Well... here is Carlisle's POV of the last chapter. I hope you like it. By the way... I am also planning on doing Alice's POV of this, and maybe a reversed situation where Jasper was the one that died. Review if you want me to do anymore besides this! I'm glad you guys seemed to like the chapter... and I hope this one is as good, or better.
Warning: Major Angst!
Not S.M.
CPOV
The battle was over.
The damage was done.
I looked around at my family, silently taking inventory.
Esme, Bella, Edward, Emmett, Rose, Jasper….
Alice was gone.
My family gathered around me.
"Alice," I said quietly.
We looked to Jasper.
How would he take it?
She was half of him.
His reason for living.
Would he be able to go on?
He stood silent for a moment.
His eyes were wide.
Shocked.
He fell to his knees.
"Alice…" he whimpered.
We all watched him, his reaction.
Not willing to embrace the fact that she was gone ourselves.
She was the sparkling light in our family.
She kept us together, and happy.
What would we do without her?
His shoulders shook, his body trembled.
He took great gulps of air.
His eyes squeezed shut.
He was sobbing for Alice.
Sobbing for his loss.
Sobbing for his other half.
"Will he be okay?" I heard Bella quietly ask Edward, tears in her eyes.
He sighed.
"I don't know, Bella," he responded softly, "I just don't know."
Then, the sobbing stopped.
The clearing was silent.
Still.
He crumpled to the ground.
His head hit the ground, and he didn't even react.
I saw Esme flinch out of the corner of my eye.
She walked to me.
I held her gently against my chest.
Thankful it hadn't been her.
Was I a sick man for feeling this?
I don't know.
All I know is that I would mourn for the loss of my daughter.
And rejoice for the safety of my wife.
Jasper was shaking violently.
His arms hugged himself.
"Jasper…" Rosalie said, her voice pained.
She was trying to be strong.
Trying not to cry.
"Jasper…." Emmett said, gruffly.
He was trying to be tough.
Trying to show Jasper that we were still here.
For him.
"Jasper…" Bella choked out between her tears.
She felt guilty.
She was trying to show him we cared.
"Jasper…" Edward said, his voice scrunched in pain.
He could hear, and see, Jasper's thoughts.
But he didn't know half of what Jasper was feeling.
"Jasp-" Esme began.
She was trying to be caring.
To show him we loved him.
He cut her off though.
"Stop!" he screamed and began to sob again.
He stopped breathing again.
He kept shaking.
It was silent again.
The pain was almost tangible in the air around us.
It had reached out its burning arms.
And encircled Jasper.
Half of himself was gone.
His savior was gone.
His soul mate was gone.
His wife was gone.
Alice was gone.
"Gone, gone, she's gone…."
He whimpered breathlessly.
Then his shaking stopped.
He was still.
I stepped closer.
Was he back with us now?
Because he wasn't before.
He was somewhere else.
He was with his memories.
With Alice.
With his pain.
"Alice…" he breathed, relief in his voice.
Then he tensed.
I took another step forward.
What was happening to him?
To my son?
"Alice!" he screamed, his voice ragged with sharp edges of his pain.
"Alice, don't leave me!" his voice undid our shields we had around us.
Our pain let loose.
Rosalie trembled, still determined not to cry.
Bella hid her face in Edward's shirt.
Embarassed to cry, but mourning her sister, and crying for her brother.
Esme sobbed in my arms.
Whispering his name.
And my daughter's.
I stood silent.
Trying to be strong for my family.
For my son.
Edward stood still, holding Bella.
Trying to ignore our thoughts.
Remembering his sister.
Honoring her memory.
Emmett stroked Rosalie's hair.
His shoulders heaving.
He would miss his sister greatly.
She was the light of this family.
Jasper continued to sob.
His shaking increased.
His muscles were convulsing violently.
Was that even possible?
Then again, we were supposedly impossible.
Edward and Emmett stepped forward.
Kneeling down, they held Jasper to the ground.
To restrain him.
To show him they were there.
That they loved him.
He was their brother.
"Kill me…" Jasper choked out, between heaving sobs.
Protests arose in the previously silent meadow.
"Jasper…. No…. you'll be okay…" they said.
I couldn't tell them apart.
"No!" he screamed again.
"Kill me! Kill me, kill me, kill me!"
I stepped forward and knelt by his side.
I couldn't bear to see him in pain.
I could see that, no, he wasn't going to get better.
He would never be the same.
He was damaged beyond repair.
He had lost his other half.
But I couldn't.
I wouldn't.
Kill my son.
Then he spoke again, in a gentle voice, a pleading voice.
"Esme…" he whispered, his convulsions calming.
"Yes, Jasper?" she said, her voice trembling.
Trying to be strong for him, trying not to cry.
"Esme…" he said, and took a breath.
"Kill me… please…"
"Oh, Jasper…" My wife sobbed.
She had lost two children now.
Could she survive a third one?
But she had me.
I was still here.
I could still help her.
Jasper had no one, but us.
But to him, this time we wouldn't be enough.
We couldn't fill his current emptiness.
Only Alice could.
He needed her.
"Are you sure, Jasper?" I asked hesitantly.
I couldn't believe I was doing this.
But there was no other way.
No way for him to stop the pain.
Besides ending his existence.
To be with Alice again.
"Yes…" he breathed.
He took slow, steady breaths now.
He knew he would be okay soon again.
He would be with Alice again.
He would be whole again.
I nodded to Edward and Emmett.
Edward turned to Bella.
"Leave now, Bella." He said firmly.
She crossed her arms over her chest, standing firm.
"No… I want to be here for him." She said through her tears.
Their salty smell filled the air around us.
Edward sighed, but couldn't disagree.
He understood her pain.
He understood she wanted to be here, for her brother.
I pulled, gently at first, on his arm.
And again…
And again…
And again….
The sound of sobs filled the air.
But Jasper was silent.
We lit a fire.
I couldn't hold back my pain any longer.
I cried.
And my family and I stood together.
We stood by each other.
We mourned our loss.
Our losses.
Our brother and sister.
Our son and daughter.
Our friends.
Our family.
I whispered under my breath, knowing no one else would be able to hear.
"Jasper…" I said quietly.
"I understand, son. It was the only way for you to be whole again."
And I meant that, with my whole soul.
I hope you liked it! Please review and tell me if you do. :D Btw, this is supposedly taking place at the end of Eclipse, I think. If that battle with the newborns hadn't gone well. So yes. I hope you liked it, and tell me if there was anything you didn't like about it, or if it was better or worse than Jasper's POV. Thanks for reading! :D
-Ember