I haven't been watching you for as long. Just these past seven days. It's nothing compared to the past seven years, but I hope you'll understand why.
I'll admit that I never thought of you that way. My sexuality had never been challenged before; I thought that I was as straight as they come and that I would find a nice girl to settle down with.
You changed that.
Now that I know how you've been looking at me, I can't help but look at you and notice that you're everything I've ever wanted in a girl. But you're not a girl. That's supposed to bother me, and yet I find that it doesn't, which is odd because I'm straight. I think. Or at least, I thought.
These past few days I took the time to stop and think about all the ways I never realized that you're perfect for me. It's every way. It's the way you make me laugh, the way you enjoy the simple things, the way you're not afraid of being yourself. It's your devotion, your tenacity, your crazy hair, your deep eyes, your addicting voice.
I can't even begin to tell you how much I've missed those eyes and that voice.
I didn't know what I was missing until I missed it. I like it when you smile just for me, and I love to lose myself in your eyes when you're excited about something. I could listen to you talk for hours. Just being around you makes me calmer and yet more excited at the same time.
This past week has been hell without all those things, and I can finally see that you're what I want. I hope you forgive me for taking so long to figure it out. And I hope you forgive me for hurting you while I was being so slow.
I've made this as easy for you as I could. I left fingerprints everywhere so you'll know that this is real. And here I am in front of you, just waiting for your reaction.
Go ahead, G. Kiss me.
-xNickx