Disclaimer- I don't own Inuyasha.
Title- Left Behind
Summary- She loved him. He loved her. One night changed everything and she ran away. Now she's back only to find the one thing she left behind was the thing she wished she didn't.
Genre- Romance/Drama
Note- They are ALL human. No demons or hanyous!
Chapter 22: An Explanation Would Be Nice
What in the world was she thinking?
How could she have done such a thing?
Why did she do such a thing?
Oh, yeah!
She was drunk.
So was he.
Which is why she feels this big weight of guilt in her heart.
Kagome sighed as she rubbed her temples.
"Coffee, miss?" asked the flight attendant.
Kagome opened her eyes and faced the woman in front of her. "Yes, please," she said desperately. "Can you make it strong?" she asked hopeful.
The flight attendant smiled and nodded as she prepared the coffee and handed it to her.
Kagome mumbled a 'thank you' and sipped on the hot liquid. She sighed.
'Why is my life so complicated?' she asked herself as she drank her coffee.
She placed the cup in front of her on the little table and leaned back into her chair. She closed her eyes.
She remembered everything.
The ball.
The argument.
The dance.
Then . . .
. . . him.
Kagome dabbed around her eyes to stop herself from crying.
God, how could she be so stupid?
She took in deep breathes to calm herself as she remembered what happened between them last night.
His touch. . .
His kisses . . .
His sweet words . . .
His love. . .
Kagome opened her eyes, painfully.
Her heart feels so tight.
'He still loves me,' she told herself.
Kagome slammed her head back into her chair in frustration.
So why does she feels so guilty?
'I'm so sorry, Kikyo,' she said mentally, begging for forgiveness. 'You don't deserve this. Your . . . child doesn't deserve this.'
"Kagome!" Sango chirped as she ran toward her friend coming in from the door. "You're back!"
Kagome smiled tiredly as she let her luggage fall on the floor. She hugged her best friend.
"Ah, Kagome, you're finally home," Miroku greeted as he entered the room.
"Hey, Miroku," Kagome said quietly.
Miroku sighed. "I'm sorry, not to be rude, but me and Sango have somewhere to go, so . . ."
Kagome shook her head. "No. I understand. You guys are married and I'm sorry for intruding you guys like this."
Sango shook her head in disapproval. "You're not intruding! You're our friend!"
Kagome smiled softly at Sango. "Thanks but I decided not to depend on you guys. I'm going to move into an apartment, soon. I have it arranged already and I'm moving soon," she said.
Miroku furrowed his brows. "Kagome, I didn't mean to upset you or anything . . ."
Kagome shook her head. "No, it's not that. I just think it's for the better if I move out. I have thing I need to handle, you know?"
Sango smiled. "If you feel that way, it's fine with us. But remember that if you need a hand, you can always call us."
"I know," Kagome smiled. Then her smiled faltered a bit. "Sango? Is Jade here?" she asked softly.
Sango's eyes softened. "She's upstairs in her room," she whispered. "She hasn't talked to no one. Not even me . . ."
Kagome sighed. "You guys should go. I need to talk to my daughter."
Miroku and Sango nodded. Miroku walked out the door and Sango still stood there.
Kagome stared at her friend. "Sango . . ." she knew she wants an explanation.
Sango waved her hand. "First go talk to her, then we'll have our own little chat."
Kagome sighed and nodded.
Sango smiled softly and walked out.
Kagome bit her lip as she started walking up the stairs to her daughter's room.
She knocked, quietly.
"Sango, I'm not hungry!" the voice snapped.
Kagome sighed and grabbed the door knob and opened the door.
"Sango!" Jade growled as she rose from her bed and glared at her intruder, but then she gasped and glared even harder.
"Jade . . ." Kagome breathed.
"What the hell do you want?" she spat.
Kagome grimaced. "We need to talk."
"The hell we don't!"
"Jade," Kagome tried to reason.
"Get out of my room!" the girl yelled. Her eyes were starting to tear.
Kagome came into the room and closed the door.
"I said get out of room!" Jade yelled again.
Kagome walked toward the bed and sat next to her.
Jade glared at her and tried to push her away. "Get out!" This time tears were rolling down.
"We need to talk," Kagome said calmly.
"What's there to talk about?" Jade continued to yell. "The fact that no one knew you were raped! That I ruined your life! That I was the reason that Inuyasha didn't fight for you anymore! That I was the one that made you married that bastard of a father that I have! That I was a fuckin' mistake!" Now she was sobbing.
Kagome just stared at her with soft eyes.
Jade continued to sob and looked at Kagome. "What? Something else you didn't tell me?"
Kagome narrowed her eyes softly. "Who told you, you were a mistake?"
Jade let out a loud sob.
Kagome grabbed her arm and brought her to her chest and held her tight. She felt tears forming behind her eyes. Jade continued to sob.
"I . . . I want you to know something. No matter what happened in the past, you were never a mistake. Do you understand me?" Kagome said in a chokey voice. "I just wasn't strong enough to fight for what was right. And I'm probably not strong enough, now. But I am trying, Jade. I am. And I'm sorry for everything. I really am," Kagome choked on her own words. She felt her tears run down her face. She held her daughter tighter. "I'm so sorry."
Jade looked up with red, swollen, soft eyes. "But I messed up your life," she whispered.
Kagome shook her head. "No. No, you didn't. I did. I ruined everything. I should've said something but I didn't. So I ran away. But I never stopped thinking about you."
Jade laid her head against Kagome's shoulder. "Thank you."
"For what?" Kagome whispered.
Jade inhaled her scent. "For coming back."
Kagome smiled and kissed her the top of her head.
'One down, one to go.'
KNOCK
KNOCK
KNOCK
The door opened and the woman smiled as if she knew.
"Kagome," Kikyo greeted.
Kagome stood infront of the door, nervously. "Um . . . hi."
Kikyo rolled her eyes and dragged her inside her apartment.
Kagome was sat on one of the expensive couches. Kikyo sat next to her.
"So what brings you here, my friend?" Kikyo said smoothly.
Kagome winced slightly at the word 'friend.' Kagome sighed. "I don't really know why exactly did I came here for," she admitted.
Kikyo smiled. "I'm happy you did, so I can tell you something I've been wanting to say."
Kagome looked at Kikyo in the eye. "Yes?"
"Well, first I wanted to do this," she stood up and faced Kagome.
Kagome looked at her confused.
Then . . .
SLAP
Kagome sat there stunned.
Did Kikyo just slapped her?
"What the hell do you think you are doing?" Kikyo yelled.
Kagome looked back at Kikyo. "What?"
Kikyo glared at her. "You heard me! What the hell do you think you are doing?" she said fiercely.
Kagome felt like she wanted to cry. Kikyo probably knew what happened between her and Inuyasha. She feels like a slut. "Kikyo, I'm sorry," she whispered.
Kikyo let out a frustrating scream. She continued to glare at Kagome, angrily. "Do you know how much I have been through?"
Kagome let her tears run down her cheeks. "I didn't mean to," she whispered. "I didn't mean to sleep with Inuyasha."
Kikyo froze for a moment and Kagome panicked.
Maybe she didn't know about that . . .
"You . . .you . . ." Kikyo chocked on her words as she sat back down on the couch. She placed a hand on her chest and struggled to talk.
Kagome's eyes grew wide and she didn't know what to do. "Kikyo . . . Kikyo look I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to," Kagome tried to explain.
Kikyo took deep breaths and she calmly stared at Kagome.
Then she did something that scared the shit out of Kagome.
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!"
Kagome jumped and winced a little.
But that wasn't exactly why Kagome was a little frighten by Kikyo's reaction because
. . .Kikyo started laughing.
"Kikyo?" Kagome spoke quietly as she wiped one of her cheeks.
Kikyo tried to catch her breath but she couldn't and tears were forming in her eyes. She was turning red.
"Kikyo?" Kagome asked again and this time she was more confuse about the situation.
It took Kikyo a while to calm herself down.
"Oh," Kikyo sighed a she wiped her eyes. "That was a good laugh," she chuckled.
"Kikyo?" Kagome asked.
Kikyo looked back at Kagome and smiled her usual smile. "I'm surprised. You guys work fast," she giggled.
Kagome furrowed her brows. "What?" she whispered.
Kikyo sighed. "The fact that you guys had a wild sex night!"
Kagome looked away ashamed. "I'm sorry," she whispered. Then she felt a hand on her shoulder and she turned around to face Kikyo again.
"Kagome," Kikyo said a low, serious voice. "I think there is something you need to know?"
Kagome sighed shakily and nodded. "I know," she whispered again.
Kikyo's eyes widen. "You do?"
Kagome nodded. "You're pregnant."
"Where the fuck did you hear that?"
Kagome furrowed her brows. "Aren't you?"
Kikyo shook her head. "Hell the fuck no! As if! I'm too immature! I'm not ready to have a child!"
Kagome looked confused. "But . . .weren't you the one that Inuyasha said to be careful because you are not fragile on the phone the first night we were at the hotel?"
Kikyo frowned and shook her head. "I haven't talked to Inuyasha since he left."
Kagome's mouth parted slightly. "Then who was he talking to. He even said 'I love you.'"
Kikyo tapped her chin. "Could he possibly talked to Jade," Kikyo said.
Kagome's eyes widen. He must have been talking to Jade on the phone if he wasn't talking to Kikyo. He was trying to soothe Jade because she must have read her letter that explained what happened twelve years ago.
"Kagome, I know," Kikyo said gently.
Kagome's eyes snapped at Kikyo's direction. "What?"
"I know," she said again in a whisper. "I'm sorry."
Kagome sighed and waved her hand. "Kikyo . . . that was twelve years ago."
Kikyo was quiet for a moment. She stood up and said, "I'll be back."
Kagome watched her disappear into the hallway which she guess she was going to her bedroom.
When Kikyo returned she hold a small velvet box.
Kagome knew what it was.
Kikyo sat down and opened the little box, revealing the beautiful, expensive, diamond ring.
Kagome felt her eyes burn as she stared at it.
"It's attractive, isn't it?" Kikyo whispered.
"Yeah," Kagome answered in a small voice.
Kikyo smiled softly as she stared at the ring before her with great emotion.
"You know . . ." she said casually. "When me and Inuyasha were dating, he told me about how he was in a great depression . . ."
Kagome's eyes left the ring and stared at Kikyo, but Kikyo was still staring at the ring.
"He told me about a girl. She used to live here so you might know her. She was what you can say his best friend?" she paused for a moment before starting again. "Yeah, she was. And you know what else he told me?" She sighed. "They had feeling for each other. So they started dating when they were thirteen. Cute, isn't it? Even cuter when the girl's mother kept begging her to dump him but she didn't because she loved him so much. So they dated until high school. And on their graduation party, they had this argument over this boy she was tutoring and never told Inuyasha about it. So he left her . . ." Kikyo trailed off.
Kagome bit her lip and tried not to get emotional again.
Kikyo furrowed her brows slightly. "The next day when he tried to apologize, she dumps him. He tried to get her back and next thing you know she was pregnant with another guy's baby and goes off and marries the asshole. Here I thought what a fuckin' bitch to do such a thing to a wonderful man. Then he told me how he saw her again and she went into labor. At the hospital he told her he knew they both love each regardless of what had occurred and he never saw her again. So here I am thinking why would a woman disappear and abandons the man she loves while still loving him?"
Kagome sucked in a deep breath when Kikyo turned to face her with the most gentlest eyes.
"Was it because she was raped and tried to protect the man she loves by sacrificing her happiness?" Kikyo whispered.
Kagome felt Kikyo's hand on her cheek and felt her thumb wipe a tear from her cheek. It seems she was unaware she was crying.
"Jade told me," Kikyo said in a soft tone.
Kagome bit her lip and looked back at the ring in Kikyo's hand. She smiled faintly, yet sadly. "I'm happy he found someone that loves him and could make him happy, Kikyo" Kagome whispered. "I don't care about myself as long as I see him happy. I don't deserve him." She blinked her eyes a couple of times to stop the tear from falling.
"Kagome?" Kikyo said. "Do you know why I said we should get married?"
Kagome kept looking at the box. "Because you love him," it wasn't a question, more like a fact.
"I do. I love him," Kikyo admitted. "But that wasn't it."
Kagome looked back at Kikyo in confusion.
Kikyo smiled again but in a light expression. "A few months ago when he was at a business trip and I was at his apartment, I was watching this talk show that talked about how do you figure out your man is cheating. So I was like, 'Hey! This looks like fun!' So there I go being the idiot I was and went through his stuff and do you know what I have found?"
Kagome looked back at the ring.
Kikyo shook her head. "I didn't find this ring, if that's what you're thinking. But I found a ring, not this ring. It was a pretty, little thing. Simple, gold, a small diamond, you know? Cute, but cheap in my opinion. But that wasn't what caught my attention. What did was what it said inside it and it was the most beautiful thing I have ever read. Do you know what it said?" Kikyo asked.
Kagome shook her head.
Kikyo pulled the ring out of the box and handed it over to Kagome, who took it hesitantly.
"Read it," Kikyo quietly commanded.
Kagome bit her lip and brought the ring closer to her to get a better look and squinted her eyes to read the beautifully, engraved wordings.
K.H. I will always love you until the day I die and forever then. -I.T.
Kagome let out an audible sob.
Kikyo took the ring gently and put it back in the box, placing it on the coffee table before her.
Kikyo chuckled. "Deep, right?"
Kagome nodded. "Y-yeah," she choked out.
Kikyo's eyes softened as the two women stared into each other's eyes. "I told him I found that ring and that if he was planning on marrying me, he better buy a better ring cause I don't come cheap."
Kagome let out a sad sigh.
"What I didn't realized until a few days a go was that ring wasn't for me. The simple one, that is," Kikyo said quietly and her eyes were starting to get glossy.
Kagome narrowed her eyes softly. "What are you saying, Kikyo? It has your initials," she said. "You love him, so why wouldn't he marry you?"
Kikyo let out a mixture of a sob and a laugh. She smiled sadly. "Don't you get it? Yes, it says 'K.H.' so I thought it was for me, Kikyo Hiromi, but . . .answer me this, Kagome?"
"Yes?" she whispered.
Kikyo bit her lip before asking. "Did you ever wonder what exactly Inuyasha was going to give you as a graduation gift that night?" she asked in a very soft voice.
Kagome's eyes widen.
"He wasn't able to afford such an expensive ring like this one, now was he?" Kikyo asked again. "What do you think 'K.H.' would have stand for, Kagome Higurashi?"
Kagome put her hand over her mouth and shook her head as her eyes watered even more.
Kikyo's gentle expression never faltered. "He was going to ask you to marry you," she whispered. "And you know what else?"
Kagome stared at Kikyo.
Kikyo smiled delicately. "I do love him, Kagome. But he's in love with you and always has been."
Kagome's eyes softened. "Kikyo . . ."
Kikyo shook her head. "I know you love him, Kagome. So who am I to interfere in a relationship that between two people who are deeply in love?" she said with a gentle smile.
Kagome eyes's widen. "Are you saying . ."
Kikyo let out a deep sigh. "Yes, my dear Kagome, me and Inuyasha are done."
"Why?" Kagome demanded.
Kikyo rolled her eyes. "Did you not hear a single word I said? You guys love each other! I made this decision! So please don't make me regret it!"
Kagome shook her head and tear poured out of her eyes. "You love him?"
Kikyo nodded. "Yes, and I love him enough to let him be happy with the one he truly loves," she paused. "Man, that sounded corny!"
Kagome didn't know what to say. "You could have stayed with him. I left him!"
Kikyo sighed of frustration. "Girl! Stop blaming yourself! Don't you know I know a good person when I see one!"
"So why didn't he tell me? Do you know how guilty I felt?" Kagome snapped as she wiped her eyes.
Kikyo raised an elegant brow. "Shouldn't you have stop and ask?"
"Kikyo! We were drunk . . ." Kagome trailed off.
Kikyo giggled. "You guys were drunk! Then had sex! Wow! Didn't know you were so wild! So . . ." she leaned in closer. "Was he good?" she teased.
Kagome turned bright red.
Kikyo giggled. "I'm teasing. But maybe you should have asked him. So is he back since you're here or did you run away?"
Kagome smacked herself on the forehead. "Why do I get myself into these situations?" she groaned.
Kikyo shook her head at the humor. "He's probably pissed as hell!" she laughed."He's probably coming back to get you!"
Kagome glared at her. "It's not funny."
"The hell it is!" Kikyo smiled.
Kagome stood and so did Kikyo. They both walked to the door.
"I should get going," Kagome said.
"Just don't run away," Kikyo warned.
Kikyo gasped when Kagome pulled her into a tight hug. "Thank you," she whispered.
Kikyo smiled and hugged her back. "Don't worry about me. I like to think of this like a growing up experience. Just promise me you'll be happy."
Kagome nodded before pulling away. She gave Kikyo a smile. "I'll see you," she said as she opened the door and started walking out.
Kikyo waved and watched her go. She closed the door and walked back to her couch. She glanced down at the coffee table and grabbed onto the velvet box.
She smiled.
"Don't make me regret this, Inuyasha."
Yay! New Chapter! Hope you enjoyed this! I wonder what will happen next?
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