September 12, 2008

1:07 a.m.

Mood: Happy!!

Music: The Show-Lenka

So I just got back from my date with GEORGE WICKHAM!!

God, he was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo hot!

Im talking he came to my house in jeans and a black t-shirt! How hot is that outfit??

But, I felt myself comparing him to Will the entire night! Why is that? I dont like Will...I dont think. I hate him! Or...I think I do. He loves me like a sister anyways, so that wouldn't even work out! But, there's just something about him.

For example, when Will and I have to go out with Charlie and Jane, he would always open the door for me. But George...he opened the door and walked right in. Then, at dinner, he made me pay for my half...which Will never did, even though we weren't on a "date" he'd always pay. Then, at the movies he bought my ticket, and I thought things were looking up. Then, he made me pay for the CONSESSION STAND! Which everyone knows is more expensive. When, we got into the movies he made out with me the whole time. Which wasn't bad, just kinda embarrassing . I mean the theater was crowed.

And thats when I realized it, right in the middle of kissing George, that I like Will Darcy.

I don't know why I never even noticed him before.

So, when George asked me if we could "do this again sometime" I said no. Because I knew the whole night I'd just be comparing him to Will.

And because George is kind of a fucker.

Lizzy.

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September 13, 2008

8:54 p.m.
Mood: Embarrassed

Music: So What-Pink

So...todays embarrassment included 4 inch heels, thin mint cookies, and a slutty girl scout uniform.

What the hell you ask? Yeah...

Well, today my younger sisters Kitty and Lydia talked me into helping them sell girl scout cookies. I mean who still does Girl Scouts in High School these days?? Little did I know the girl scout "uniforms" included a girl scout outfit (sash and all) that barely covered my ass. And, to top it off we wore 4 inch heels.

So, me, Kitty and Lydia split up in one of those really nice neighborhoods with all the mansions. And everything was going okay, that was until I got to 4562 Oak Road.

I rang the door bell and a forty year old looking guy answered the door.

"Hi! Im selling girl scout cookies, would you like to buy some?" Then, out of nowhere, a crazy, all white(Im pretty sure it was albino) cat jumps out of a tree! It almost landed on my head!! Luckily, I jumped out of the way and started running for my life!I started running down the street and up some random persons lawn in my four inch heels. I swear, Albino Cat was chasing me!! So as Im running up this abnormally huge lawn, I dive in some bushes. Little did I know they were full of thorns!!

After a few minutes, "Uh...Lizzy?"

I let out a blood curtailing scream before turning around and punching the guy in the nose.

It was Will.

I had just run though his lawn, hid in his bushes, and now I probably broke his nose.

"Holy mother fucker!! Oh my God. I think you broke my nose. Oh shit, Its bleeding."

"Oh my God! Oh my God! Im sorry! I was being chased by a crazed albino cat!"

"What?!"

"Dont worry, Im pretty sure I lost it," I said looking behind me, "do you have a first aid kit?"

We walked into his kitchen, where he leaned against the counter.

And, just to let you have a little preview, he was wearing a really hot t-shirt and basketball shorts. I know that sounds pretty plain...but I swear you could those biceps...and they were looking good.

"Where is the first aid kit?"

"Above the sink..."

"Okay," I said grabbing it, "Im going to clean it up."

"Okay, but I don't do well with needles..."

"What the fuck? Im not using a needle, Im using a damn kleenex."

"I was kidding..." he said, looking over at me.

DAMN HIM AND THOSE GREEN EYES!

"Oh," I said smiling.

Now here's one of the many highlights of the day. To clean his nose, I had to stand in front of him. But, because he was leaned against the counter, we were standing really close. And, I was kinda leaning against him.

So. Hot.

"All done," I said smiling at him.

"Cool," he said touching his nose.

"Im pretty sure its not broken."

"I cant believe you punched me!"

"I told you, there was a crazy cat after me!"

"And what's with the outfit?"

"Oh come on, you know this slutty girl scout outfit turns you on."

"Actually," he said. "Its pretty hot, I wont lie!"

"Yea, well I do rock a mean slutty girl scout outfit."

"Thats for sure," he mumbled. But I TOTALLY HEARD HIM!!

"Oh your bleeding," he said pointing at my knee.

"Oh shit," I said.

"Here, I'll clean it."

Then, wait for it, he takes me by the waist and puts me up on the counter. He got a wet paper towel and wiped off all the blood. Then, he got out a band aid and put it on the cut. Which actually really hurt, I just wasn't saying anything.

"So, you have a really nice house." I said, I hate awkward silences.

"Yea, thanks."

"So, what the hell? Do I have to beg for a tour or what?" I said smiling.

"Why of course not Mrs. Bennett," He grabbed both of my hands and I hopped down from the counter.

"This way," he said, letting go of my hands. Damn.

"This is the living room, It's where I watch T.V. and eat dry cereal."

"Then, in this next room we have the Dining Room. I never go in there except for on Thanksgiving."

He continued to give me a tour of the house, things got awkward when we hit his bedroom.

"And, heres the best room in the entire house."

"Hmmm..." I looked around. It was blue with a bunch of basketball posters. A few trophies here and there. Some pictures, and there was always one girl in particular in every picture. She looked like Will but she had lighter hair. He doesn't have a sister right?

"This is exactly how I pictured your room." I said facing him.

"You've been picturing my room?" He said smiling.

"Ha, ha. In your dreams."

"I hope so," he said wagging his eyebrows.

"Who's this girl? In all these pictures? She looks like you."

"Oh, thats my sister."

"You have a sister? Will! Why didn't you tell me? Does she not go to our school?"

"Not anymore, she goes to a boarding school up in Connecticut."

"Oh, why?"

"Its a long story," he said leaning against the door frame. God, has he always looked this hot and I've just never noticed??

"Well," I said sitting on his bed, "Its a good thing I have a lot of time." I patted the spot next to me.

"God, you never give up do you?"

"No."

"Alright," he said sitting down next to me, "Her name is Georgiana, and she's sixteen."

"Go on," I said persistent.

"Well, you see, when she was fourteen, she started going out with George."

"Wickham?"

"Yea, and he said he loved her and all this shit. I mean she was fourteen for God sakes, she didnt know any better. And when she found out that he was dating other girls, she got really depressed. I mean, he had talked her into having sex. It was like really intense. So, she wore all black, and got into some really bad stuff. Thats when they sent her to an all girls boarding school in Connecticut."

"Oh, Jesus, Im sorry," Im really bad in these types of situations. Like, I never know what to say.

"Yea, but she's okay now. Its just every time I see him I want to kill him. Thats why I freaked out when I saw you with him the other day."

"Jeez, good thing I dumped him."

"What?"

"I went on a date with him the other night and it was terrible!" I said laying down.

"Really? I didn't know." He said laying beside me.

"Well, I wasn't going to tell you because of that little freak out, but now I understand why you had it."

"Yea, just don't tell anyone, I mean the only one who knows is Charlie."

"You're secret is safe with me. No worries," I said putting my hand over his.

"Thanks," he said intwining our fingers.

And we just laid there, our hands intertwined. Not saying anything...then, I couldn't help it, but I had to say something about him loving me as a sister. I mean I don't think he does this type of stuff with his sister!

"So...about what you said, the other day, about loving me as a sister."

"Ohhh..."

"Well, what exactly did you mean by that? I mean, you've hooked up with like every girl in school. Am I that hideous?!"

"No, its not that..."

"Then what is it?" I said sitting up. He sat up and put his head in his hands.

"I just said that because your the one girl in school that don't want to hook up with."

"What?!" I said, standing up. "Well, listen here buddy, I don't want to hook up with you either, how do you like that?" Lies, it was all lies! All I wanted to do was jump him!

I walked as fast as I could. Once I reached the front door, and opened it Will was standing there.

"Ummm...what the hell?? How did you get here so fast?"

"I--"

"Oh my God," I said cutting him off, "Are you like...Edward Cullen?" I whispered the last part.

"No, Lizzy," he said, rolling his eyes "I have a back door."

"Oh," damn, I really love Edward Cullen, "In that case." I said, slamming the door and trying to make my way past him. But, he pinned me against the front door.

It was like one of my fantasies.

Holy shit, I thought.

"Lizzy, I said your the one girl I dont want to hook up with, because you mean more to me than just a one night stand. I never just thought of you as a little sister. Not once."

And then he kissed me.

At first I was shocked, but then I kissed him back. And let me tell you, he is a great kisser. I slid my hands up around his neck and ran my hands in his hair. He put his hands on my waist pulling me closer to him. It was so hot. Im not even kidding, it was heated!!

And then he stopped.

"Wait, I—I cant do this." Then, he walked off.

Yes, he walked off!!

What?? Did I bit his lip or something? Oh my God! I knew it! Im a bad kisser!! This is tragic.

I walked down his driveway and walked home. My life is so depressing.

I cant believe I'm that bad of a kisser that he walked off!!

Lizzy.