Chapter 3: Decisions
Don't look at him, don't look at him. Surprisingly this was easier said then done. I tried to focus on the people at the lunch table that Jessica lead me to instead.
Eric was there and gave me a too friendly smile. A boy with blonde hair and a baby face introduced himself as Mike, and if he would have stopped sneaking glances at me I would have forgot his name like everyone else at the table.
They talked about school work, what they did yesterday. It was all very boring and I found myself tuning out. Not a good idea.
As soon as I closed my eyes and rested my head on the table everything about me focused on the bronze haired boy sitting at the other side of the room.
No, I chastised myself. He's not a boy he's a vampire.
Being a vampire doesn't change his sex, a part of me argued.
I couldn't take it anymore. I lifted my head and looked across the room at the vampires table. The bronzed haired one - the god one, apart of me remarked - was no longer looking at me, but went back to looking at nothing in particular.
Unfortunately, my staring didn't go unnoticed.
"What are you looking at?" Jessica asked. Man she was nosey.
She followed my stare before I could look away and stifled a giggle. "Oh, that's what your looking at."
"Who are they?" Seeing as though she was here I decided to take advantage of what she knew to know more about the bronze god.
"Well those are the Cullens." She remarked. She was way to eager to spill gossip. "The black haired girl is Alice, the blonde one is Rosalie. The muscled guy is Emmet, the blonde haired guy is Jasper, and the bronzed hair one is Edward."
Edward. It sounded perfect.
"They're all adopted by Dr. Cullen and his wife. I don't think she can have kids." She said the last part as if it was a huge scandal. "They live together and they're all together."
My heart stopped. What if Edward already had a mate. Was it Alice? Rosalie? She was gorgeous it only seemed right that a god and goddess would be together.
"Alice is with Jasper," she explained. I just wonted to scream at her that I didn't care and for her to leave me with my now broken heart. "Rosalie is with Emmet," that got me out of my depression, "and Edward is the only single one, but don't bother with trying to get him. He doesn't date."
A surge of possessiveness over took me. By the look on Jessica's face she had obviously asked Edward out once. Edward is my mate, my mind scream, my meleth. It took every bit of restraint to not hit this human.
I turned back to the Cullen's table only to find Edward looking at me again. He probably heard this whole conversation. Crap.
I quickly looked away from his penetrating stare. God how much I wanted to just get lost in his eyes.
Thankfully the bell rang before I could do anything stupid. Like throw myself at Edward, or jump him.
I walked to my biology class with a quiet girl who had sat at our table. She reminded my that her name was Angela, but she didn't seem upset that I forgot her name so I decided I liked her.
As I walked into the class, the same sweat smell met me. A vampire had this class with me. I quickly looked around only to bring my head back to face the teacher. Edward Cullen had this class with me. One part of me was jumping with joy, while the other kept repeating Oh crap, oh crap.
I walked to the teacher and handed him my slip. After signing it he pointed me to the only available seat left. The one beside Edward. Was this town trying to kill me?
I walked slowly to my seat. I noticed creepy Mike was also in this class. He looked rather mad for some reason.
As sat in my seat with as much grace as I could muster. So of course instead of landing in the seat I found myself landing on the ground, to my great embarrasment.
I blushed with everything I was worth when I heard the snickers start up around the class room. Then a white hand came into my line of view. I looked up and saw Edward smiling down at me kindly, offering me his hand. I couldn't help but notice the frustrated look in his eyes. They weren't angry, just frustrated.
Without thinking I took it. A jolt of electricity ran through my arm, I'm touching him! My heart fluttered in my chest and I'm sure he could hear it. I held on until I was safely seated. My arm tingled after releasing Edward's hand and the fact that I was no longer touching him sent my heart into distress.
Through class I couldn't stop myself from sneaking peeks at Edward. I noticed he wasn't boyish at all. It was painfully obvious that he carried a six pack under his shirt. His sleeves were rolled up revealing his muscled arms.
At first he seemed calm and fine, but after awhile I noticed in his frustrated eyes an inner battle. I wonder if his was anything like the one I was having.
The one side knew that I was to be with Edward, there was no denying it. That part wanted me to touch Edward again, to skootch my chair closer to his. But my other side saw how weird and almost dangerous this could be. My family got exiled because of vampires, what would happen if the Goras found out my meleth was one. I couldn't even think of it.
I can't tell Charlie, about Edward and his coven. Both sides of the battle agreed with that. If I told Charlie about the coven he would make us move and I've already grown quite fawn of the town. Liar, if you tell Charlie he would make you move and you'd probably never see Edward again. My heart literally stopped at the idea of never seeing Edward again.
But I can't be with him. I could sit beside him in biology but that was it, there was no other way I could be with him. My heart tried to argue, but logic won over. Outside of the biology class I would stay away from Edward, and wont mention his family to mine.
As I took another look at Edward his eyes showed that one side won his battle as well. Before I could look away he turn and locked eyes with me. His eyes were black and I almost chastised him for not keeping better care of himself. There was the familiar frustration, but also sadness in his eyes. Before I could figure out what the sadness was about the bell rang and in a blink of an eye Edward was out the door.
"Hey, Bella, what's your next class?" As I got up out of my seat I turned to see Mike. Creepy, creepy Mike.
"Phys. Ed.," I answered with little enthusiasm.
"Me too!" Mike however looked as if he had won the lottery.
He walked me to the gym. I would bet money that he would follow me into the locker room if he could. Thankfully since it was my first day I got to sit out.
I tried to watch what my class mates were doing, but my mind turned to Edward. His bronze hair that was untamable. I sighed. How I wish I could run my hand through his hair, I bet it's soft -
Stop! I heaved an more heavy sigh, one of defeat. You can't run your hand through Edwards hair, you can't touch him, if you can don't talk to him. And so I started to make the list of things I couldn't do to Edward.
As the bell rang, signaling the end of the day, I practically ran to the door to avoid Mike and raced to the office.
I was the only one in there beside the secretary. As I handed her my slip. I thought about asking if I could change biology. I already took it anyway, and it would stop the temptation of Edward. But my heart almost ripped at the thought. Your not allowing me to do what your instinct is telling you to, at last give me this one thing of sitting close to him. I knew defeat when I saw it. I wouldn't be able to take it if I completely stayed away from Edward.
As I was about to reach the door of the office, it opened. There stood Edward. The look of shock made it almost impossible for me not to kiss him. I'm sure I wore the same look of shock on my face.
What is he doing here? Then I remembered that this was the office.
As I stepped aside to let him pass, he stepped out and held the door for me. Such a gentlemen. I passed far to close to him. I could smell the delicious fragrance coming off him, I could almost feel the muscle of his body. A shiver ran down my spine. What would it feel like to have rap those arms around me, molding me to his chest as he bends down to kiss -
Focus Bella, focus.
I couldn't get to my car quick enough. As I slammed the door and started the engine I saw the Cullen family sliding into a silver Volvo. It stood out from the rest of the old vehicles the other students were driving. As I'm sure mine does.
Without looking back at the Volvo I drove home, in a daze, brought on by Edward's sent.
There's chapter 3 for you. Silly Bella fight a loosing battle. I decided to not have Edward lust for Bella's blood. It would make things more complicated than they already are. Review please :)