A/n: My favorite pairing has to be LarxenexAxel although I also like her paired up with a few of my other favorite Nobodies. I'm pretty sure if I lived in a Castle with twelve other men I wouldn't be bothered by it, unless it's somehow boring. Oh well let's start off now.
My Non-Existent Emotions
"They're always leaving me like this! I can't stand it! I bet it's going to take forever for the next member to get here!" I huffed softly slamming my door as rage began to fill my body. I hated being left out of the loop like this. Everyone seemed to have their part and their place in this organization except for me. But what else should I expect? I mean I just got here and I have no idea what I should be doing at the moment. Moving towards the bed I took a seat, staring blankly out towards the wall, and swinging my feet back and forth. It wasn't long until another figure had appeared into my room, face hidden in the darkness of it's hood just like the other's here. I'm the only female here so it was quite clear to me that the figure was male.
"I thought this place could really use a woman's touch." He said with this soothing enchanting sound in his voice. As he moved closer to him, he placed a rose on my lap before taking my hand, removing the glove slowly.
Why does everyone keep saying this place needs a woman's touch. Is it really that bad?
Suddenly, thin pale lips could be seen within the darkness of the hood, as the male would press his lips to my bare hand. While he moved away from me he removed his hood and the first thing I noticed then was his sapphire blue orbs, gazing towards with such an intense look. Rose petals would slowly fall down to the floor as he shook his pale rose colored hair loose. All of a sudden my room filled with the sweet smell of fresh flowers. The scent was absolutely astounding. "Such soft and smooth delicate fingers you have." He whispered softly to me while slipping my glove back over my hand.
It seemed I couldn't do anything for myself here. I could have put my own glove back on but I'm guessing this pretty boy is trying to charm me and I have to say it was working moderately well. Quickly I tug my hand away from him, giving him an enticing smirk before speaking. "And who might you be?"
Is it humanly possible for a man to be this gorgeous?
"No. XI the Graceful Assassin Marluxia as your service, No. XII. Your name was Larxene, was it not?" He asked me while crossing his hands over his chest. Marluxia was clearly taller than I was, I could tell even though I was sitting down. His body was reasonably built, yet his element was unknown to me. I saw fire in Axel's eyes, clearly he was the pyro of the bunch, but Marluxia would be a tough one.
"That is correct we have ourselves a winner!" I said sarcastically moving to my feet. As I moved closer to him, he lifted his hand grabbing hold of one of my antenna, giving it a small tug. "Hey!" I shouted as another large bolt of lightning struck down beside me, nearly striking him down.
He looked at me with slightly widened eyes while releasing my blonde antenna from his grasp. "Wow you are a feisty one aren't you?" Marluxia uttered, taking a few steps away from me.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to do that. Lately when people over step their boundaries with me I get this buzzing sound in my head. " I explained as I quickly adjusted my antenna, moving it back into place. I didn't really understand why my hair was standing on end like that. It was drawing too much attention to me and clearly the others can't keep their hands off of them. Sighing softly I look up into his sapphire blue eyes as sparks dance about my own electric blue orbs. "I can't control this power I have as of yet so I'll have to ask you to refrain from touching my hair." Once again I made myself laugh, just from the way I said it a small giggle was forced through my lips.
Marluxia smiled, loving the sound of my laugh although that wasn't the only thing he seemed to be interested in. "Don't worry about it, really. I remember the time I couldn't control my own powers. You'll learn how to control that spark of yours instantaneously, I'm sure of this." He replied letting out a quick chuckle of his own prior to placing his hand on my shoulder.
Right then and there I couldn't tell what I was feeling. The only girl in a group of thirteen men? I wonder if they're all this charming, but I knew I shouldn't get my hopes up. Marluxia and Axel seemed to be two pretty nice guys I could maybe relate to. The only ones who seemed to care about me at moment as well.
Care about me? That's a feeling so they defiantly can't care for me. It must be something else.
Finally I decided to ask about this whole matter of Nobodies not being able to feel any sort of emotion the way they were hitting me now. "Marluxia… Do we really not have feelings? I mean no emotions just blank and dull? If that is so I think there is something wrong with me." I became frustrated with this even more as my mind went in depth on this matter. Was I really a nobody or has my process to becoming one not yet completed?
A peculiar smirk painted across Marluxia's lips as he quickly jumped back, pressing his finger to the tip of my nose. "Just because we don't have hearts doesn't mean we can't feel. Sadly only a few others in the organization believe this to be so. Feelings come from the mind not the heart, my little Nymph." He explained as he moved around me slowly, looking over my body.
"Well that does make a lot of since. Thus the reason why my body feels so cold without this cloak on is because I don't have a heart bumping blood through my body. But I don't understand it, Marluxia. I do feel something flowing threw my veins, despite the fact that it does not warm my body." So many questions I had raging around in my head along with the loud buzzing, provoking my frustration.
Suddenly Marluxia took my hand, leading me off towards the door. The look on his face was very calm however there was some other sort of emotion that I couldn't quite put my finger on. "That, Larxene, is darkness. That's all I can tell you for now, but you must know something. You must never speak of this at all. If you do go on about this with the others, having feelings as you do. Something bad may happen to you. Those sort of thoughts are not taken kindly here." As soon as we stepped outside of my room, he pressed me back up against the wall, placing his index finger to my lips. "Just keep quiet about it."
I could feel my face heat up as a deep blush moved across my cheeks. Finally the buzzing had stopped but at that moment I felt relieved. Everything that had been poking at my brain had somewhat stopped. I nodded slowly, taking his finger with my hand. It was amazing to me how much smaller my hand was in comparison to his. Then again I was the only female here, it should have already occurred to me that I maybe the most fragile looking out of everyone. As I removed his finger from my lips, I could feel my cheeks cool down. "I understand."
Marluxia nodded slowly while opening a portal in front of me. "Now should be a good time for you to get some training in. Xigbar will be the one to help you with that." He whispered softly into my ear as he swiftly placed a gorgeous rose behind it. "Just be very careful because he will not go easy on you." With that he shoved me into the portal, waving lightly as I tumbled inside. . I had appeared to be back outside in front of the mansion I first saw when I got here, lying on the ground at the front gate. Abruptly, a pink diamond shaped crystal stopped before my very eyes. I tilted my head slowly before lifting my right index finger towards the strange object, floating in air.
"I wouldn't touch that if I were you, my feisty little friend!" Someone had shouted not far from me. As I looked up towards the tall figure standing before me, a golden gaze stared back at me. With an eye patch covering on eye he smiled brightly at me. Raven black hair with a few streaks of gray pulled back into a ponytail. The contraption in his gasp seemed very unfamiliar to me. "I hope you're not just going to sit there and stare at me all day, toots. Because if you don't move in a few seconds that thing right there is going to pierce through your skull." At that moment I quickly jumped to my feet, eyeing the pink diamond.
It's not moving at all. Was he bluffing to get to me? And why is everyone calling me feisty?
"Oy, Larxene-chan! You might want to run away! Those things are homing!" Shouted Axel who was leaning over the brick fencing, watching my little training session.
Gasping I quickly ran away from the floating object before it quickly darted towards me. As I looked back towards it, I could see it closing in on me. Pinching my eyes closed in fear, I hoped that my body would just fade away so the shot would miss. All of a sudden my body turned into a black mist, causing the shot to go through my body and hit the ground. "Jeez! Are you trying to kill me!?" I shouted loudly while thrusting my hands to my sides, causing bolts of lightning strike down around my body.
"That's the idea, babe. If you can't hold your ground against me for five minutes then within three minutes I will kill you. I'll give you a warning just this once, but I think you should move now and move quickly." With that he pointed his weapon towards me, firing several pink diamond shaped bullets at me.
I can barely control my powers on my own. How the hell am I going to last five minutes?!
As I turned to run something as struck my cloak, pinning it to the ground. Lucky for me the snagged fabric of my cloak caused me to tip over, allowing the other shots to miss my body. The whole thought of dying again after given a second chance like this was something I was not willing to settle for. Suddenly more pink bullets were headed my way and fast. I panicked while rolling to the side as the bullets missed me once more however more were on the way. Feeling my body tense up I quickly pushed both hands out in front of me. "NO!" I shouted loudly as an electric current moved up my arms, creating some sort of electric force field in front of my body. At this moment I had realized the damage I could be doing with this power. That if I focused enough on my target maybe I could be the one to take him out. The buzzing in my head grew louder as my body quickly faded.
"That's it! You got it!" Axel shouted from the front gate, still watching over me. With him watching me like this made me feel even more confident.
Forcing my hands out to each side, I focused that current to my hands once more, forming four kunai knives in each hand. "This is too easy…" I mumbled softy trying to build up my own confidence. To be honest I was terrified. How much longer can I dodge those moves? It doesn't even feel like a minute has gone by even. Without warning I was struck down, my body sent tumbling until my back slammed up against a near by tree. A bullet had passed through my right shoulder with such force and the pain from the hit was no better. I wasn't focusing my mind on him thus my guard was let down enough for him to hit me. Avoiding him was my goal. Just last five minutes, no more and no less.
"Come on, babe! You said something about this being easy! Get your head in the game or I will kill you." Xigbar said as his body phased away from my sight. "MOVE! MOVE! MOVE!" His voice echoed from every direction only to frighten me even more.
Finally I snapped. This hole thing was only pissing me off and the more pissed I become the louder that damn buzzing in my head gets. Louder and louder! It was so annoying and it was keeping me from focusing on Xigbar. Bolts of lightning began to strike down at random. I could feel this power building up inside of me, and it felt amazing. The sound of Xigbar was heard, but this time he didn't sound the same. It was a faint grunt. One of my bolts must have landed on him. As soon as he became visible to me once more, I threw my kunai in his direction. Sharp electrifying blue kunai passed through his body as he phased to dodge them.
"D-dear god, she actually h-h-hit him." Axel stuttered while leaning a bit closer. His emerald green eyes were glued to me however I didn't notice.
A smirk had graced my lips wanting more of this feeling. I couldn't help but laugh loudly. The sound of my laughing was almost psychotic even. Echoing louder and louder as my form slowly lifted from the ground. More bolts of lightning striking around me, booming and destroying whatever lay in its path. It felt so exhilarating, so remarkable, and this power was mine. As my body continued to rise up, more bullets were fired at me, only to be turned into dust by my lightning. "It's useless!" I giggled while creating one large orb of electricity in front of me.
Just then something struck me on the back of my head, sending me flying face first into Axel, knocking him off of the front gate. "Whoa now. Let's not get too ahead of ourselves. I admit you do have some skills, babe, but you seem to have a focusing problem. Anyway your five minutes are up, seems you've spent most of the time laughing and striking your lightning down at random. Congratulations! You have passed the training, toots! You two play nice now!" Xigbar smirked as he snapped his finger, opening a portal, and leaving me and the pyro alone.
A hand gently lay against my head, petting me softly while my face was pressed to something firm, slowly rising and falling. As I glanced up I came face to face with Axel. My face instantly turned several shades darker as I gazed into those emerald green orbs. "You did good! Got a bit out of control towards the three minute mark but still none the less you did very well." Axel praised me with such kind words I could feel my face heating up even more. I didn't know if it was the fact that he is a pyro or my feeling of embarrassment bringing such warmth to my cheeks. He was so close to me I could feel him breathing warm breaths against my flesh. My mind urged me to lean in closer and steal a token of affection from him, but before I could he merely shoved me off of him in an impolite manner.
Before I could get up and scold him about his ill-mannered act another cloaked member tackled me down. "HIIIIII!!!" A bubbly voice could be heard from within the darkness of the hooded stranger. Just then lips were pressed up against mine. Thin, moist, smooth lips with a lingering sweet taste took away this new body's first kiss. I quickly began to push the other away yet its grasp only grew tighter around me. Once our lips were parted, I could feel something nuzzling up against my chest, causing me to blush horribly. "She's so pretty! AXELLLLLLL! Can I have her!? Please?!"
Axel began laughing loudly, almost tipping over from the strange member's actions. "I'd let her go if I were you, Demyx. Larxene is very feisty." My body suddenly let out an electrical charge, shocking the strange one until he released me. As Axel watch the grin on his face would only grow larger while watching this. "I should have stopped you before you touched her!" He chuckled softly while taking my hand and lifting me to my feet.
WHO THE HELL IS THIS?
The other member slowly moved to his feet, removing his hood revealing an equally attractive face. At that moment I could only imagine what the other's would look like more and more. Short blonde hair, spiked high up with a few loose strands of hair dangling down over his forehead. Soft blue eyes that held small water like ripples within them and a mullet? "My name is Demyx! I'm number… number… VIII! Wait no that's Axel's number! Um… I'm number…darn I always forget this!" He paused for a moment lifting his hand up to count on his fingers. My eyebrow slowly lifted at this. He must not be the brightest in crayon box. "Oh yeah! That's it… Oh darn I just forgot it again!" He sighed softly as a dark blush moved over his face, seeming to be embarrassed.
"I'll just introduce you myself, Dem. Don't sweat it." Axel said kindly, placing his right hand on Demyx's shoulder while moving the left over his own chest. "No. IX the Melodious Nocturne Demyx, in other words our water boy." Axel explained while grabbing my hand once more, tugging me closer to Demyx. "And this my friend is No. XII the Savage Nymph Larxene…"
I tried to give Demyx a soft smile yet the expression on my face was more frightened then soft. This guy really gave me the creeps. As I extended my hand towards him, he grabbed hold of my wrist, tugging me into another tight embrace. Once again his lips were sealed against my own, causing yet another horrid blush graced my cheeks. Ocean blue orbs were hidden behind his eyelids as my electric blue gaze was mentally burning a whole through his skull. I gave him another electric charge as I did before though this one a bit more powerful than the last. He would wince but his lips would not move in inch. At last, I gave him a rough shove, causing him to release me. "You're a really good kisser! Mm'hm! That was the second kiss I ever had from a girl. I have a rubber ducky named Sue and I give her lots of kisses all the time!" Demyx said cheerfully while placing his hand against my chest, gripping lightly. "Wow! You have boobs!"
In the corner of my eye I could see Axel slapping his forehead and heaving a heavy sigh. This guy seemed very childish so I decided to treat him as such by removing his hand and slapping it as hard as I could. Demyx yelped loudly before running behind Axel, whining and clinging to him. "Don't you ever kiss me or touch me there again. Do you understand me, No. IX?" I quickly shot a frightful glare at him, causing him to hide his face behind Axel's mess of red hair.
"Y-Yes, Ma'am." He yelped once more then slowly settled down as Axel messed the Melodious Nocturne's hair. I watched the two for a moment still glaring towards the water boy before turning away. Demyx just pushed himself off of my good side, yet apart of me thought it would be too harsh to do such. He's just childish and I knew I would have to give him time to realize that he needs to respect my personal space. Heaving a soft sigh I closed my eyes slowly, giving the two a kind smile, but before I could say anything Demyx had grabbed my right arm and tugged me off into a portal. "Let's go have some fun!" He chuckled while pulling me and Axel along with him.
As I stumbled out a hand quickly grabbed my shoulder, pushing me back up against a brick wall. That's when I had first laid eyes on Twilight Town. The sun setting off in the horizon, making all the building look magnificent. I could even see the old mansion, although once I glanced down I became light headed. How did I not notice before how high up I was? My body quickly became weak causing me to slip over the edge. Just then Axel's arm quickly looped around my waist tugging me back up into his arms. He would lean back, holding me close to his frame. The look on his face seemed very serious. His hands would merely spin my body around, lifting me up and setting me down in a sitting position on the edge then he and Demyx sat at each side of me. With Axel on my right and Demyx on my left I was sure if I tipped over again one of the two would catch me. When I turned my head around I noticed a large clock behind my back. It seems we were sitting on the top of a clock tower. I turned my head back around slowly to see blue ice cream in front of my face, in the shape of a rectangle.
"Try this, Larxene! It's really good!" Demyx said while holding the ice cream up to my lips. Since I've been here the only thing I've tasted was Demyx's lips. Once more it was another first for this body, it's first taste of something edible. I licked the ice cream quickly picking up a salty yet sweet taste. As strange as those two flavors sound it was actually quite refreshing. Taking the ice cream from the other I began to suckle on the side of the rectangular shaped treat. "Pretty good, huh?" The Nocturne would grin while handing Axel some ice cream as well.
I parted my lips from my sweet yet salty treat to reply. "Best thing I've ever tasted." I smirked locking my gaze onto the Nocturne. He didn't really have much of a taste although I did pick up a small hint of the sweeter side of this ice cream. This could only mean that he consumes a lot of this ice cream. My eyes slowly shifted towards the pyro, watching him as he stared of blankly, suckling against his ice cream. He seemed to be in deep though about something and the look on his face only made me curious to what he was thinking. However every time I laid my eyes on him I would only want to move even closer to him, but there was absolutely no space between us. The pyro and the nocturne both were shoulder to shoulder with me. Well more like shoulder to arms being that I'm much shorter than the two.
Emerald green eyes shifted towards me as the brow over them lifted slowly. "Something wrong, Larxy?" He asked while adjusting one of the antennas on my head. This time I held back my power, keeping myself from zapping him. I shook my head slowly looking off into the distance now with a deep crimson blush heating up my cheeks as I continued to eat my ice cream.
At this moment I had realized Demyx was being too silent. I turned towards him only to see him shove ice cream into his mouth. Devouring the ice cream, wooden stick and all. The look on my face was a mix of things. Disgusted, surprised, and a bit terrified. His head slowly tilted back, staring off blankly into the sky. Suddenly he started screaming loudly, gripping his hands to his head, and kicking his feet. "OH MY GOD IT'S SO COLD!!!" He shouted loudly before flailing his arms about. Without any warning his hand slapped against my back shoving me off of the clock tower.
My body twisted around quickly until I was looking up to see Axel and Demyx becoming smaller and smaller in my line of vision. I didn't scream but the look on my face was horrified. Dying was something I wasn't ready for. Not yet when I've just got a second chance. All of a sudden my vision became blurred and I couldn't breathe. A few bubbles escaped my lips holding what little air I've had in my lungs. It seems I was sitting in an orb of water, moving back up the clock tower sluggishly. That's when I heard this enchanting sound. It was music…
Demyx stood directly in front of the tower with a levitating sitar in front of him, gently plucking his fingers along the strings. The more he played the closer the liquid sphere I was contained in would move closer and closer to them. As so as the sphere was at eye level with Axel, he reached his hand in pulling me out, and setting me down next to him. There wasn't a drop of water on my body. The liquid sphere still kept its form until Demyx stopped play, letting his sitar disperse into a thin mist of bubbles. Along with the sitar went the sphere, dispersing in the same fashion. "Heh, I'm sorry, Larxy. I'll take note not to eat my ice cream too fast with you sitting right next to me." He laughed nervously, rubbing the back of his head.
Sadly for Demyx that whole act scared the hell out of me. I grabbed hold of the collar of his cloak, slamming his back up against the clock. "WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!?" I shouted loudly as lightning struck down next to us. The nocturne shrieked loudly, but lucky for him Axel had pulled me away from him.
"It was an accident. Jeez, Larxene, cool your jets." The pyro stated while tugging me over to the other side of him. "Besides if you didn't realize already… you can phase into darkness and reappear in a different location. You could have saved yourself. Lucky for you, Demyx was quick on his toes with saving you." Axel explained before lifting his right hand, opening another portal. "Let's get going before someone falls off again."
I let the two enter on ahead of me while I stood behind gazing into the portal. Axel was right, I've phased around before during my training with Xiggy. Rather than embarrassing myself even more around Axel I decided to just call in a night and head on to bed. Turning my body away from the portal I began to focus on my room, picturing every detail in my head. The metal plate on the door, the vanity, and the blank boring white walls. My body slowly began to fade off into a dark mist. I reappeared in front of my bedroom door, gazing at the metal plate with No. XII engraved on it. As I opened the door another cloaked member a little shorter than I walked past me with a young girl. The look on the child's face was despair and she seemed miserable. Long blonde hair and deep blue eyes, although when she looked at me she smiled and waved. She was the only one I've seen not wearing a cloak. I figured she wasn't a member being how the other's told me I'm the only female in Organization XIII. The cloaked male gave me a slight nod while moving on. I couldn't help but wave towards the young girl, feeling that it would brighten her day. Upon disappearing from my vision I slipped into my room only to find a pair of white pajamas set out on my bed.
In the process of unzipping my cloak a chill quickly hit my body. "Damn! It's so cold in here." I whined softly while removing my cloak, baring the cold feeling. As I lifted my tank-top up, Axel and Demyx appeared in front of me.
"Hey Larx--" Axel paused, as his jaw quickly dropped. His hand would hastily moved in front of Demyx's eyes that just so happened to be looking off in space. My eyes widen instantly as Axel's eyes lay upon the raven black brazier of mine. "Oh… um… m-my… well I'm really sorry… We'll be g-going now…" The pyro stuttered as he grabbed hold of the nocturne immediately then phases them both out of the room.
With a deep blush taking over my face I lowered my top and slipped the pajama shirt on over it. Flailing my arms about before flopping down onto the bed. The pajama top was way too big for me. I was practically swimming inside it. The sleeves went down to about mid-thigh on me and the rest of the shirt went down hanging slightly above my knees. I shivered while slipping into the pants which seemed to fit snuggly, although the pant legs were a little too long. After rolling the up a bit I flopped back in my bed with my legs hanging over the edge. The same crimson blush never left my cheeks. "Axel…." I whispered softly while moving my hands to those flushing cheeks of mine. "You… stupid jackass."
End of Chapter Two
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