Another chance, Another heart
CH.4 The decision.
Why didn't I help him? I should have helped him. Axel said to himself.
Axel slowly got out of the chair still shaking; he tried to walk up the stairs but everything looked fuzzy and out of order through his eyes.
Why didn't I help him?
Axel kept repeating the phrase in his mind as he walked up the dark steps, as he did a sharp pain steadily grew with each step he took; the pain was where his heart would have been.
What's… what's wrong with me?
Axel clutched his hand over where his heart would be, he tried to keep walking but the pain became too great and his arms and legs started to shake more severely, he started to slide down the wall with his hand trying to claw into it so he could keep walking.
This pain… what is this pain?
Axel's breathing became labored and his body became weaker… until he finally slid to the floor using the wall as his only support.
Why do I feel like this? Or is it even a feeling? Why?
Because you need to get off your butt and go save your friend!
Axel didn't know it but he had entered a state of mind where the not-so-rational-part was arguing with the rational part, and a battle with in himself was taking place.
I can't… I just can't.
Can't what?! You can do whatever you want! You're a nobody!
But sora needs roxas.
Sora… who cares about sora! And besides if sora truly needed roxas he would have been reunited with him by now!
It's just taking more time…
Don't be stupid! You've been robbed of your friend and you know it! You need to go get him back!
Even if I could… how would I do it?
Take him! Just get in there and take him!
But I… I'm too weak.
Stop lying to yourself! Roxas will make you stronger, just like he did before!
That is true…
You will be more whole with roxas than you ever were after you lost your heart.
Axel argued a few more times with himself until the side that wanted his friend back had taken over, and the thought filled him with anger which in turn… turned him into something ugly.
Roxas is my friend and I will do whatever it takes to get him back and diz will pay for what he has done.
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Axel picked himself up off the floor and walked with his head tall and his eyes full of determination… with a plan in his mind on how to take roxas.
I went back down to the sleep chamber to check on namine`; she was just staring up at sora's sleep pod.
Hey namine`, are you alright?
Yes I'm fine… where's axel?
In the computer room I was just going to go get him, do you want to come along?
Sure why not.
When we went inside the computer room we were expecting axel to be exactly where we left him, but he was nowhere to be found.
Axel? Axel where are you? Both of us shouted.
Namine` and I looked for him in the surrounding chamber rooms, he wasn't in any of them… we came back to the computer room asking ourselves where he would be, that's when namine` noticed the blinking yellow button next to a timer on the computer.
No…
namine` ran to the computer and looked up at the screen, her face went a deadly pale.
No… no! no! no!
What's wrong? I asked.
Axel has downloaded himself into the virtual town! He's going to try and take roxas!
What do we do?
There's nothing we can do, axel has to come out with or without roxas in 24 hours.
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There he is.
Axel saw roxas fighting a few dusks that organization13 had sent in.
Come on roxas… fight… don't tell me diz erased you fighting skills to.
Roxas struggled… but after a minute he finally defeated the last dusk, that is when axel made his approach.
All right roxas, fight, fight, fight.
Why isn't he saying something?
Come on roxas it's me… you know axel.
Roxas didn't say a word just looked at axel strangely.
Roxas… come on… you must know me.
Axel reached out his hand toward roxas.
Stay away from me! I don't know who you are! Roxas shouted as he was running away.
Axel had other plans; he quickly caught up with roxas and grabbed him by the scruff of his shirt.
You're not going anywhere! Your coming with m e conscious or not and then you'll hear the story!
That is when diz intervened; he knocked axel on the back of the head with a bat and ordered roxas to run, roxas had no arguments he ran back to his friends on the other side of Twilight Town… diz left axel there to let whatever would become of him, but little did he know that axel had a backup plan.
If I can't get roxas out of Twilight Town… then I'll get him out of sora.
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Namine` and I waited for the last few seconds that axel had left in the town.
5…4…3…2…1… we both whispered to ourselves.
The machine behind us started to do something and axel was coming back through, when he was completely through he was unconscious namine` and I ran over to him.
Is he ok? Namine` asked.
I think something bruised the back of his head; he just needs to lie down for a little while.
Namine` and I did the best we possibly could to get axel into a comfortable position, I ran to get him a pillow to rest his head on while namine` went back to her room to work, I thought axel would have been knocked out for hours but when I got back he was gone.
Well… good luck my friend.
After that I said a silent prayer to myself…a prayer only my heart could hear.
Axel… please whatever you do and wherever you go, be safe.
Riku walked into the room bumping his head on the ceiling as he did.
Sora will awaken soon and I must leave… I don't want sora to see me like this, and diz would like you to go along with him but you are free to do whatever you want.
Will I ever see him again…?
Who? Riku asked.
Huh? Oh no one… just thinking out loud… riku, will I ever see you again?
I believe you will but if not… than I say goodbye to you now.
Riku… (Sigh) goodbye riku.
As riku went back up the stairs as I made plans in my mind on how to get sora to take me with him, and what weapon I would use once I got there, I turned around to find a keyblade sitting in the chair next to me with a red note attached to it, the letters were written in silver ink.
Please… be safe xena, the memories of you and how you took care of me are starting to come back to me… please be safe.
Riku.
I tightened my grip on the keyblade and walked up the stairs, little did I know that the person I missed would come back sooner than I expected.
Why do I feel the way I do around him? Is our relationship destined to be something more? Or is that just what I want? Or is it riku that I'm truly going to miss?
With my mind full of questions, I went up the stairs toward my unknown future… and I did not know it at the time but also my destiny.