第１５話

"Concupiscence"

Gradually, after the first couple of weeks, the two boys began to go farther, experimenting, testing their limits. Matt would constantly tease Mello, who couldn't hold out for more than a minute. On the other hand, Mello would make fun of Matt, who would become turned on within just seconds of intimate kissing. Between the two boys, it was clear whose body was the most sensitive.

Every night, Mello wished that Matt could stay through the night, so that he wouldn't have to sleep alone.

But Mello knew that one mistake, one slip-up, and it would all be over.

"A..h...M-Matt..."

Mello looked up into the other boy's face, the both of them panting like crazy, and long since turned-on to the point of pain.

"What is i-it?" Matt said, his face a deep shade of pink, his breath hot against Mello's face.

"I-I think I'm...ready," Mello said, taking a deep breath.

"Wha...are you sure about that?" Matt said.

It was true that the two of them had been working towards this moment, but every time they had chickened out and stuck with the basic stuff.

"Yeah..." Mello's voice was shaking, but his eyes were sincere. "I am."

Matt looked him directly in the eyes, his expression serious. "It hurts, you know."

Mello rolled his eyes slightly. "Duh, I know that. I-it'll be fine..." he breathed, smiling. "I trust you."

Although looking uncertain about the whole thing, Matt obeyed Mello's wishes and leaned forward, bringing their lips together again, his hands working skillfully at the other boy's pants.

Both boys were already shaking all over. Just the thought of what they were about to do made them terrified.

"Are you sure about it?" Matt whispered. "You're shaking."

"Yes," Mello nodded. "I'm sure." Though he only began to shake more as Matt gently pushed him down on his back, his mouth moving to his neck, breath hot against his skin.

"We can stop if you want," Matt told him. "Really."

"Shut up, I said it was fine!" Mello said. "Really."

Taking a deep breath and shaking his head at the other boy's stubbornness, Matt continued.

Matt spread Mello's legs and stared for a moment at the sight before him. Slowly, he lifted the other boy up and began to stretch him with his fingers.

Mello gripped the sheets, moaning a little as his friend began to satisfy his curiosity. "Ah..hh...M-Matt..."

"This...I already said it...was going to hurt," Matt whispered, as his fingers began to go deeper. He saw the other boy bite his lip in an effort to contain his voice. "Just relax..." he urged softly. Matt was surprised at how warm Mello was inside it; he had often fantasized about what it would be like, but never had he imagined that it would make his heart beat so.

Gently removing his hand, he looked into Mello's face, which was almost drained of color. The other boy was breathing quickly, the result of how anxious he was.

"Just relax," Matt coaxed, positioning himself against Mello and beginning to work his way inside.

He heard Mello yelp, and immediately pulled away, looking back up at the other boy.

"Sorry," Mello said, taking a deep breath. He was shaking all over.

"Hm..." Matt looked around the room. "Do you have baby oil or something? It'd make it a hell of a lot easier."

"W-why the hell would I h-have baby oil...?" Mello said, still breathing heavily.

"Don't tell me you haven't used it before," Matt teased. "Masturbieren?" he added in German, purely for Mello's reaction.

"Ugh, you're sick!" Mello shot him a disgusted glare, and Matt grinned.

"Just joking. Guess we'll have to do without." Matt gently put a hand to Mello's face and stroked the soft skin of his cheek. "It'll hurt for a minute, but I promise I'll be easy. Just trust me, alright?" he said.

Slowly, Mello nodded, gripping Matt's hand as he felt the pressure inside of him again.

"A..h..." He let out another small yelp, and wrapped his arms tightly around Matt's neck, willing himself to be still. "N...it hurts..." he gasped, unable to make words form; he was using all his concentration to focus on something other than the pain.

"I know – but it'll feel better, I promise," Matt whispered in his ear, working himself gently inside the rest of the way.

Mello managed to keep quiet as the pressure inside of him began to grow; his hands gripped the sheets as tightly as humanly possible. One word, and it would stop, he knew. But at the same time it nearly split him wide open, he wanted it to continue. Despite the pain, there was a certain pleasure threatening to explode within him.

Once Matt had worked his way completely inside, he relaxed and rested his forehead on Mello's shoulder, panting. He knew that he probably wouldn't hold out long, that he couldn't – not the way he felt now. Slowly, he began to shift inside; he knew there was a place, one place that he could hit that would bring more pleasure to everything. He could hear Mello gasping beneath him, willing himself to withstand it.

"Ah...h...Gods..." Mello winced slightly and dug his nails into Matt's back, which was already marked all over from previous acts.

"Sh...just relax, it'll feel – better in a minute," Matt gasped, still moving within him. Oddly enough, he slightly knew how to do this; years of reading various adult novels had indeed helped him learn a bit more about this type of thing than he would have otherwise.

Matt must have reached whatever place it was, because next second he heard Mello gasp again, but not out of pain. It was more of a moan than a yelp.

"Ah...M-Matt..." he tightened his arms around the other boy's neck. "..Again..." he gasped.

Obeying, Matt shifted forward again, in the same spot, and heard the same noise again. He continued this motion, until he felt Mello slowly go harder beneath him. Immediately, his hand traveled down to Mello's waist and he closed his hand tightly around the other boy's member. Squeezing it hard, he pulled and stroked Mello until his friend was gasping for breath.

"A...h...ahhh...God, Matt...ahh...nnh...ah..."

With every stroke, Mello tightened around Matt's own member, and both boys lost themselves in the pleasure that the other was giving them.

A few moments later, Matt could feel the familiar warmth run into his hand. Before he even had time to grasp what had happened, he was desperately searching for something to hold on to as his own orgasm overtook him; he shuddered against the other boy as he released himself inside, panting. Pleasure he'd never experienced before coursed through his veins.

Mello cried out a little as Matt pulled out, and as he looked up into the other boy's face, he felt tears welling in his eyes. He didn't know why he was crying, or what he felt. The tears progressed down his face, and he gave a small sob.

"..? Is something wrong?" Matt asked, brushing the hair away from Mello's face.

Mello shook his head and pulled Matt down closer. "No, I..." Unable to think of words to describe his mixed up feelings, he simply pressed his lips against Matt's and closed his eyes.

Although surprised, Matt didn't reject the other boy's kiss; he looked into Mello's shining blue eyes as the other boy drew back and wiped his eyes. "What is it?" Matt asked.

Though the tears were still streaming down his face, Mello smiled. "I love you, Matt."

Matt laughed. "I know that." He kissed him back. "I love you, too."

"Stay for a while," Mello said, his voice pleading.

Although hesitant, Matt laid down beside Mello and the two of them snuggled under the covers, Mello's arms wound tightly around the other boy. Suddenly, it felt as though the energy was drained out of both of them. Matt's fingers weakly tangled themselves in Mello's blond hair, as he sighed deeply.

Feeling himself drifting off, Mello tightened his arms around the other boy and closed his eyes. "You're warm..." he muttered.

Matt laughed slightly, but then his expression became serious. "I have to go," he said, giving a small sigh coupled with a yawn.

"No..." Mello moaned slightly. "Please, just stay a little longer," he pleaded.

Matt sighed again, but nonetheless, remained in the bed, his body pressed close against Mello's. He was suddenly so exhausted. He knew it wasn't a good idea, he knew he should leave. "Mello, I..." But the words he was going to say never left his mouth as he drifted off to sleep, Mello following shortly after.

第１５話　－　終

Author's Notes:

I was really experimenting myself with this chapter: practicing my Yaoi-writing :)

This is actually one of my earliest 'yaoi' scenes...(it was written long before I ever wrote any other ones, with the intention of using it in my fanfiction sometime )

It was their first time – so they were both pretty much scared out of their wits...

This scene was originally written different, but I changed it a bit.

After writing this scene, I'm beginning to wonder what actually happened to make Mello start treating Matt like a piece of dirt... I guess it was just an over-time thing to do with Near. It's obvious Mello treated him better before. The huge difference in their relationship in "OBSESSION" compared to this fic really does baffle me...

But here's a fact: Matt is better as seme.

(haha) no really! It's something I realized after re-reading some of my scenes... He seems to know more about what he's doing than Mello does. But that's because Mello has been sheltered his whole life, and Matt hasn't (which is kind of obvious when Matt mentions the 'masturbieren' part...). Seems logical enough...? Maybe I'm wrong?

As for the title, anyone know what it means? (just use a dictionary if you don't)