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4. with a moon across her face

Before my dad made the mistake of marrying Lindsay-a slut with a halfer 10 year old who pissed in yor drinks and shit on your tampons-I sharpend the razor blades and slashed them up on my wrists. Lindsay say shit like this and woudl flip texas over. I twas probably the one good thing she did for me and my dad. She gave him the clap, sparking the divorce.

But since her departure I've considered visiting good ol' Rusty again. Nothing made me fall hard enough to make me do it in the past six months but...

I thought having to endure looking at a hot unttianable jerkwad every day for a semester was going to be a punishment from hell. Not seing him was even worse.

I would sit at lunch watching the door aimslessly the first few days. The first time Jasper didn't show I hated him. But absense makes the heart grow fonder and I can't wait to see his beautiful face...and hate him.

My face exploded the day he was sitting down at my Bio table. Mike kicked my chair and Eric hooted as I walked to my seat. Jasper was napping or something with his head down and when he heard my chair sqeuak he slowly awakened.

I called him out first. "Long time no see Hale" I used his last name. What fucker names his fkid Jas-PUR? He didn't respont, he did look me squintily then returned to sleeping. "Mr. Mason will be back here any minute."

Angela and Mike looked on despairingly. Jasper didn't reply-he just had his head down. I swear I could her that animal growl again, like at the Councilor's office. The bell rang and Jasper's head was up and he shook his honey tangles like a dog.

I almost fell into a dream-trance of drooling but I put my foot down-he's just another guy, a hot guy but I'l be danmed if he comes inbetween me and myself. So I sit next to him all folded up and amrs crossed like he sits all tense and half-disgusted at if he was sitting neckdeep in shit.

Then-we have to do a lab! My heart fucking beats on its own, wildly fast but my head reins again and I'm back on planet earth.

"All right everyone, with your partners, you'll all have to look throuhg a few-" Mr. Mason was a clumsy bafoon-dropping his microscope. I struggle not to laugh, Jasper stares down at me so I have time to catch myself. "Damn it, thats expensive!-anyways, class, you'll be viewing slides of a developing-OW!"

Mr. Mason- where would I be in this horribad class without you?

xoxoxoxoxo-

Jasper had his hands all over the microscope as we didd the Krebs cycle thingy-and we brushed hands that one time-I almost orgasmed but thankfully I'm a master at biting my tounge and cheek til I scream. But he looked at me, still loathful but curious gold eyes headlighting my face and-

Wait, WHAT? Hold the phone,shit just got scary here.

We were silent partners til that little mindfuck. "Uhm-" I stutter-it's still Jasper I'm taling to. "Youre eyes-are those contacts?"

his eyes were wide and now you could see the depths of sad crashing like waves on a lonely beach-like a wounded animal caught in its most volnerable.

He squinted and said lowly, after that short paws, "Yes-I received them within the week." Then he arranged himself father rfrom me and hogged the microscope and the slides.

"But, why where you gone?" I loked into his eyes feercely. In this light, from this angle, they shone like the moon and I saw my face reflected in them. I looked so sallow.

Jaspers voice was slow and soft and gentle. "My father-he died." he said melancholicly. the sad melodic tone moved me.

"I can relate," I said sadly reflcting over my dead mother. "My mother died whe nI was young."

"It's not the same," he said, turning back to the slides. I frowned. It was only polite banter. And he was hogging the damn thing!

"Jas-PUR," I cringe. "Youre hogging the fucking microscope-we're partners."

He stared at me with animal eyes until he blinked and they were just his sad drooping eyes again. He dropped his voice "look, um..."

"Willa."

"Yes, Willa, you-you-we-I think it would be best if we didn't become friends or talk to eachother outside partners in Biology."

There's not enough of me to stay strong and mvoe one form this, but I pulled through, I hoper. "You really think that?"

Jasper didnt say a word-or nod. he grunted. I'm just-I was fucking shocked. I let him finish the lab since I was too mad and sad to think about it. I mightve cried about it but Ididn'twant to risk smudging my perfect black eyeliner and let mascara stream downby face.

xoxoxoxxo-

I meetup with Eric, Mike andalltheothers inthe student lot. We were all by Tyler's van and I walked up. apparently i mustve looked depressed or something since they all asked what was wrong.

"Nothing" I said. nothing except- "What the shit is Jaspr's problem? Is he likegay or something?" I saw my face reflected in the side mirror of Tyler's van-my hair would never be as gold as Rosalie's or Jasper's and I sighed depressively.

"Dont sweat it." said Jessica. "We should have told you: Nobody ever gets with a Cullen band mem-it's hopeless."

"But you see the way they flirt?" Mike said. "Bitches and hos."

"Anyways, there's gonna be a big battle of the bands in like-a month or more." Eric said. "are you coming Willa? Anyone who's everyone's gonna be there."

"The Cullens will be playing to?" I asked. Of course they'd be playing.

"They should be-it's at the La push beach and it's gonna be huge."

Great I thought sracasticrally. "I'm up for anything you guys are."