Thank you all for your reviews I am sorry this chapter is so slow. I had to get back into school and I needed to write a little ahead so that it could flow. I have a lot of things planned for the next few chapters that I think will explain a lot more of the story and answer a lot of your questions especially as to why Lucas's has reacted the way he has to Dylan's death. I have a plan I'm not just being mean to Lucas I love him and I love Lucas and Peyton.

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Chapter 11

OTH/Scott House

Peyton sat down at the kitchen table looking at her divorce papers. Divorce papers that Lucas had sent she couldn't believe it. He had really given up on them. Why? Sure they had fights sometimes and he was really hurting and closed off but she really thought they could work through it. She didn't understand and she needed to. They were Lucas and Peyton well at least they use to be.

Tears stung her eyes she hadn't signed them yet she just couldn't bring herself to. She couldn't bring herself to end her marriage.

Today was New Years Day. Nathan and Hayley were back in Tennessee with Jamie for chemo. They had been worried about leaving Mattie with Peyton but she assured them it was fine and Brooke and Karen promised they would help her. Peyton shook her head. She wanted to edit life. Go through and take out all the bad and only leave the good. She sighed if only that was possible. Getting up she got her laundry basket and made her way up to Ellie's room.

"Princess its laundry day! I need your stinky clothes. Oh baby what's wrong?" Peyton said as she entered her daughter's room and went to sit on the bed. Her little girl was curled up in ball crying.

"Mommy is my Daddy in heaven with Dylan?" The little girl said crying the whole time.

Peyton was taken back for a second. "Oh Ellie, no sweetheart, why would you think that?"

"Because he's not here and Daddy's are always here unless they die like Dylan."

Peyton's heart broke for her daughter and she took Ellie in her lap. "No baby your daddy's alive. He's in New York. Daddy just needed time to think about something's."

"Does Daddy love me?"

"Elisabeth Karen Scott look at me. Your Daddy loves you with all his heart. You mean the world to him please don't every doubt that. I love you and Daddy loves you."

"I know you love me Mommy and Uncle Nathan loves me."

"So does Daddy baby, so does Daddy. He's just having a hard time."

"When's he coming back?"

"I don't know Ellie, he doesn't know yet. Maybe you can go see him."

"I'd like to see him Mommy. Little girls need their Daddy's Mommy."

"I know Ellie. I know." Peyton hugged her daughter close to her. She knew how she was signing those papers.

Lucas/ New York

Lucas Scott woke up in his hotel in New York. He was totally hung over and hadn't showered, shaved or since before Christmas. He only drank. He couldn't believe he had actually sent Peyton divorce papers. She was Peyton Sawyer the girl he had loved all his life. He had written a whole book about the girl. He shook his head, he missed her.

He got up and got a glass of water than sat at the table clutching the photo of Peyton. He loved her so much. But he felt like a failure. He didn't feel worthy to be her husband anymore. He didn't feel he even could. So for that reason he sent her divorce papers. Suddenly there was a loud knock at the door.

"I don't want any maid service go away!" He screamed but the knocking continued and got even louder. He got up cussing all the way to the door. He opened it only for his face to connect with a strong fist.

"That's for my sister! Now get up there's more where that came from."

"What the he** Derek?"

"What you think you can act like a jerk and no one call you on it? We'll listen here I hate dead beat Dad's and I'm not standing by and watching you be one to Ellie. My little sister has been through enough she doesn't need this crap from you."

"Why do you think I left?"

"Leaving is not how you get Man of the Year! They deserve better than this from you. My sister deserves better. You better get your sorry ass back to her."

"Who gave you the right to come in here and start telling me what to do?"

"You did?"

"How did I do that?"

"After fake Derek attacked Peyton you told me she was my family and that she needed me you brought me into her life and now I am keeping you in hers. Even if I have to come and beat you up some more." With that he left.

"I like the other Derek better." Lucas muttered.

OTH/ Chase's Grave

"Chase I really miss you. I wish you were here with me today. I wish I could sit with you and hug you. I wish I could lean in and kiss you. Feel your breath on my neck. O Chase sometimes I feel like you're still here. I wake up in the morning and turn to kiss you only I'm greeting with a big empty space." She paused to wipe tears away.

"Chase it hurts. It hurts raising Logan without you. He's so amazing Chase you would be so very proud of him. He looks like you and acts like you too. He is defiantly your son. The other day he was jumping off the couch because he said he could fly. He wants to be a pilot someday just like his daddy and he will be because he got your brains and not mine. Don't worry our son will never cheat in calculus." She laughed.

"High School was so much fun. I miss it. Man I miss so much right now. I miss Lucas and Peyton and the way they use to be. Lucas left Peyton he even sent her divorce paper. Chase I really wish you were here to help him. I just really wish you were here."