It took all of my will power to not go back to the clearing, to go back and fix the damage I had just caused. I will never forget the look on her face when I said it. Those four words. I don't want you. There weren't any tears, only a face chiseled out of stone. But her eyes, they will haunt me forever. It took her a moment for what I was saying to sink in. Her face was full of fear and worry, and I could hear her heart thundering in her chest. As soon as she understood, all life faded from behind her eyes, and I could barely hear her heart beat. Then I ran, as fast as I could away from her, the one girl who made me feel almost human. I am a coward. But I kept running. The dying leaves were swirling behind me in my wake. Autumn. I will forever hate it. My plan was simple; we'd merely relocate. Maybe we'd live with Tanya and her coven. It would work. Bella would move on and forget all about me. But she could end up hating me. Fine. She's better off without me; she'll be safer. I didn't realize where I was until I heard Jasper's thoughts. "Calm down Edward. Everything will be okay. She'll be fine." What a lie. I went up to my room and collapsed on the floor, reliving every moment we had together, starting from the beginning, from when I almost killed her. Yes, she was definitely better off without me.