ugly witch." Edward smirked.
Tanya gasped and raised her ring finger. My eyes widened. She turned to face me, now.
"Sorry, hon, but Edward's not allowed to see any of this." She whispered to me and let go of the songs.
I ran for it and caught it, but now I was falling in the water. Stupid Bella!
I threw my songs onto the platform before I fell into the water. It was cold and I tried to swim upward with my eyes closed. When I reached the surface, what surprised me was what was to my right.
Tanya was in the water with me, screaming her head off about her 'fabulous' clothes being all wet. Her hair being ruined and her make up was everywhere.
I giggled, not caring if I was wet, but then it started to rain.
"Ah, jeez." I muttered.
I looked over at Tanya who was now shouting at the rain and was…somehow…trying to float. I giggled again.
I felt my arm being tugged and saw Edward, all wet and very good looking.
"Let's go back to shore before they see us here." He whispered to me.
"Sure."
We swam back to shore and I was gasping for air by then. Tanya was screaming, "Take me with you!" as she tried to swim to shore.
"W-wait." I shivered and walked over to the edge. I picked up my songs, seeing it really wet. At least it wasn't fully soaked. I could iron this or blow-dry it.
"I'm sorry about that," Edward sighed. "I could have done something. I only made it worse." He frowned.
"It's fine, Edward. All I have to do is iron it or something." I peeked inside and saw 'This is Me' was ruined.
"Great. At least I memorized the lines." I smiled.
"Will that be your song?" he asked, looking over my shoulder.
"Uh-huh. But, hey, let's go back inside before it gets even more wet." I sighed, I was really tired.
Suddenly, he scooped me up into his arms and I gasped.
"No, no, Edward, this must be really hard for you. I can handle myself, really, I—" I tried to tell him, but he interrupted me.
"I'm perfectly fine, Bella. Please, just relax." He told me.
I sighed and closed my eyes, leaning my head onto his chest. He started walking and that's when I realized, I didn't care.
It didn't matter if anyone saw, or said something or thought something. It didn't matter if everyone saw Edward carrying me, if they saw us kiss or if they realized how much we've been together.
I knew now, I loved him, so much that I know my heart would definitely stop if he didn't love me back. It would be then that I knew everything would be over and done for. For me, at least.
And I drift off into sleep.
EPOV (Starting from Edward at Bella and Alice's cabin)
All I was doing was talking to them about some new songs I was planning on when Bella blurted out, "Why are you here again?"
I was hurt. Could she possibly hate me?
"Do you want me to leave?" I asked, frowning.
She didn't answer for quite awhile, her back still to me. She was probably really busy with the whole song. I looked over at Alice whose fists were clenched, like she was ready to punch someone. I blinked and then shook my head.
"I'll take that as a yes…" I muttered, and Bella turned around when I stood up.
I walked out of the cabin and from the inside I heard Alice shout, "What the hell, Bella!"
Woaah. Good luck to Bella, whatever Alice has in store for her.
I walked over to the door and placed my ear over it to listen.
"What?!" I heard Bella's sweet voice ask.
"Why didn't you say anything?" Alice shrieked.
"I wanted him to leave…?" she…asked. I grimaced. So she did.
"No you didn't. You know that as well as I did. Why did you make him leave? Why didn't you reach out to him and touch his arm and say 'Edward, don't leave me!'"
I snorted. How dramatic.
"Alice, this isn't drama class, this isn't a movie, this is real life."
"I meant that part as a joke, but seriously though, you should have said something."
Ugh. Alice was annoying. I got up and rolled my eyes and started walking down the stairs. I was about 5 feet away from the cabin when I heard the door open and turned around. Bella was falling down.
I ran quickly back to her and caught her in my arms. For some reason, it felt good and it felt right. Like it was meant to fit exactly there.
"Jeez Bella, are you this accident prone?" I asked, sighing. She closed her eyes briefly and I wondered why. Then she opened them again.
I set her up and looked at her face. She was looking into my eyes as I looked at her. She was beautiful as her light brown hair waved back and her chocolate brown eyes pierced into mine.
Then again, she didn't want me here.
"I guess I better get going…" I told her, turning around.
"N-no, wait!" she yelled, placing her hand on my shoulder.
"Yes, Bella?" I asked, looking over my other shoulder.
"I can walk with you, if you want." she smiled, but it didn't touch her eyes.
"I'd love that." I grinned, taking her hand from my shoulder and walked ahead of her. She looked up at the sun, but the weather didn't concern me. It was the fact I was holding Bella's hand in mine. It felt so right, once again, it just somehow fit.
I realized, there was silence between us. I was about to say something when Bella asked, "Um…Did you find your girl yet?"
I smirked, shaking my head. "Not yet."
"I'm sure there were a few girls here that were to shy to walk up to you." She muttered.
Yeah, people like you. Then it hit me.
"Why don't you sing for me?" I asked.
"Do you want me to sing now?" she bit her lip.
I nodded, paying full attention.
She sighed and faced me, barely mouthing "Ok."
She inhaled and started, "This is—"
"EDWARD!!" Someone called.
I growled internally at that. I knew whose voice that was.
I looked at Bella and her eyes were narrowed at Tanya. Why didn't she just ignore her? She'd probably be gone or something.
"Edward, come walk with me!" Tanya practically yelled in my ear as she wrapped her arms around my arm. I grimaced and looked at Bella.
She looked cute when she was jealous. Absolutely adorable. If I could just be…
Then the most amazing idea popped into my head. We'd be pretending, but I'd enjoy it very much.
"I'm afraid I can't walk with you, Tanya, because I'm walking with Bella already." I told her, walking over to Bella and wrapping my arms around her waist. Once again, it felt right and it just fit. Like we were seriously meant to be.
She gasped silently and I whispered in her ear, "Just play along."
"What do you mean? Then ditch her!" Tanya laughed stupidly.
"I wouldn't want to do that to my girlfriend." I smiled widely. I liked calling Bella this. I stressed the word in case Bella understood.
She didn't.
"WHAT?!" Tanya and Bella both asked me. Now this was just confusing. I shot Bella a look, the look, and she nodded, finally understanding now.
"OH! Yes, Tanya. Me and my boyfriend were going for a walk until you came." From the corner of my eye, I thought I saw Bella smile.
"Prove it." Tanya smirked.
"P-prove what?" Bella stuttered.
"That you guys are seriously in a relationship." Tanya rolled her eyes. But I didn't understand…
"How?" I asked.
"Kiss her." Tanya whispered evilly.
My eyes widened, and so did Bella's.
I was going to kiss Bella. I was going to kiss Bella. I was too stunned to speak and just whispered a "W-what?"
I heard Bella sigh sadly and pout. I wondered why. What was she thinking?
"You heard me, Eddie. Kiss her." Tanya pointed at Bella.
I was too stunned to move, yet again. I wanted to just get up in front of her, grab her face and kiss her. She was so beautiful, so right.
"I knew it," Tanya laughed, then walked over to Bella. My eyes narrowed. "You're just some sick, stupid wannabe. You want to be just like me, to be able to sing! You can't even sing. You can't do anything. You can't even escape with your lie. And I bet you thought of this plan and dragged poor Eddie into it. 'But you're just like everyone else.'" Tanya quoted from…me.
Bella bit her lip, and I thought I saw her eyes get watery.
That was it. That did it. I was going to show Tanya. She couldn't hurt Bella. Never, ever, again.
I stepped forward, "You want proof? I'll show you." And I turned to face Bella and took her face gently into my hands.
I looked at her lips and leaned in. She stopped breathing. And then gently, slowly, but surely, I pressed my lips lightly against hers.
Tanya screamed an ear-piercing scream and threw me off of Bella.
I couldn't complain or do anything. I was thinking of Bella.
Her lips were so warm, so full and gentle.
I sighed dreamily; wondering what would have happened if Tanya hadn't interrupted. Would she kiss me back? Speaking of Tanya…
I looked at Tanya and glared at her. "Now you know. It's the truth."
Tanya just looked at me, then glared at Bella. She walked up to her and whispered something. But Bella just shrugged.
Tanya left, pushing the people that blocked her way. I smirked. Finally, she was gone and outta my life. Now that she knew…er—something not true, it seemed true and really though, I loved Bella.
"I-I better get going…" I heard Bella mutter.
She turned around and my eyes widened. Did she hate me? Did she want to kiss me? Did she still think of me as a jerk? But of course I knew she was that flour girl, but still. I reached forward and grabbed her wrist.
"Please don't go. I know it wasn't necessary and I know how much you hate attention. I'm sorry I kissed you. I'd thought you'd want her to leave, and—and—and—" I ranted, but she interrupted me.
"Shhh," she said, putting her finger to my lips. They were so warm. "I'm leaving because I completely forgot about Alice," she told me. "Please don't take it the wrong way."
"You hate me now." I muttered sadly.
She smiled, shaking her head. "No, no, no, the complete opposite, actually." She looked down.
I froze. Did she really mean that or was she just…playing around? Did she want me? Did she like me? Or more of love me? She blushed when I didn't answer.
"So…right, Alice." She yanked her wrist from my hands and started walking away.
That was just it. She didn't make it clear. Did she love me, or did she not mean it in that sort of way…? I wanted to yell it out loud and tell her I love her. But I just stood there, watching her walk away.
A/N: We'll be continuing from Edward's POV at the next chapter. :D Sorry I didn't update soon. SUNDAY! Anyways, hope you like it. :) REVIEW!