Chapter 8
Your P.O.V sitting down your nose began to cringe at the smell of cooked meat. Ever since Isabo began to teach you to control your powers, you could never make yourself eat it. Just the thought of eating the animal, knowing what its last thoughts were, where it was every time it ran away, never really seemed fair. Suddenly the thought of bringing the meat to you lips made bile try and snake its way up your stomach. Quickly you thought of much more pleasing thoughts. For example, you couldn't help but glancing over at Sesshomaru, wondering if he still loved you and if he would ever forgive you, let you explain. Sigh 'If only it were that easy.' You caught the toad, Jakken, staring at you. (You refuse to call him by his name because toad was just right to match his nasty attitude towards you.) "Toad, if you would please stop boring a hole in my head with those beady little eyes of yours, I think I'd like to enjoy my dinner." He glared at you and opened his mouth for the millionth time to whine at you since you woke up. "Mutt, are you afraid to eat the food you made. I saw you cringe your nose at it, did you poison it or something. I bet you did just so you could escape, filthy mixed breed." You stood up and walked over to Jakken and stared him down. His face changed from victorious to scared shitless. He stuttered as he cried for help, "My lord…. M….mm Milord, please control the wench! Milord please!" he back into a tree and you clunked him on the head several times. "Don't ever called me mixed breed, mutt, wench or bitch ever again you weakling lesser demon, do you understand!? I do not appreciate being insulted when I have done nothing to you. Treating others like shit just because you think you have your precious lord protecting you means nothing! And for your information, the mixed blood you refer to is that of Wolf, Fox, and Unicorn. All of those demons except wolves are herbivores you idiot, I cannot eat meat, I get violently ill if I do unless during heat. Next time ignorant little prick, you might not be lucky enough to get away with just a lump or two." He stared at you, scared for his life. Slowly but surely he shook his head yes, he understood. "Good, now may we possibly get along from here out cuz if not, I am just going to make your life a living hell." Again he shook his and head. "Great!" you turned around to go eat your dinner, out of the corner of your eye you caught Sesshomaru looking at you from across the fire. He looked as if he had a smile on his face.
'Bastard is laughing at me, tsch figures, I am just some piece of entertainment for him.' "Ha!" "Oops, did I say that out loud." You blushed a deep red and rushed quickly to your seat. You silently ate your dinner while Rin yapped away at Jakken about how the three of you were going to have such a great time together from now on. Still thinking, you got up like a drone and collected the bowls, "I'll be back in a little, I will wash these and then I am going to bath. Rin, I will be back in a little to put you to bed, Okay?" She wiped the sleep out of her eyes, "Yes mommy." The forest was not very far and within it was a beautiful and serene watering hole. Without much thought you pulled a seed out of your bag and planted it applying a little magic to it so it grew. You plucked it and set it down so you could undress. 'Every time I use my powers, I get more and more tired, like the life is being drained out of me.' As if on cue you yawned. "It figures though, I've never tried going 3 years without doing the ritual, I usually do it every other month on a full moon." Taking the Lavender weed you pulverized it and stepped into the water. "I have gone from one master to the next, am I ever going to be free of this never ending enslavement?" you dunked under the water and screamed. Remembering the lavender powder you scrubbed it into your hair and onto your body. Your wounds were taking an eternity to heal. You looked up at the moon to see what phase it was in. The sky was black but for the stars, it was a new moon; you had at least a month before you could perform the ritual. "Until then I can only rely on my physical strength." You looked at your hand clenched into a fist against the starlight. "I wish you were here Love, I may have not loved you as much as I did Sesshomaru, but I still loved you more than anything in the world.' A light smile touched your face and you felt the tears streaming down your cheeks at the thought of your old family. 'I wish I never had that damn vision. They would both still be here if I hadn't.' You ran a finger over your fox ears, feeling the fluffiness between your fingers. 'I guess uncle Rohm was right about me being cursed.' Flashback "Kara, the council has asked me to come here to punish you for committing the worst taboo against the Kobe Unicorn Clan. You have slept with and bore the child of a half demon, and you being a half demon yourself has diluted this child's blood even more. You know we are the last of our race and we mate with only Pure Wolf demons to create another race with our blood decent. But your mother broke that law, resulting in your birth, but now you have repeated her mistake and mixed your blood with that of a half-demon wolf. You're child will pay for your mistake; she will eventually be taken over by her own powers. She is cursed. You have done this before and we took on you mistake by taking the child and caring for her but we cannot do this again, apparently you have not learned your lesson. Give Alira to me and we will see a burial fit for her. An abomination like her should not be allowed to live. Give her here!" Rohm glared at Kara. "That's enough Brother, you are scaring our poor sister." Isabo walked forward opening her arms to her tribal sister. "She may have sinned, my brother, but that does not mean you take an innocent life just because you are prejudiced." Isabo took the infant from her best friend Kara and cooed to the frightened baby. "I shall raise this child as my own if it means it will prevent the eternal sorrow of my dearest friend. I am sure my little Sesshomaru would love a little play mate." Isabo smiled kindly at her friend as she played with little Alira's hand. Rohm just glared at the both of them. He tilted his head towards the sky listening to the wind, he snapped his head forward again with a reluctant look about him. "The council agrees with this seeing that you, Isabo, are trained enough to handle her, but I shall have Yuki watch over Alira as she grows and report to me every full moon until Alira reaches age to mate." With that he whistled towards the forest calling forth a young fox demon. The demon transformed in mid-run into a teenage demoness. "Yes, elder? What is your command?" Yuki bowed and her brown hair made a curtain around her heart-shaped face. Kara gasped, this was her first born, and the child they took away from her when she became pregnant from the rape incident many years ago. This is the child that haunted her night and day. "Y-y-yuki! By the gods! How are you? You have grown so much!" Kara smiled through the tears at her beautiful daughter. Yuki looked up a bit surprised at how the woman addressed her. She took notice of the changing "rainbow" eyes and instantly knew that this woman was her vile mother. "Hello mother. It's so nice to meet you." Yuki said as if the words would poison her if she let them sit on her tongue for long. All the while Isabo could not help but cry inside for her friend. Kara flinched and looked away. "I see you have trained Yuki well, she has become very beautiful. She looks just like her grandfather." Kara said trying to avoid eye contact with the estranged girl. Yuki was blessed with normal eyes and not her mother's eyes, which showed her weaknesses. "You think so, because I was hoping to make her my bride when she reaches of age." Kara's eyes widened, shocked at his horrible revelation. "Of course Rohm, she is a bride most befitting you." She barely caught the smirk on Rohm's face. "Yuki, you are to watch over Alira until she is of mating age, do you understand?" Yuki bowed to Rohm once more, "Yes milord, I shall watch over the abomination, if that is what you wish." She transformed into a fox demon once more and walked to Isabo's side. "That's a good girl. Now Isabo you may take your leave but do not forget that she still has unicorn blood in her and you must teach her the ways of our people, that includes the talk of the mating ritual when she goes into her first heat. Comprehend?" Rohm smiled his most maniacal smile in ages. "Yes Brother, I do." Isabo allowed Kara to kiss her child on last time, making sure that Rohm didn't see Kara put an enchanted charm on Alira's wrist. "Good-bye my friend, do not be sad for your child is in good hands." With that Isabo turned towards the forest, clutching the crying child to her chest. End of Flashback You lifted your hand into the air, looking at your bracelet. sigh "I wish I could have gotten to know my mother, even if she did seem cowardly. Curse Uncle Rohm and his self-righteous ways. At least Yuki got out of his clutches okay. Oh that reminds me, I need to call her." You made a low but audible whistle, calling your half-sister to you. A fox came bounding through the forest towards the watering hole. "Yuki, it is so nice to see you." You scratched her ears in their most sensitive spot, making her leg twitch. You laughed at her reaction, "I have been gone a long time, all that time could have been used to kill Naraku and free you from being trapped in your fox form. Poor Yuki. I swear I will try and make fast work of Naraku." Yuki growled and turned towards the bushes, sensing an intruder. "Who's there?" you could faintly smell his demonic aura, 'Damned nose is getting weaker.' Yuki ran towards the peeping tom, barking and growling, whatever it was got fed up and kicked Yuki. "Yuki! How dare you harm my sister you bastard!" You shouted and stood up, grabbing you Ise Burade from the waterside. In a blink of an eye your sword was knocked form your hands and you were face to face with Sesshomaru. "Do not raise your sword to me Wench, I am your master and you do as I say!" You blinked and then suddenly blushed as you realized that you were completely nude. Sesshomaru took notice of your eyes and cheeks and looked down at you. He quickly brought his attention back to your face and proceeded as before. "Yes milord, what do you need, you have given me quite a fright?" He blinked, dislodging his eyes from yours and cleared his throat. "Ahem, yes, I came here to require some information from you about that day. Why did you leave without warning?" he refused to make eye contact again, he was trying to show superiority but you knew he'd lose it if he looked you straight in the eyes. "Oh, you came for that? Well, it's kind of complicated. Do you remember when I would have visions?" You asked quietly. "Yes, I remember. Most of them caused you horrible nightmares. What about them?" he finally made eye contact. His eyes were still cold as ice, yet showed concern, but as quick as the look came it disappeared. Breath catching in your throat there was a sudden urge to kiss him. Fighting the urge, you continued on with your answer. "One year before Ryūkotsusei attacked, I had a vision of everything that happened. I didn't know when it would happen but I never wanted it to happen. I kept seeing it over and over again, the slaughter of our family and your change into a cold-hearted Lord. Flashback Inu no Taishou (father) was trying to save Sesshy and our siblings from the Red Dragon but the dragon got a shot in and injured papa severely, Sesshy got knocked unconscious and the rest were burned alive. Papa fought hard until Ryūkotsusei got his claw through Papa's chest, sealing him to the tree. Before he died papa took the dragon down before Ryūkotsusei could finish off the rest of the Northern Lands. Tears found their way down your cheeks again either in real life or just in your vision/dream. You shot up, accidentally tossing the blanket aside. You were sweating to death from the nightmare come to life. A new stream of tears flowed down your face as you thought of everything that occurred after the first vision came. Even after telling Isabo of the vision and moving to a near by village they still happened. You remembered clear as a bell what Isabo warned you about after your very first vision. "Once a vision occurs those who are involved have their futures set in stone from then on, if an outside force tries to change the outcome of their destiny there is to be a much worse fate than from before." The tears flowed harder. You remembered the look on Papa's face once you told him of these visions. He was devastated that he had to choose who could live and who would die. He chose not to act so at least Sesshy could live, because in the second vision everyone, including humans in the western lands, was slaughtered. You remember watching as Ryou turned the beautiful western lands into a fiery wasteland. Sesshy and you were the last two alive only because Ryou wanted it that way. He watched as you two fought. He was mad about your leaving and wanted you dead because he thought this all was your fault, you both ended up killing each other just like Ryou wanted. What made this scene more painful for you was that Ryūkotsusei had a spell over you, but not him, they were Sesshy's true feelings. End of Flashback You looked away from Sesshomaru, the taste of salty tears in your mouth; you felt such guilt at this revelation. "I begged Isabo to allow me to see you again, but she said it would just ensure the second fate even more. She asked me if I wanted to see you live, and then continued to ask if I wanted to be responsible for so many deaths if I went to see you. I realize now that she was playing a little dirty but it was for the good of all. The thought of being responsible for all those deaths, and on top of that yours, I just couldn't do it." You held back a sob of the thought of Sesshomaru having died that day. He was looking through you not taking notice of your pain. "I snuck away anyways right after I had the last repeat of this vision; I wanted to do my best to warn you and the others because how frequent the nightmarish visions occurred lately told me it was that day it would occur." You looked at the ground ashamed with yourself. "I realize now it was kind of selfish to want to save you all so I wouldn't be lonely but it was a lost cause anyhow, I was too late. When I finally came to the scene papa was already dead along with the others and you were covered in blood, just standing there staring at me in anger and fear." You looked up in time to see Sesshomaru's angry glare. He grabbed your throat in an instant and squeezed tight, leaving poison burns. "Don't you ever address my father, the great lord, like he was something special to you! Understand!?" He dropped you in the water. Standing up you glared right back at him. "Inu no Taisho was the only father figure I have ever had Sesshomaru! He treated me like his own kin and vowed on the day Isabo brought me home that he'd love me like his own daughter. I loved that man as much as you did Sesshomaru and no one is ever going to change that for me! Got that!?" Inu's image popped into your head causing a tear to fall. "You disgust me, weakling wench!" He gritted his teeth together and turned around to walk away. "I miss him like crazy, Sesshomaru. He's the only person whose love and trust still holds strong for me, even in death. Because you see, everything I touch falls to pieces, I guess I am just cursed that way." Another tear fell as you slid in the water turning your back on Sesshomaru. "I fear I have told you more than you wanted. Now if you don't mind Milord, Rin is waiting for me." Wiping the remaining tears from your eyes you stood and grabbed your things. "We leave at dawn tomorrow morning, if you are not ready by then we will leave without you." Without another word he disappeared. After fully clothing your self you went to grab the bowls. You caught a glimpse of yourself in the water and suddenly an image of your former family came to mind. The tears came without warning this time and you collapsed to your knees sobbing hysterically. "Every bit of happiness I receive in my life disappears, and it's always my fault somehow." You cried until the tears became dry sobs. Collecting yourself together you wiped the tears away once again. "I guess Sesshomaru finds me weak huh? It wouldn't surprise me, because it's the truth." Yuki snuggled next to you hoping to provide some comfort. You smiled reassuringly at her and rubbed her head as you picked yourself up. "It's alright one-Sama, I feel better now that I've said it. I've got to stop this pity party and gather my strength back together because if I don't there's no way I'll be able to kill Naraku for you. Alright, let's go! There's a little girl back at camp who's probably dying to see you!" With that you brought your spirits back up and headed towards camp, taking note of a rare eavesdropper nearby.