Chapter 9.

A week later, Karen was still in the hospital. Will had never left her side. Jack and Grace had come to visit everyday, sometimes with Lucas but they agreed soon enough to let him stay home with Rosario, who also came to visit a few times.

Karen had still not made a sound. She only talked to dr Martin and that was only because she had to. Will was devastated. He had lost his son, and he felt he had lost Karen too right now. Again. Was there never an end to her pain and suffering, as well as his own. Karen had been through more than him during the last few years, he didn't say anything else, but loosing a child was the worst thing he had experienced in his life. They had lost two, if they counted the miscarriage that Karen had suffered right before she was pregnant with Lucas.
Will was exhausted but he refused to leave Karen alone. She needed him and he needed her. He wanted to be there for her, he wanted to even though she shut everything out right now. She had done that last time too until he finally made it through her walls again.
Will went outside for a few minutes, Jack was in there with Karen right now and he didn't want to disturb them. Jack and Karen had a special bond, they had always had that, ever since they met for the first time. He wasn't a fool, he could see they genuinely loved each other. They could play around, fool around and making out and fondle all they wanted as a joke but he saw the real thing. If someone could reach through Karen right now in this state, it was Jack he thought. Though he doubted Jack could do that right now. Karen was a mess and according to dr Martin, she didn't do any progress at the moment. He himself made progress, he trusted dr Martin and he told her of everything he felt about what had happened and about Karen and everything else she asked about. He really felt alot better about the fact that his baby had died, even though he still was grieving alot.

"Will, I think that a service would do her good" dr Martin told him. "You both need to say goodbye."
Will sat just outside Karen's room, waiting for dr Martin's session with Karen to be over. When he heard dr Martin's suggestion he knew that she was right. They both needed to say goodbye, they both needed a closure to be able to go on.
"Yeah, I think you're right" he nodded.
"As soon as possible would be good, and to have her come home to your son is something she needs too" dr Martin continued.

She left him to his thoughts. He sat on the chair for a few minutes thinking, before going inside again. Karen sat leaned back against the pillows, no make-up and her hair was a mess. Her eyes were empty, just staring straight ahead. When he saw that, he just shook his head sadly. He hated seeing her like this. It wasn't the first time she closed herself in.

"Karen, sweetheart" he tried to get her to response to him, nothing.
"Karen" he tried again a little firmer this time.
She turned her head slightly to look at him for a second before going back to stare at the same point she had been staring on for hours.
"Dr Martin thinks it would be good for us to say goodbye" Will said. "She suggested a small service, and I agree. We both need to say goodbye. After that, we'll get you home, alright?"
No response. He sat down on the bed, taking her hands in his.
"Karen, do you hear me?"
No response. He let go of one of her hands and brought it to her chin and turned her face so that she was looking at him. She tore away from his grip and just proceeded to stare straight ahead.
Will decided to make the arrangements and then make her go to the service.

Next morning

Will had managed to arrange for the service to be held the very next morning. He made Karen get out of the bed and put on some clothes. Grace and Jack had come too as well as Rosario together with Lucas.

The service started and Will and Karen was seated at the front row. Karen showed no emotions whatsoever during the preach. She showed her ironface, for which she had been known earlier in life. He could hear Grace and Jack sob, even Rosario had tears in her eyes. Lucas was still to young to understand, but he did sit perfectly still and quiet in Rosario's lap.

"Mr and Mrs Truman, would you like to say goodbye?" the minister asked.

Will nodded and stood up, pulling Karen with him. He knew he was harsh now but he had to make her realize what had happened to make her process it and work it through. They would never get over it, but it would feel a little better everyday if they processed it.

They walked up to the tiny casket. The lid was closed so they couldn't see him, but it was enough for Karen. She broke down completely. Her body was shaking badly, her breathing was hindered from crying. She hardly managed to get air. Will held her in his arms as her legs gave in. He was crying too, but Karen was far worse. She cried everything out, screamed out her pain and suffering. She had slid down on the floor, still with Will's arms around her. Her screams echoed out through the small chapel.

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A/N Good? Bad? R&R please ..