A/N: This is the end. I had thought and thought of a proper end for this story, but for a long time I came up with nothing and lots of things at the same time. Then I ended up with this. As I wrote this fic I fell in love with all the characters, loving Allen and Kanda so much, and especially Lavi, who had such a special place in my heart. I felt as if I was loving them as real people, like my own blood so much that I did not know what to do about their love. I felt conflicted. I wanted to give them a perfect love, a love so unbearingably sweet. But that is impossible in a way. It'd be artificial. So I gave them the sweetness of young love, but at the same time a whole view of possibilities that the real world holds. Many of you may not be satisfied with such an ending, but I wanted to give love with a dose of reality as well.
THERE WILL BE A SEQUEL. I need Lavi to find happiness as well! it will be TYKIxLAVI! With some Lenalee moments in it. SPOILERS: Lavi will still be a student then, and Lenalee will be the new teacher there. Tyki is a family friend and Lenalee introduces them. It will be called Unconditional Love
Disclaimer: I do not own.
"It's so hard to love someone, and it's so hard to see them be in pain while loving another. …It feels like I'm dying when all I want to be is happy for them." Lavi whispered, clutching his chest, as if his heart would explode any given second now. Like a ticking bomb ready to burst within him, he probably felt a pain much deeper then Kanda and Allen's combined. Since no one knew, they all believed the smile he gave out without much of a thought. For the sake of his love and the sake of his friend he wished the happiness, and anything within his power he could do for them. Even if it meant hurting himself while helping them, he would do it. Even when it meant the shattering of his own heart.
Chaptire 5 – The End
It hurt. But there was no one. No one for him to hold, no one to hold him, no one to whisper comforting white lies to him, no one to tell him there was still a tomorrow. No one to tell him everything was going to be alright. Hot tears blurring vision. There was nothing to tie him down anymore.
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Kanda walked into the restaurant, or to be more precise he strutted in with his usual elegant walk. He was about to signal the waiter for a table for two when he saw him. His hand lay in mid-signal but slowly fell. Scrambled thoughts flowed through him, and then: Allen, Allen, Allen… And before he knew what he was doing, the world melted into just him and his one true love. It was unexplainable, as if the two were magnets attracted to one another. By pure instinct Kanda's legs guided him to the white haired boy. The boy didn't even look up, deep in thoughts. The small wrinkle of his brow, and the faraway eyes, looked like home to the longhaired man. Finally, which felt as if eternity passed, he spoke up.
"Allen." It was soft and nearly audible at all, but Allen heard it. He could recognize that voice anywhere. It was the voice he had missed and longed for. It was the voice that was his home and protected him from all his nightmares.
"Kanda." He replied, looking up at the man. Tears sprang into his eyes and he closed them, allowing himself to cry. And then he repeated over and over again in a whisper, "Kanda, Kanda, Kanda, Kanda, Kanda…"
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Love is a curse. It makes you cry and want to take your very own life at times. But…it is one of the most beautiful and precious things in this world as well. It was like evil and good, two sides of a coin. It changes your world, flipping and hurling upside down and all around for better or for worse. It causes regret. It causes such gratefulness it makes you wonder every single moment. It makes you joyful, it makes you experience such agony that it feels as if you chest will suddenly burst open and suck everything in like a black hole. But, despite all the downsides and flaws it brought with it, it gave you enough hope to try and try again at it.
Well, where is their happy ending? Was it even a happy ending? That was for them to decide.