Bella's POV

Being alone, that was something I never wanted more. I don't know how I achieved it but here I am walking in the forest, alone with just my thoughts as company. Edward had gone off hunting with the others. Seth was supposed to be watching me, the poor thing ended up falling asleep. He is too young to be doing these patrols all night, especially when there no longer is a need. The Volturi took off only hours after Charlie's death. Everyone had been too preoccupied to notice

My stomach went taught at the thought of the Volturi. A rush of anger coursed through my body like the venom it was. My fists balled tightly and I suddenly wanted nothing more then to destroy everything in my path. Aro, Caius, Marcus, Felix, Alec, Jane and every other member of the Volturi and its guard would pay dearly for those. All I had to do was get Edward to agree to change me. All I had to do was be turned and I would destroy them. They ruined everything for me, my wedding, my happiness, and my father's life. They took that away from me and they would pay!

My knees buckled and I sank to them. Charlie didn't deserve this; he had no idea, what any of this was all about. He didn't know what a vampire was or even a werewolf. What reason did they have for cutting his life short? And in that way! My stomach lurched and I gripped the grass as if I were pulling out hair. Edward was right; I was in no condition to be alone. Why did I leave the house? I wanted to go back, but I didn't have the strength to stand. I lay down on my side and curled up into a ball as I started to go into shock.

Edward's POV

The darkness of night had already descended when we finally found Bella. She was a wreck barely aware of her surroundings. This scene was familiar to me only from Sam's thoughts. Quickly I shook that troubling thought away. I did not need to think of the past now, or ever for that matter.

Her body was a feather in my arms; I could carry her one handed if I chose. But fresh off of a hunt I kept her close to me. She should have never come out here alone. A storm was quickly approaching and if Seth had not woken up and called me, she would have been caught in it. I'd have to apologize to Seth upon my return, he did not deserve the earful that I had given him, nor did he deserve those nasty words. The pup was far to young to be involved with these all night patrols.

Emmett appeared beside me. His liquid caramel eyes were filled with worry as they fell on Bella's weakened form. "geez, is she ok?"

"In time she will be. Time heals everything," was my response to his question. I was surprised to find that my voice was unsteady. "She needs to be, I do not know how long I can watch her go on like this."

Emmett nodded but did not say anything about my confession. "Are you going to tell her?" He asked me finally. Of course I knew that question was coming.

Before I could answer, however, Bella stirred in my arms. "Tell me what?" She slurred tiredly.

"When we get home." Was my only response, I was not prepared to tell her right then and there. Especially not in her present condition, surely there would be a fight and it was better to have Jasper around to control the tempers that would surely fly.

We arrived back at the house shortly after Bella had finally awakened. Emmett had run ahead to prepare the couch in the den, and light the chimney, which had gone unused for years. Everyone was already back at the house, Alice had likely alerted them that Bella had been found.

Carlisle motioned for me to place Bella on the sofa. As I removed her damp jacket and tossed it aside Carlisle wrapped her in blankets. Bella was still terribly pale but the color was returning to her cheeks somewhat. Esme handed her a mug of steaming hot chocolate. Instinctively my nose wrinkled at the stuff. Bella however, seemed to enjoy it. My hands steadied her trembling ones as she drank slowly.

It did not take Bella long to realize that Jacob Black as well as the other pack members were present. She looked at them with a mixture of surprise and confusion before she turned to me. "Does this have to do with what you have to tell me?" She asked without much warning as she set the mug down.

I simply nodded and stood up. "Bella," I said as I moved towards the fireplace and tossed another piece of wood into the fire. The log snapped as the orange flames quickly engulfed it and embers rose up into the chimney as if for a moment there was no gravity. The log reminded me of what each vampire had once gone through, and what Bella would someday go through. I pushed the thought from my mind violently and turned to Bella again realizing that a great deal of time had past. "Bella, you and Esme are going to Alaska for a few weeks."

As expected Bella's eyes widened and she stood up with such haste that I was relieved that she had put the mug down earlier. "Why?" She demanded as her dark brown eyes with the depth that I so loved searched my face for answers.

"We," my arms spread to signal out the pack as well as the other members of my family, "are going to Volterra to deal with our friends." 'Friends' came out intentionally sarcastic. As expected Bella stormed over to me and shook her head, anger and resolve clearly evident in her features. "I'm going with you, you will change me tonight and I'm going with you!"

My fists clenched in unison with Jacob's protests. My eyes locked with hers, and my jaw clenched. "I will not change you tonight, that is my final decision!" My words were sharp and angry but I needed to stop any of this before it went to far.

Bella was unfazed, she just shook her head and maintained my gaze. Her eyes were like ice I had never seen such a look in those beautiful eyes of hers it was quite shocking and almost unnerving. "This is my fight Edward, I need to kill them."

A snarl came from the couch and before I knew it Jacob was beside me. "How dare you Bella! This is just as much our fight as it is yours. He may have been your father, but in all honesty we knew him longer he holds just as much meaning to us as he does to you!" He reminded her quite harshly. It took all my strength not to break Jacob's jaw right then and there. How could he have been so tactless with his words!?

Tears sprang to Bella's eyes in response to Jacob's careless words, and she visibly swallowed a hard. The agony and pain had returned to her eyes and she looked as if she would run. Immediately Jacob realized his mistake and tried to apologize. Bella moved to slap him I grabbed her hand in time. She didn't need to break her hand on top of all this. She turned on me again, "please Edward, I need this, please turn me."

Bella's POV

Jacob's words stung like nothing I had ever experienced before and if Edward had not been a quick thinking my hand would have as well. My eyes stayed on Edward's topaz ones as I waited for his response. I was prepared to argue this till I won. What I was not prepared for was Edward's response. "I will change you." He said stiffly, "but finish your hot chocolate, please." Edward was uneasy and obviously unhappy. I hated to see him like this, but I obeyed him and sat on the couch and drank the rest of the hot chocolate Esme had so kindly made me.

Edward came over and my heart raced, he was going to do it now? With Jasper and the pack around? Surely neither of them could handle watching this. But instead Edward pressed his cold lips to my forehead, and then to my lips locking them in a passionate kiss. Suddenly I felt faint, there was a buzzing noise in my ears, and my vision was blurring. I attributed this to Edward's uncharacteristically hard kiss. "I'm sorry…" He murmured.

When I woke up I found that I was not at the Cullen house. Cold hands pressed against my forehead, "how do you feel Bella?" Esme inquired quietly. It did not take long for me to figure out what had happened. It all pieced together Edward uneasiness, the hot chocolate, "Edward drugged me!" I shouted hotly even though I was sure Esme's was not directly involved.

"Bella, calm down." She urged as she set me down. "This was not Edward's idea, necessarily. Alice had a vision that the argument would take place. The others they didn't have time to be going back in forth on the subject of turning you. Edward had made a decision early on that he would not change you while you were still angry and out for vengeance that's exactly how Victoria was." Esme's words hit hard, Edward wanted to save me from being another Victoria. Esme continued her explanation, "so while you three were arguing Carlisle and Alice slipped a pill into the remainder of your hot chocolate. Edward was not pleased but it was the only choice. Please do not be angry with him dear." Esme pleaded, I knew she hated it when Edward and I fought. I just nodded stiffly and turned onto my side.

"Where are we?" I asked quietly. I was still a little dizzy from the drugs.

"Barrow, Alaska, we didn't go to the Denali's because we aren't on the best terms with Tanya at the moment." A sigh escaped me; I needed to get to Volterra somehow. This would not stand. I refused to stay here in Barrow wondering if my angel was okay.