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Chapter 19
"Stupid phone." I grumbled as I was awoken from my sleep by my favorite ringtone. I grabbed it and flipped it open as I rubbed my sleep-incrusted eyes. I groaned, and yawned before saying 'hello'.
"Hey Liz, I just wanted to call to see how you're doing." One of my best friends said. I was curious to why he was calling at 7:30 in the morning. Especially since we hadn't talked in forever.
"I'm fine, you?" I asked unsure. He sighed, as if he wasn't sure if he could continue.
"Spit it out Josh." I commanded. We had a close relationship. I told him all my secrets and he told me all his. No one could ever understand our relationship but it never mattered.
"Well today is July 8th. I know how hard this must be on you. I just wanted you to know, say I'm here." He told me but I stopped listening after he told me the date. My mind wrapped itself around the date and my memories flashed before me.
I closed my phone not bothering to say goodbye. I was in shock. I had to check the date. My eye caught the date and my heart fell. I stopped breathing. My mind became numb with sadness. It was July 8th. My eyes welled and I sat down and cried. I couldn't breathe; I choked for air. My vision was blurred with salty tears. I didn't bother blinking them away, but they flowed regardless.
I faintly heard my phone ring and grabbed it and checked the number. It was Josh again. I ignored it, knowing he would understand.
I got up and went downstairs, lifeless. Rocky woke up as I opened the door. It was pouring out, and I didn't pay attention. I barely noticed Rocky come with me. I wasn't worried about him running away as we walked down the street. I looked at his human like eyes and I could see worry. I kept walking; I was completely soaked. My hair was plastered to my face. My clothes sculpted to my body. I kept walking; I had no destination.
Eventually I found myself back at the house. I had no clue how I got there but I could tell Rocky was eager to get inside and dry off.
I walked inside and sat in front of the couch. The cold air on my wet body gave me goose bumps. I was also shivering but I couldn't tell if it was from being cold or from crying. I sat in that spot and stared at the blank wall. My throat was sore, and my eyes were stinging.
It was a while before I was able to stop crying, and start breathing. Although it was only because I had no tears left. Rocky licked my face as I got up and slowly climbed upstairs. I needed to get out of the damp clothes but I couldn't will myself to put on anything but flannel pajama pants and a tank top. I returned downstairs and sat on the couch. I folded my legs up under my chin and sulked. I wanted to be in my bed hiding under the covers but I figured it would wake Embry.
I hadn't moved from that position until I couldn't ignore my starving stomach any longer. I eventually caved and ordered take out from a local Chinese restaurant. I was surprised they delivered this early. I ordered enough to feed an army. I was in a crappy mood and Chinese was my comfort food.
As I waited for my food to arrive I decided to watch TV. I was sure I didn't want something sad, so I decided to watch "Scrubs". I wanted something funny to watch but my heart lurched at the sight of a hospital. I began sobbing again, so I switched to watching silent movies.
Not too long later Embry walked downstairs. He noticed me immediately and came to sit by me. As much as I enjoyed his company I wasn't in the mood.
"Hey, what's up?" I asked with a fake smile.
"Um, I was wondering if you wanted to do anything today." He asked hesitantly while looking at me funny. I knew he was probably shocked by my appearance. I knew I would look terrible. I had icky bed hair, a sniffly nose, runny eyes and tear streaked cheeks.
"I'm sorry, but I'm not up to doing anything today. It's a lazy day for me." I replied trying to send a hint I wanted to be alone. I really just wanted to sob alone and watch TV.
"Mind if I join you?" He asked me. He obviously didn't get the message. I didn't have the energy to argue so I nodded.
I went back to watching TV, as the doorbell rang. I got up to get the door, knowing it was my food. After paying I sat back down on the couch, grabbed a carton, a fork and stuffed my face. Embry must've understood my cranky mood, because he didn't wait to be asked to join me. The food was great but I wasn't paying attention anyway. I wouldn't have cared if it tasted like cardboard. I leaned on Embry and we ate most of the food. I was glad that he wasn't bothering me for an explanation.
Embry tried to cheer me up by talking about random things, but stopped because all my answers were incomprehensible grumbles. I felt bad when I looked at him; he had a sad, frustrated look.
"Will you tell me what is bothering you, please? I can't stand to see you like this." He told me. I felt worse; he was so nice and sweet.
"Today is July 8th, and it's my da..ister's birthday, her 3rd birthday." I told him. I looked in his eyes and could tell he was thinking about it.
"So, you're upset you're missing her birthday? Why not call her?" He suggested. I sighed I didn't want to lie but I wasn't up for talking about it.
"I doubt anyone will answer" I replied quietly. He never responded. We just sat still, thinking, pretending to watch TV for several more hours. Eventually I sighed and he turned to me.
"That wasn't all of it was it?" He asked. I gave him a look, and turned my head laying it back down not answering. I felt a tear trickle down my face.
"What is she like?" He asked suddenly. I smiled at the memory or her.
"Adorable." I replied.
"Ruthie has beautiful brown curly hair, and bright blue eyes." I told him but stopped so I wouldn't get worked up. He gave me a look.
"Tell me more. I like to hear what your family is like." He told me, and I couldn't help releasing the memories.
"She loves anything yellow, and she refuses to eat anything but Mac n' cheese on weekends. She is so smart, and she's so funny. She calls me dog, because she heard my friend say 'sup dawg'." I told him
"I really miss her." I finished. He smiled at me, and kissed my head.
I snuggled into his chest, and I thought about the little girl. It wasn't fair and I hated myself for losing her. She was a month away from her 3rd birthday, it isn't right to have to bury a child. I wiped a final tear before getting up and deciding to call it a day.
"Are you going to bed?" Embry asked as I left.
"Yeah, it's been rough; I'm ready to call it a day." I told him. He pulled me into his chest, and held me. He rubbed my back and kissed my forehead. I succumbed to his loving nature, and started crying again.
"Shh, shh its okay." He comforted me as I cried on his chest. He rocked me back in forth before carrying me upstairs and laying me in the bed.
He laid with me, and I smiled at how lucky I was. I had the most amazing boyfriend in the world. Even if everything else were wrong, I would always have him. I would always love him.
We were quiet for a while. I didn't want to talk and he was probably thinking.
"Wait! You told me you don't have any siblings!" He said in epiphany. His face suddenly looked confused, angry and hurt.
O no! What will happen next? Will Liz finally tell the truth? Will Embry forgive her? BE NICE PLEASE REVIEW!!