6. it's the flourescents!

I found myself floating-floating in an abyss of darkness and unsurity. sadness trwiled a finger around me lightly as i drifted throughout the darkness. there was dread in my stomach as i moved on in a blankworld.

my body felt like sperate pieces moving all on their own-my hands and fingers were all their own, my legs dangled in the vaccum that gaped openly. the void was neverending.

as i drifted on in a meaningless empty void-something became clear to me. I moved faster now, beating. space crunched around me as i became one with it.

then it happened.

blackness melted away-then EXPLODED intoa frenzy of light ushering in a smearing white field.

in the middle of that field stood the sun.

I tried to keep my eyes away but they betrayed my control and-

It was Jasper Hale, and he looked at me with dashing eyes and smiled. everything was ringing and screaming and...

xoxoxoxoxo-

My alarm clock was a fierce bitch with a pair of lungs as I slammed my hand untop of the snooze. I woke up a little disturbed-I dreamt an odd dream. I barely recalled it but it had Jasepr at the end of it, but he did a funny thing: he smiled. Most of my dream had slipped away the moment my alarm clock decided to throw a bitch like it does evrymorining and it had just taken away the last of it. At least my teeth weren't falling out-that always scared me.

The dream reminded me of my encounter with Dr. Cullen at the hospital. It still confused me-but I guess he was right about it being because of the concushion.

It was only a day afeter the 'accident' but I was going to school-against my dad's instistance that i rest at home. Tyler would be picking me up again as the impala broke down today and he tetertained me with the story.

"-and Mike was like 'SHIT SOMEBODY CALL AN AMBULANCE!'" Tyler shooted dramtically as we drove to school. "Erics car was wrecked but thankfully he got away with only a broken arm and a sharpbruise, as you know-but the car's in horribad conditions, you should see it!"

"I dont think I will be-it would only make me feel more awful for it." I said. We pulled into the lot again where all the bad things happened and something hit me all of a sudden. not literally but it was a revalation.

I saw the ugly shiny vulvo that I remembered looking in the first day, wondering what pounce drove that thing. The Cullens were all together, crowded around the lovely thing, probably talking about some gig they had. But the problem with that: the Volva was cross the parking lot-completely far away from where Tyler had his van and where Erics car nearly crushed me. There was no way-no way Japer oould of made it there in time. I frowned.

"What's a-matter, you scared?" Tyler said in his italian accent.

"No just distracted by them," I said.

"Don't let them get to you-they're snobby shits. Angela used to hang around with the short one but they had a falling out sophmore year."

"Oh really? She never told me." That explains all the dirt she had on them. here i was thinking she was just naturally bitchy with them.

"it was a painful one." Tyler said shrugging. We met up with the gang going to the front. I hated how they had only one enterance open and it was so far away from the parking lot. My mind was wandering about Jasper and i decided I was going to ask him in Bio.

xoxoxoxoxo-

The two of us were in Bio, Mike and Angela seated behind me making snarky comments to me all the time. Jasper was antsy as usual, sleeping but whne Mr. mason called on him he would always no the answer. Sometimes I doubted if he really did sleep.

Biology was a boring lecture as usual. Most of the kids were talking and unattentive anyways. Mr mAson trudged on despite looking like a trian rain over him. I felt bad for him-but it was his fault becming a bio teacher in high school wehre all the kids thinktheyre Dance Cook.

I 'dropped' my pencil near Jasper. "Hey Jasp,mind getting that for me?" I asked. I wondered if i was being to flirty with my voice that time. He was head up and bored today. He looked at me then bent over to get my pencil.

"Your pencil," he said then he returned to his natural unnatural looking position. Just when i thought he was just being Jasper again, he turned his head towards me. "And dont call me 'Jasp'" he said.

I smiled. "arent you gonna ask me something?"

"Um, No." he said, then he thought for a minute. "Oh right-you were almost ran over by that Eric kid yesterday." I nodded. "You look fine, am I mssing anything?"

"I saw what you did," I said in a low voice. :"you-you slammed me out of the way. to the ground."

He seemed to frown but he relaxed. "Hmm? I was across the parking lot far away. I saw the whole thing though."

Dammit! Hes trying to trick me. I didn't give up. "Yes but you swerved in and knocked me out of the way-I got a concussion by the way, thank you very much"

"Oh that's very unfortnate." Jasper was stubbron-not unsual apparently. "You said you 'saw me?'"

"Youwere asbove me-a blur of blond-I know I did!" But it was all blury now-I'd blakded out after I 'fell.'

"Hmm-did I? The car swerved harshly to the left and banged up the Yorkie kid."

I did a double take. FUCK, he's right! Tyler said the car swerved out of the way-but thenwhy was I on the ground painfuly? My head was sore yesterday but today it stilllingered.. I rubbed it a little.

"Huh...then why-" I saw how it was now. "You couldnt have not slammed me to the ground? I I sware the car didn't hit me-"

"Hmm? Who said I didn't?" Jasper said unsmirking but you know if it was in him we owuldve been. I frowned.

"So you did-"

The bellrang ad split my question apart. Jasper was just getting up but he stopped and looked at me. but then he was gone, like that! God dammit he always gets away!

xoxoxoxoxo-

I was alone at my locekr-the only time I'm usually alone. We always meet up at Erics locekr sinceits right by the main entrance but I was just getting mythings. I was finishing up, looking in my door mirror for any smudgies-then I closed the door. My ipod was blasting Linkin Park and some Paramore-sum of my favrite bands EVER!! i could play them on and on. When I was done and on my way to Eric's I passed Edward-the boyish one. He was a year younger than us-a sophmore but he looked up and becoming already. He flipped a bronzy lock out of his eyes and looked at me with disgust.

I arrived at our meeting spot-now i was usually early but apparetnly i was late since evryone lese was already there already.

"Willa!" Jessica exlcalmed. "We've got news guys!"

"What?" I asked.

"It's you! The newspaper came out today-" Jessica handed me a copy- "Youre front page!" I alrady knew I'd have my interview from my first week here in it, but front page? "It's all about the crash."

"Oh geez," I winced at my ID picture from my old school up in seattle. I looked okay but my hair looked lusterless in the photo. "I cant believe I'm a headline."

"Oh Willa, where are you getting your car fixed?" Tyler lit up. "I can do it for you!" He's an eager beaver.

"Actally my dad found a nice mechanic somewhere on that indian reservation already, but i liked the effort!" I said. Eric wasnt here but we met up in honor of him. Angela had taken the liberty of decorating his locker with some streamers.

"It's only right," she said. "Eric'll be back tomorrow though. he wanted to 'take the day off'"

"Why didn't you get off, Willa?" Mike asked me. I told him I wasn't the one hoes arm got broken. "Still, a concusion's a concushion..."

"Any word on Jerksper?" Angela asked. I liked her nicknamed for him. "You guys were talking in Bio... I didn't hear beacuse this one-" she punched mike in the shoulder- "was too busy telling me this story about the lcoker room."

"Huh? Oh, nothing. He asked me about the car thing and stuff." I shrugged. We were heading out of the building now, all of usgoing tohang at Ty's house for a little bit. My mind was still frazzled and I think it's the concushion that did it.

Just what was Jasper hale?