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Chapter 14.

Next morning

Will woke up next morning. He was a little stiff when he woke up so he looked around. He was still sitting in the couch in front of the fire. It was now cold, the fire had gone out.

He felt something heavy lying against him and he saw Karen, asleep with her head against his shoulder. He smiled when he saw her sleep peacefully. Finally she got some sleep. He had been afraid that she would just sit up and stare out into space here too.
He gently got out of the couch, lifting her up in his arms and carried her to bed. She didn't even stir. He covered her body with a thick blanket, making sure it covered her up properly and then tucked it in under her chin. He kissed her forehead lightly and then just stood there for a minute or so, watching her sleep peacefully. Her beautiful face were now relaxed and calm.
He walked out of the bedroom and back to the fireplace and made the fire again. It was cold, really cold and there still was a blizzard outside. Once the fire was going, he stood himself in front of a window and looked outside. The snow whirled around, each flake playing with others. He saw nothing but white out there so he went back to the couch and laid down and pulled a blanket over him. The warmth from the blanket and the fire made him sleepy and he fell asleep again.

A few hours later he woke up and saw Karen stand by the window, looking out. The snow was still whirling. Will got out of the couch and stood himself behind Karen, placing his hands on her shoulders. She jumped slightly at feeling his hands, but didn't turn around. He wrapped his arms around her and leaned his chin on her shoulder. Suddenly he felt her body shake.
"Karen, are you cold?" he asked, wrapping his arms tighter around her to give her some of his warmth.
She didn't answer, but he heard a small sob. He sighed, turned her around and pulled her to him, wrapping his arms around her small petite body, hugging her closer to him. She started to cry now, screaming out her pain. His heart tore apart again as he heard her screams.
He wrapped his arms tighter around her as he felt her legs cave in on her and she almost fell to the floor, he lifted her up in his arms instead and walked back to the bedroom where he laid her down on the bed instead. She was still crying and screaming, by now she had wrapped her arms tight around his neck and refused to let go so he laid down beside her. She was crying hysterically on top of him now. He didn't know how much more of this he could take. He loved her so much and he hated, really hated to see her in this much pain and suffering. Wasn't there anything he could do? No, there wasn't. There was nothing he could do, except being there for her, just being present.
After an hour or so, she finally fell asleep again. At least she was sleeping more now, that's a good sign. Before she hardly slept, now she slept at least and he was happy about that. Her grip around his neck loosened and he got out of bed, pulling the blanket back on top of her, tucking her in properly once more. He kissed her forehead again lightly and walked out of the bedroom for a shower.
He got to the bathroom, closed the door and undressed and turned on the hotwater. He stood himself in there, letting the hot water pour over his cold body. Then he let his own tears fall. He was not as sad about what had happened as he had been. Of course he was sad, loosing a child like that is not something that goes away completely but he felt much better then he had been. He now cried because of Karen. He covered his face with his hand and sobbed. Suddenly he heard a noise and he looked up. There she stood, looking at him.
"Karen, weren't you sleeping?" he asked, his voice shivering.
She didn't answer but she shed her clothes and joined him in the shower, wrapping her arms around his neck, pulling him down to her and kissed him.
He was startled, but he wrapped his arms around her waist and kissed back, but soon broke it. He looked down into her eyes. They were empty. He undid her arms around his neck and said:
"Karen, we can't do this now. You're still vulnerable, you don't know what you're doing."
"I know perfectly well what I'm doing" she said.
He looked at her, this was the first time she spoke to him since it happened. She turned around and walked out of the shower, dried off and put on her clothes again before she went out the bathroom and down to the livingroom and the warming fire.

She had finally pulled through the apathic fase. She was aware of her surroundings now. When she woke up in bed, she looked around and soon recognized the bedroom as the one in the cabin. She hadn't spoken in a while to anyone but dr Martin, and now she felt slightly hoarse but it would be alright soon if she talked some more.
She stood at the window, looking out into the blizzard. It amazed her how it could snow like this. 'Me and Will and Lucas and Noah ...' suddenly it her, Noah wasn't with them anymore. She felt her body start to shake once more, but this time she didn't scream out her pain. She let it go with her tears this time. Will had been right, she still was very vulnerable. She needed to talk to someone about this. She sank down to the floor, where she sat on her knees, burying her face in her hands. Suddenly she felt a pair of hands on her shoulders and she looked up into Will's face. He had dried off and gotten clothes on again, but he hadn't shaved or gotten his hair done yet so it looked like a mess. She smiled through the tears when she saw the hair. It was so unlike him to let anyone see him with unmade hair, even her.
He smiled back slightly, but he looked worried.
"It's good to hear your voice again honey" he said and kissed her forehead.
"Yeah, it's good to be back, but I realize now that I've got to talk to someone about this, really talk."
"Yeah, you've been taking sessions with dr Martin but I guess you haven't been very cooperative."
"No I don't think so" she answered.
"Why don't we do something this afternoon?" Will asked.
"Like what? We can't go outside, there's a blizzard out there."
"Yeah, it's been like that since we arrived yesterday afternoon."

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A/N Not good at all but it's something ... R&R please ..