The day he found out

Part 6.

Chakotay awoke in a hospital room. He had no idea how he had managed to get there. He was a little dizzy and a bit confused. He tried to remember how he had gotten to the hospital or the last place that he was before he came to the hospital.

In his confused state he didn't hear the knock at his door. He didn't even know that anyone was there until the door began to squeak open. He turned his head and in came Kathryn.

"Hi, may I come in Chakotay?"

Chakotay nodded.

Kathryn took a seat next to Chakotay. She looked at him but remained silent.

Chakotay was tired. But he tired to remember what he had said to Kathryn the last time that they had spoken. He knew that he had said something to her, but he couldn't remember what it was. Now he was frustrated and his anxiety of the current situation was building.

"Kathryn why are you here? More important than that why am I here?"

Kathryn raised her head slowly. "You fainted in my office Chakotay and I transported you here."

"I fainted? I have never fainted in my life!"

Kathryn swallowed. And then Chakotay saw her put on her Captain's mask. The face that he remembered on Voyager when she was upset about something.

"Why didn't you tell me Chakotay?"

"Tell you what?"

"About your condition Chakotay! I found out from the doctor. He had to tell me because if you didn't get a sample of my blood then you would have died! How could you do such a heartless thing when you know I need you!"

Chakotay gathered all of his strength, and sat up in the bed. "You had no right to do that Kathryn. This was my choice. The doctor should have never told you."

"So you thought it was ok for you to commit suicide? You never let me get away with that on Voyager. And I was the Captain! What makes you think that I would let you get away with that now, back here on Earth! "

Chakotay looked at her and then looked away. "You had no right Kathryn. And I had no right asking you when you were married to another man. Can you imagine what I would have felt like coming to you, when the man that you loved had his arms all around you? What a conversational piece that would have been Kathryn."

Kathryn stood up. "You could have said something Chakotay!"

Chakotay's voice began to get louder. "Like what Kathryn? Maybe I should have just introduced myself as the man who wanted to make love to you for years but couldn't because of Protocol!"

Kathryn raised her voice too. "Don't you even lay that one on me Chakotay! You were the one who found another woman before we got back to the Alpha Quadrant!"

"Kathryn I think that you should leave."

"I think so to. "

Kathryn reached the door and turned around to say something to him. But before she could, her water broke, and she was rushed to another part of the hospital to give birth.

36 hours later.

Kathryn held her younger sisters hand. They were both silent. The baby had been born. But had died shortly after birth. In all the midst of all the craziness a virus had attacked the baby's immune system.

Then came the bad news. The doctor had told her that, the virus was the same one that she had been infected with years earlier. And if she wanted to have a child she could only have one with someone who had contacted the same disease. This meant only one person. Chakotay.

Phoebe looked at her sister. "You should tell him Kathryn."

Kathryn gave her sister a look as she headed for the bathroom. "I'm not telling him anything and neither are you!"

"You two really do belong together! There is no one that is more stubborn than the two of you!"

Kathryn re-emerged from the bathroom fully dressed. "Whatever you say Phoebe now lets go home!"

"Kathryn you just gave birth you can't go home!"

"I have a busy day tomorrow Phoebe. I can't lie here in bed all day waiting for life to get better."

Phoebe shook her head. "Are you at least going to say goodbye to him?"

Kathryn didn't turn around. She simply said no.

In another part of the hospital the doctor strolled in Chakotay's room. Chaktoay was fully dressed and ready to leave the hospital. His tests showed the virus was now in remission, thanks to Kathryn Janeway. He knew that he had been ruff on her, and that he needed to apologize to her.

"So Doctor is it a boy or a girl?"

"Is what a boy or a girl?"

"I figured that I would give Kathryn's baby a present and I wanted to know if it was a boy or a girl?"

"Chakotay, Kathryn's baby died at delivery."

TBC

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