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8. questions

i stared at the weeklong empty seat next to me. there HAD to be answers to this shit. Nothing adds up at all. Angela told me she wondered the same thing.

"Half the shit they did made no sense," she explained to me from behind. "So when I got wise-just when I started to ask questions-Alice shust te door on me." she said disgruntingly. "BANG-SLAM-KAPOOOSH-nothing else."

I promised myself I would find out. "It's not just them-it's Japer." I sighed. "He's so stiff and cold-i just wanna-"

"change him, warm him up-" Mike said. "geez, you girls think you can change peopel. I had an uncle like him and he married a woman who thought she coudl change him-theyir divorcedand hes depressed because of her."

"Oh mike, I don't thinkitll be like that!" Anegla said. "Listen-Jasper's a hard guy-it's not like you can change him over night."

She was right. "Yeah, but I'd love to get to know him"

"If you break Jasper's shell I'll give you-I'll-" she was lost on that subhect. "I don't know but you deserve something big for that."

"A steak" said mike.

"why would I want a wooden pointy stick?" I said confused.

"no i meant to eat-though you culd stab Jaspy just to check if he's alive." mike gigled. "I mean, he acts like a robot."

xoxoxoxo-

last week's encouner with Jasper was odd-it was on that firhgtened me to the bone. I didn't want to tell anyone about it. His once sexy and smooth and low voice had raised loudly and instad of sadness and melanocholy ringing it was anger and imtinidation. his eyes were wild and black again-giving his shadowed appearence something more to be scared off.

It was a little sexy though-so I was caught up in it. I found myself daydreaming about him rescuing me again...

THere were so many things I wanted to know-just what was he, exactly? An enigma wrapped in a mystery-probably. He was tall, dark, handsome and brooding-right out of the movies. I felt like a girl fantasing about her first boyfriend and how lovey dovey they would be-Id had a couple of boys actually-and I wasn't a virgin but I wish I was-all so I could lose it to Jasper.

My dad came home then-farzzled by his layewr job. He was a loser-by that I meant he lost cases day in day out-and this time he was at wits end.

"Hi Willy," he called to me tired. "How's school?"

Fine, as always. "Good, bad day?"

"Yeah," he said as he got a can of beer out of the fridge. "We lost the case anyways." He couldn't tell me about the case at hadn, but I was sad that he lost it. Dad said something about it being a murder case but nothing more. He did say he was wroking on that news story-it involved this man who had apparently killed his wife and left her for dead out on the river.

"Oh. Well if it helps my day was a little blah too" I said. He beckon me for more information, but it was boy trouble (well, more like puzzle) and I didn't feel comfterble as I did earlier. I shrugged.

"This kid-Jasper-he's a... strange piece of work." I sighed. I rememebr talking to my step-mom Lindsay about shit like this-even though she was a freeloading skank she was really good at listening that it made you doubt she cared. "Yeah,its like I like him but I odn't like him since he's a jerk of sorts."

"Oh really?" My dad loved story telling and his voice was all happy. "You know when I was your age, I chased many a women-some would even call me a player-" I cringed when he said that-it creeped me out. "Yeah, but this one girl caught me eye-she was out my league beaufitul-stunning and she gave a goodlay yet I still couldn't catch her. And when I talked to her a year later I was glad I didn't."

"Why?"

"She was a stone-hearted bitch with a legging record from here to NewYork," he said. "a big whore with a babby on the way-I bet she had ghonnerhea too." He snorted in his playful voice. "yep, just let him go Willy, he's proabbly not worth it."

I smiled. he was worth it though-he saved me.

xoxoxoxo-

The next day all was well-and it was raining again! I liked the sunny week we had and was sad to see it go. But there was sun in the forecast-Jasper and his friends were at school again. I met him in the lunchline, of all places.

"Jasper!" I said. I hadn't forgoteen about how he fought off my atatcekers. "My savior" I said lowly so no one but him could here. He looked a little disgruntled by my snogging.

"Willa?" he siad. "Oh, don't sweat it-as long as you don't tell anyone." He was serious on that one. I felt the sticky fear sensation again and stood still, shakne by his woulds.

"Why?" I asked shyly.

"He turned around to me. "Look Wilal," he said painfully. "You like me-too much. It's a bad thing."

"How is it a bad thing?" I said angrily-I would have exploded on him in the next few sentances but I felt calm quite suddenly. "I see no reason wy we shouldnt be friends at least!"

He frowned painfully-sadnes tugging at his mouth. "you won't understand-if you don't now, you wouldn't later." Jasper shrugged me off. I thought he was finished-and it wuldnve been nice if he had-but he had more. "Don't, okay. It's for your own fucking sake, and mine." He shrugged off with food but I heard him say it under his breath. "Stupid, fucking, annoying wench..."

I looked down at my wrists-the last time anyone drove me to shit was with Lindsay-though she helped me later by screaming I could feel the scars come apart.

Shit, I thought. Jasper could take my breath one minute and crush my feelings the next. Bastard. I didn't know why I tried but there was a magnet that kept pulling me in.

xoxoxoxo-

I'd recoverd enough to sit next to Jasper in biology again. I felt like this was goin nowhere-if he dind't like me I had to accept it and move on, but I didn't want to give up without a fight. He was silent for the class period but I followed him to his car after school

"Jasper," Iasked. here wouldn't be any games this time, no pencil tricks. "What's your beef?"

"Dammit." He breathed hard and squinted at me. Jasper slammed his hands on the hood of Edward's Volva."What don't don't you get?"

Asshole comes out and hides behind it the real Jasper. Maybe I shuld've dropped it at the lunch line. "I just wnated to know one thing."

Jaser relaxed then, his blond hair streaming in his face. He flipped his fringe. "I'm waiting."

"What are you?"

but at that his expression hardered into the crumpled angry frown again. "You don't get it." He said and he shook his head angrily, walking off. I followed him into the back woods behind the school.

xoxoxoxo-

He wasn't happy as my boots trailed his converse, but he didn't turn around. We walked in silence for about an hour, and anger smoked off Jasper-i could almost smell it! I didnt speak for fear of him biting my head off. Plus, the next thing that would come out of my mouth would probably be a complaint-my feet were KILLING me.

We reached a good clearing. The one place in Forks were there was natural sunlight, apparently. It was a pretty meadow, clean and untouched by humans. Jasper stopped in theshade and whipped to face me.

"Willa" he said. "If that is your real name..." I rolled my eyes.

"Jasper." I siad dully. "I followed you-what are you going to do, kill me?" Suddenly I did think he was going to kill me-we were all alone in the meadow-clearing and it was the perfect spot to hide a body. I started to step back.

"now you're scared of me?" he laughed. "If only you could see what I really do."

"What?" I said-i didn't catch him the first time. "Are you going to asnwer my question?" He was something else I knew that. Anger and lothing burned in his eyees, but tbyond that I knew a part of him looked at me with watnitng eyes.

"You-" I said trying to collect myself. "You're fucking fast-I saw you across the parking lot that day. The car was about to hit me and you were across the lot-then it was supposed to and you were a blur above me" I sigh. "Then there's the mall-you were out of that car too fast."

He stared at me with burning passion lying in his eyes. Jasper cocked hishead to the side. his eyes were black and beady and the shadows made them look alien. "yes?"

"Are you superman or something?" He shook his head and laughed hollowly.

"You know what-you're cute." he said-I was about to sile but his own smile melted off his chakly face. "You wouldn't want to know, really."

"What!" I'm angry now-if I could I wuld beat his fucking brains in and out to China. "Fucking tell me-don't play these stpid guessing games!"

His face was bone-white and unsmiling-he looked like a skeleton almost. A corpse-and they told me I always looked like a corpse. "Your anger pains me." he said sadly.

"FUCK, just get on with the show, dammit!" I screamed angrily. It was like telling Lindsay's kid Brandon to go to bed-that 10 eyar old brat! "Shit, you're so difficult!"

"Very well-" he said, and he held in his hands a chirping bird. "You had a question-what rae you?" I nodded angrily impatient. "See for yourself."