What You Have and What You Want: Chapter 2: Coming out

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"Um, sure, that's fine." 'oh…my….god….. just be cool Rei, she's your friend. Yeah you love her, but she doesn't know that. All you'll ever be is her friend, so don't say anything to ruin that.' Rei thought to herself.

Rei was sitting with her back against her bed and her knees in her chest. Once the other girls left, Minako got up and walked to where Rei was and sat down next to her, also with her knees in her chest. Rei silently thought she was mocking the way she was sitting and smiled to herself.

"What's so funny?" Minako inquired

Rei's face went red, 'crap, she saw that' "Oh, nothing."

Minako raised an eyebrow at Rei, but let the subject drop. "So, how's life?"

'quick, think of something smart' "I can't complain." 'yes I can, I just won't cause it won't get me anywhere.' Rei thought and said. "How 'bout you?"

"Actually, I've got some issues I've been dealing with, and I just wanted to tell you, cause you're my friend." Minako said.

Rei knew exactly what was coming. Minako was about to tell her she was gay. Rei just knew that was coming. Rei had known that Minako liked girls for a while but Minako never specifically told her. But Rei wasn't filled with joy. She didn't get a feeling that she might have a chance with the goddess of love. She felt that Minako was telling her this because she wanted to come out to her friends, not because Minako liked her, cause she knew that would never happen. So she prepared herself to say something that wouldn't be lying, but also wouldn't be the whole truth. She wanted Minako to know that she accepted her, but she would never let her know that she loved her.

"What is it Minako?" 'I might as well play dumb'

"Well, I want you to know that I'm not as boy crazy as I seem; I'm actually more into girls, if you know what I mean." Minako said with an expecting look on her face.

"Oh, that's what you wanted to tell me? I already knew that." Rei said

"You did? How did you find out? Or am I just crazy thinking I've been hiding it so good this whole time?" Minako laughed. She seemed to be letting out a lot of unneeded stress.

"Ha, you hid it well. But remember, I'm like a freakin' psychic. I could sense it." Rei said.

Minako started to crack up, "Wow, so this whole time I've been trying to hide it and you knew? Ha…. So you're ok with it?"

"Yeah, of course. I mean, I don't see you as 'gay Minako', I just see Minako. And besides, anyone would be crazy to overlook what an incredible person you are just because of your sexuality." 'oh my god, I hope I didn't say too much there.'

Minako grew a huge grin and wrapped her arms around Rei's neck in a hug, "Thank you, Rei."

When Minako let go, Rei tried to hide the blush developing on her face. "No problem." Rei said with a smile.

"Well, thanks for talking with me, but I should get home, it is kinda late. I'll see you later then?" Minako asked.

"Yeah, of course."

Minako smiled at her and waved as she left. Once she was gone, Rei let out a breath she didn't know she was holding. 'How am I going to keep this inside? I know she'd never love me the way I love her. I can't tell her. If I do, I know she would never hate me and she wouldn't refuse to talk to me again, she's just too sweet for that, but the most I could hope for would be an awkwardness between us every time we meet, and I don't want that. I'm content with the relationship we have now…..for now. I don't know how long I can take it,' Rei thought.

Authors Notes: Sorry it's been a little while since I've updated, but I've been busy, and I havn't felt like writing, and we all know that if we write when we don't feel like it, the result it crap. I want to thank all my reviewers, I had no idea that I'd get suck positive feedback. I was expecting something like, "This is crap, keep your day job." lol. So I want to thank mysticamethyst87, Shiori Kaiou, Wind goddess Haruka, knightsky4, and Fade9wayz; I really appreciate the reviews you guys!