AN: Warning—this chapter is rated M! Thanks for all the reviews, I hope you're all still enjoying the story. There's lots more to come and I promise the story about Brazil and even some more background on how Chuck and Lita met will come out too!
After leaving The Palace, Nate decided that he needed fresh air and if it hadn't been the middle of the night he would have even gone for a run. Watching Chuck and Lita together made him slightly uncomfortable. He was happy to see both of his friends together again but the idea of Chuck being tender- now that was awkward. He'd known Chuck all of his life and yet he'd never seen this side of his friend. Even when they were little Chuck hadn't been gentle. He was always ready for a fight if he thought someone was disrespecting him or his friends; Chuck had always been a loyal friend but never gentle. Maybe there had been glimpses of it before, when he and Lita dated the first time, but not on this level. Obviously the summer had made a big impact on Chuck. In one summer Chuck had gone from being the biggest philanderer in the Upper East Side to a doting boyfriend and Nate on the other hand had gone from being Blair's prince charming to being dubbed as the newest playboy at St. Jude's- a confirmed cheater.
God things sure were fucked up.
Nate took out his phone and sent his dealer a text. He needed something to take his mind off of things.
Lita knew it would have surprised people that she hadn't slept with Chuck when they had dated before. Sure, they'd gotten incredibly close to doing it but she hadn't been ready to take that next step. Chuck, for his part, had never pressured her about sex either. But he did have a reputation and she was sure that he hadn't ever corrected anyone who assumed that they were having sex- which was just about everyone.
"I'm ready now." Lita told him again. "I trust you."
There's that word again. Trust. Chuck looked down at the girl who was unbuttoning his shirt. Lita Nadalia was the most beautiful girl that he'd ever seen. He'd always thought that about her. He ran his hair through her straightened hair admiring the softness. She was staring at him with such big beautiful brown-black eyes and Chuck could see that she meant it when she said; she trusted him. Her eyes never lied. Her honey brown skin was flushed with excitement and Chuck was sure Lita, who embarrassed easily, was nervous. He kissed her pouty lips and groaned. Why was he hesitating so much? He should have picked her up, thrown her over his shoulder and carried her straight to bed. But she said she trusted him and her eyes were just so honest.
"Lita." He started to say something but the rest of the sentence never came. Now she was moving to his belt buckle, her hands grazing his hardness. Chuck closed his eyes and counted to ten as slowly as he could. The buckle was undone and her hands were stroking him now. He should make her stop. It was, after all, her first time, he should have been taking charge and pleasuring her first. "Stop."
Lita's hands stilled and she froze- large almond eyes staring at him, trying to understand. His mouth was back on hers again answering her silent questions. His shifted her off of his lap, laying her back onto the couch. "We don't' have to. Are you sure?" He had to ask one more time because if he went any further he was sure there was no way he could stop.
"Yes." Lita tugged at his shirt. Chuck pulled away for a moment to shrug it off. Lita enjoyed the sight of his bare chest- tanned from their time spent by the pool and at the beach during the summer. He reached for her again, this time taking her hand and leading her to his bed.
Blair closed her phone after checking the latest update from Gossip Girl. The secretive bitch was at her party! She'd actually invited the girl! She felt her anger rising. This girl was hell bent on publically documenting her downfall. Blair couldn't believe how messed up everything in her life had become. First Serena abandoned her only to return and have Nate confess to having cheated with her. All at once she's lost her best friend and her boyfriend. And now Lita was barely talking to her. She knew it was wrong to take her frustrations about Chuck keeping Nate's secret out on Lita but it was almost as though Blair couldn't help herself. Not only did she want revenge on Serena, she also wanted to make Chuck pay. After all, it was probably Chuck's influence that made Nate cheat in the first place. 'Yes', Blair thought to herself, 'I'm actually doing Lita a favor. She'll thank me eventually.'
"Isobel!" Blair gestured for the other girl to join her in the back of the VIP section where they could be alone. "I need you to do me a favor."
"Sure Blair, what is it?" Isobel was eager to please.
"Tomorrow morning, I need you to call Jenny Humphrey and invite her to have lunch with you and Kati." Blair explained.
"Why would I have lunch with Jenny?" Isobel asked in confusion. "She's just a freshman."
"Yes, but she's a freshman who knows a lot more than she should." Blair explained patiently. "Girls like little Jenny Humphrey are easy to manipulate. Take her to lunch, tell her how impressed we are by her and all of that bullshit and tell her that we want her to start sitting with us at the Met."
"Okay…" Isobel shrugged; she still didn't completely understand the purpose of Blair's plan.
"Leave the rest to me." Blair smiled. "All good secrets don't stay secret for long."
Chuck was more nervous than Lita. He cursed himself mentally for having such shaky hands as he removed her dress. There she was, the one girl who ever really made him feel anything, sprawled out on his bed wearing just a black strapless bra and matching thong. Again, he counted to ten in his head, trying to regain his control- Chuck Bass did not lose his cool; Chuck Bass was always in control. He was no virgin but somehow the thought of having sex with Lita made him wish that he was. Starring at her, so innocent and so beautiful, he wished that he could be even a fraction of those things to her. Chuck would have given anything to be worthy of her touch.
Lita lay anxiously against the pillows, observing Chuck. He was starring at her with such intensity that he almost looked pained. She reached for him, trying to pull him closer to her body- having him stare at her body was making her nervous. Her mother was the supermodel, unashamed of all of her curves and completely confident in her skin. Lita, while she acknowledged that she had taken after her mother, knew she didn't have her confidence.
She knew she was nothing like the other girls that Chuck had been with. The endless sea of skinny blondes-and brunettes-and redheads…. She didn't like to admit it but she'd seen him out with girls when they were broken up. Their world was too small for her not to have encountered it. One particularly painful experience had been Nate's last birthday; Lita had been searching for Serena and had accidently stumbled upon Chuck and a girl she'd been lab partners with, having sex in the Captain's study. Neither of them noticed her. She made up a hasty excuse to her friends about being sick and left the party. Lita waited until she was safely in a cab before breaking down into tears. No, she wouldn't think about those things now. It was the past.
"You're so beautiful." The words came out so softly and in such a low tone that even Chuck wasn't sure if he had spoken out loud. His hands ran up her long athletic legs, feeling their smoothness and taking pleasure in the way she shivered. "God, you're so beautiful." He wished he had better words to describe her but when they wouldn't come; he decided to use his hands instead.
"Chuck, please." She reached for him again but he moved her hands aside, not allowing them to distract him. He knew what she wanted. She wanted him to do this quickly, without taking the time to just look and feel her. He'd have to explain to her later that looking and touching were the best part- that he'd waited so long to have her and that he wouldn't rush this. There had been times in their year apart that he had been so close to just falling on his knees in front of her and begging for forgiveness. Begging her for the right to even hold her hand again and now here he was blessed with this wonderful gift. Chuck Bass was a lucky man who had been given a second chance.
His hands reached the skimpy lace fabric that clung to her hips and he pulled it down slowly, watching as her body was revealed to him. Again, he wanted to say something but there were no words. He leaned down and kissed her mouth, showing her how he felt. Lita moaned softly and closed her eyes, allowing herself to get lost in the moment. There was only Chuck and Lita. Nothing else mattered. No one else mattered.
"We're going to go slow." He groaned into her ear when she reached for his hardness. "We have to go slow." He was telling himself just as much as he was telling her but it didn't matter because a moment later someone was pounding on the door.