All I could do was sleep on it. I was completely exhausted from running around Baltimore, so I got to my dorm, took the nicest shower I had ever endured, and just threw myself on my bed. I was out of it within 5 minutes.
I dreamed about the decision I was forced to make. I had to choose between three guys, all amazing in there own way. I dreamt about how each scenario would work out in the end.
Alex, other than being completely gorgeous, was somewhat of a romantic. But I imagined myself just oogling at him, rather then having an actual relationship with him. Alex was also a physical person, while I'm more of an emotional person. Those separate traits would clash very, very quickly.
Zack. The new friend. He was super nice and friendly, but was that all we could be? Friends? Zack had a heart, and that made him stand out but I hadn't seen that connection between us quite yet.
And lastly, the ex boyfriend, Jack. Jack always had my benefit in mind, and I felt safe with him. But how was I supposed to trust him when he and his friends go out every night? And after the incident in the food court, I had no idea how things would work out.
These thoughts made sleeping a much harder thing to do. I tossed and turned all night and writhed in the pain of my recent family tragedy. After the guys came and went, my mother and father entered my sleeping mind. My dad must've been destroyed when he woke up that morning, I know I would've been. At least I knew we were laying her to rest tomorrow.
I slipped on my black satin dress that stopped right below the knee. It was 7:45 and I was preparing for my loving mother's funeral. After slipping on my black heels and applying water proof makeup, I slipped on my black overcoat and went to my car. The funeral was being held at a local funeral home in town and it was just a couple blocks away.
The service was beautiful. My entire family was there to lay my mother to rest. The only time I cried was when I saw her in her casket. She was beautiful. She looked sad, yet peaceful. I said my prayers to her and sat down. Thats when the tears began to fall.
I stayed around to talk and grieve with family members from all over the east coast. But I spent most of my time with my father, who shed the first tear I had seen in over 11 years.
I was worn out from the funeral when I came upon the surprise on the front porch of my building. Four beautiful sets of flowers the size of bushes blocked my entry to the dorms. Confused and tired, I checked the notes to see who they were for. After quickly seeing who they were from, I smiled in delight. Alex, Jack, Rian and Zack all sent me their own set of flowers.
Grace,
I'm sorry. Sorry for everything. That I kissed you, for your mother, all those stupid things that I said, and I'm especially sorry that I fell in love with you. I wish I could've taken back everything that I did to hurt you. I send my blessings to your family, and I am glad I got to spend these times with you.
Love,
Alex
Dear Grace,
You can't imagine how sorry I am for your loss. She was lucky to have a daughter like you. Grace, I know how I feel about you, so if it's not me who you want when it all comes to an end, all I ask is for you to remember me. Because I will always remember you.
Love,
Zack
Dear Grace,
Wow. I was going through life, thinking I was living the dream. But then you came back. I never wanted that night to end. Grace, losing your mother is a tragedy, and I am terribly sorry for that. She must've been smart to raise a girl like you into what you are today. I may not have had the chance to see her recently, but I remember our first date when your mom ran in and took pictures of us. She was such a lively and happy person, and I am sorry she is gone. I am glad I got to love you yet another time Grace.
Love,
Jack
Dearest Grace,
I'm sorry for some of the events that have happened in the last 2 days. I never got to meet your mother, but the acorn doesn't fall far from the tree, and considering how amazing you turned out to be, I can assume. I may not be writing I cheesy love letter like I know the other guys are, but that doesn't mean I don't care about. Thank you, Grace. Thank you for deciding to bring happiness to one of my friends, for enlightening us with your presence and, lastly, thanks for kicking my ass at Halo. And again, I am sorry for your loss.
Sincerely,
Rian
After reading all the notes, I had burst into tears again. I had four amazing guys, three of which, I could so possibly be in love with, who cared about me much more than I deserved. I couldn't stand this. It would have been hard enough to break one, but I have two hearts to break. But I still had no idea which two.
After thinking about it for hours on end, I finally decided to call Rian.
"Grace?" he asked nervously.
"Hey Rian. I think I know what to do."
"Do you need me to come get you?"
"Yeah, I'll be waiting outside my dorm." I said as I hung up.
I sat there waiting, knowing that I had a small amount of time until I had to break some hearts. But now I had a plan to help me make the right decision. Rian's red Audi stopped right in front of my building, so I jumped up and walked to the shiny red car. That walk seemed to take forever. Each step was slower than the first, and soon my head was spinning. I took a second to calm my mind and get myself stable.
I climbed into Rian's car and flinched at the coolness of the leather seats. This car was very lavish, yet the inside was so small. I looked over at Rian with worried eyes. He seemed rather glad to see me.
"Thanks for the flowers." I whispered.
"Oh those? Yeah, me and the guys thought that would cheer you up." he said, trying to keep things casual.
"It was very nice of you, and I appreciate it."
He let a couple of moments pass by before asking the important question, "So what's your plan?" he asked with slight fear in his tone.
I explained to him my plan on how to choose the guy I would stay with, and he listened with open ears. Rian agreed that my plan was how it was going to go and it would most certainly play out in the long run. He also agreed to help me out.
Rian stopped the car in front of the hotel, and got out. I got out too and began walking around to the other side.
"Rian, you are truly amazing." I said as I gave him a hug.
"Stop it!" he joked. We both laughed, but mine was much more nervous than his was. At least we wouldn't hate me at the end of this. Rian was becoming somewhat of the big brother I always wished I had. He hugged me tightly and closely for the last time, and headed off to the hotel to do his duty. I stood there dumbfound still thinking of what to do. Three amazing guys and one me. I wish I could have them all, but there was obviously no hope in that.
I finally found the power to move myself. I walked to the other side of the car, looked over at the hotel, let out an exasperated sigh, and squeezed into the car.