After Christmas the work and stress started to build up, although the exams were in a few months we were working like they were next week. Blaise and I became more and more irritable as the pressure to perform and live up to our reputations was dragging us down. It all started with a bad day, both of us had been set an essay in every subject, four essays each of them two foot long. I noticed Blaise had made a mistake in his potions essay.
"Blaise, a bezoar is from a goat not a sheep; you should know that from first year." I said some what harshly.
"Well I'm sorry I don't remember every single thing I've ever learnt." He snapped back then added "Know-it-all" under his breath. I would have let his angry reply go if it wasn't for that, over the years the insult had ceased to hurt as much it still stung but I was used to it, coming from him it was like a slap round the face.
"Well at least it doesn't get in the way of me having friends." I knew immediately that I had gone too far, just from the look in his eyes I could see how much my low blow had hurt. I wanted to take it all back; to apologise, tell him I didn't mean it but something stopped me. I wanted him to pay for calling me a know-it-all, anger, pain and stress stopped me from seeing clearly that what I had said was far far far worse.
"What did you say?"
"You heard, you should count yourself lucky that I took pity on you when you were sitting all alone and pathetic." My head was screaming at me but my mouth was out of my control.
"You're not the only person to take pity, Ron's right no one really wants a know-it-all girlfriend let alone one like you, an insufferable one."
With that he stormed out he stormed out taking his work with him, one small sentence had kicked off the worst argument we had ever had.
After he left I was too proud and angry to run after him although the part of me that had been screaming a moment before was practically begging now. The pain that followed as he glared at me in the corridors was unbelievable; it was ironic that the only person who could comfort me was the one causing me pain. I immersed myself in work; driving all thoughts of him out with knowledge of the exams, it was too painful to do anything else.
Before I knew it the exams arrived, the only question I knew I got wring was in transfiguration I came out and kicked myself nearly crying in frustration knowing that he would have told me everything I needed to hear to make me feel better. I made up for the written exam in the practical when the examiner noticed I was a registered animagus. That was another thing I had thrown myself into as a distraction, I was so determined I had achieved it in record timing. He was clearly impressed when he asked me to demonstrate, my form was an otter to match my patronus. The exams ended leaving a month until we got our results.
I went straight outside, it was dark and the black sky flashed white with forks of lightning. The storm portrayed my anger, the thunderous rolls mirroring the feelings coursing through my mind. Each drop of the rain I had loved since I was a small boy soothed and cooled me, offering me comfort. After walking around the lake twice my anger had evaporated and been replaced by a feeling of emptiness and pain.
When I got to my dorm the realisation of what had happened truly hit home, I collapsed onto my bed hoping that soon I would wake up from a nightmare. When the morning came I found myself with tears streaming down my face, I was still fully clothed proving that last might wasn't a dream like I hoped. What Hermione had said hurt more than the damage Malfoy and his gang of knuckles had ever inflicted. They had cracked ribs on several occasions and my nose would never be straight again.
All too quickly the exams came, the months of work paid of and they went ok. A month later we got our results I got all O's and Harry told me that Hermione did as well, I felt that I should be hugging her and congratulating her not getting told by her best friend and missing her. The next week was graduation and there was going to be a party, I made up my mind about what I was going to do there and then.
I got ready anxiously knowing I had to look good, recent months had passed like a long nightmare. My life had gone back to how it was before I met her except there were two differences, I was no longer covered in bruises and it is far harder to live in solitude when you have had perfect happiness with someone.
I walked up behind her as a slow song came on; I whispered in her ear "Can we dance?" She spun around and fell into my arms, I held her tightly as she began to sob onto my chest. "Blaise, I am so sorry, I have missed you so much. The past few months have been…" I cut her off because I knew too well how the past few months had been, torture. "It's my turn to apologise for being a stubborn got, I've missed you too."
"Let's never do that again it hurt too much."
"I know. I was a close call. Too close."
She buried her face in my chest and I finally felt at peace for the first time since I had walked out, just being able to hold her reassured me that she would always be there.
Well that's the end it's taken a while and theres been a few unexpected turns along the way, the usual apologies for the cheese and lateness it's just i found the last couple of chaters really hard so before the sequel i am going to write a 3 chapter Hermione Neville because i love him almost as much as Blaise. Well i think thanyous are in order for my favouriters and reviewers im particular Mae513 and x-charcoal-moon-x for your amazing regular reviews which i looked forward to everytime and also to BrokliManda, JillianUnleashed, Dryad121, Keelycal, hphglover, vampgirl725, olympia, mcc, twinfeathers, Livvi, gerad galdorcraeftiga, Dracofan2284, SerpentClara, Musiqa, Padd-Foott, Phoenix4freedom and beckychelle, sorry for the acceptance speech but it had to be done, please review i dont mind if you haven't before i just want your opinion on my first ever fic so thankyou and follow the arrows and make me rele rele deliriously happy that you reviewed even if it isnt all that positive thank you so much for reading my fic!!.
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