Chapter Nine

Jenny's living room was lit with a pale light which was radiating from her television. She was laying across her sofa resting her head comfortably on Nick's lap whilst they both watched the big bang theory. She felt like life could not get any better, she had Nick with her and a small glass of wine to sip on. Jenny twisted her head away from the T.V and looked up at Nick which caught his attention as he felt the movement from his lap. Jenny stared up into his eyes whilst he returned her stare their eyes showing all emotions, she wanted to say those three magical words to him.

"What are you thinking" she whispered quietly so quiet she wasn't sure Nick had heard what she had said. She continued to watch him looking for any sign of emotion she could read, she watch as his lips twitched upwards to form what she thought was a unbreakable smile. Jenny Lewis was in love with Nick Cutter she thought silently, Nick's hand ran across her forehead moving a few strands of hair from her beautiful face. She covered his hand with hers as he circled his thumb on her cheek, her heart was hammering within her chest threatening to burst out.

"I'm thinking that I'm the luckiest man alive … I'm just thankful Becker found me otherwise I don't I would be here" Nick replied to her question rotating his thumb on her cheek. He truly was blessed with Jenny part of him felt guilty he never found out why Claudia Brown vanished from the timeline he felt at times that he was betraying her, even though there was nothing he could do. Then something unexpected happened, he felt a lone tear trickle down his cheek as he remembered Claudia Brown he felt he had let her down … he had failed her.

Jenny saw the few tears fall from his eye lids and immediately sat up and placed a hand upon his face wiping the slow flow of tears. She had never seen Nick cry before, when Stephen died she saw the sadness on his face then but never had she seen the man shed a tear. Nick meet her gaze his eyes still wet from the tears, it hurt her to see him so upset though what over she did not know but she would wait until he was ready to speak. Jenny placed her arms around him and rested her head onto his shoulder.

"I failed her Jenny I failed her" Nick whispered sadly into her hair. Jenny removed her head from his shoulders looking at him with sympathy. He was shaking slowly, who had he failed she didn't know anyone he could have failed. Valarie's death wasn't his fault the sabre-toothed killed her out of rage she was the one who got to close, Jenny couldn't think of any other female who he could've failed. Then it stuck her suddenly. Claudia Brown.

"How did you fail her Nick, you never really told me or anyone else what happened" Jenny asked, her heart went out to Nick as his shaking began to increase and the tears began to fall a little more freely. Nick looked up into her face showing all the hurt he had hidden for the past nine years ever since Helen and left him to Claudia's disappearance and Stephen's death coming out in go blow.

"I couldn't find a way to bring her back, I just feel like I'm betraying her by … by loving you Jenny" Nick managed to say his vision blurred by the water lingering in his eyes. Jenny wasn't hurt by his sentence which surprised her, Nick wasn't saying he didn't want to be with her just that he thought he was betraying Claudia's memory. The words that stuck in her mind were By loving you Jenny they circled her mind rapidly, he loved her Nick Cutter loved her.

"Its not your fault Nick you cannot blame yourself for her disappearance Helen has made your live a living hell since she returned, she's gone now but Claudia will always be real in your heart" Jenny finished stroking his face slowly letting him know she was here always and wasn't about to leave. Nick finally smiled again shaking his head slowly in disbelief, why in the world would her fiancée leave her but then Nick thought if he hadn't he would be sitting here now with her. "Did you mean what you said .. Loving me that is" Jenny asked?

"Every word I think I have had since I rescued you from that shark ages ago, I didn't act on my feelings because you were engaged to be married" Nick replied to her question without hesitation. He was heartbroken when he saw her husband-to-be standing in the door way with her the night he came to try and confess his unclear feelings. Jenny's heart fluttered slightly and she felt the butterflies begin to form in her stomach.

"Nick I … I've been meaning to tell you for a while now, well I was going to tell you before the ARC was destroyed but that went out the window … I love you Nick I have a feeling I always have but never knew it" Jenny finished before placing a light kiss onto his lips, they both exchanged light brushes of lips only one emotion slipping through without the need of words to describe how they felt. Yes its in his kiss. After their lips parted from one another both rested their foreheads against the other in a moment of clarity.

Suddenly they both her a muffled buzzing sound, Nick looked at Jenny in confusion. Jenny recognised the sound which was her mobile phone and rushed to her bag to retrieve it, it was a text message from Sarah saying. I'm really nervous he has just gone to the bathroom quickly your going to pay Jenny" Jenny couldn't help but laugh a bit at the message Sarah had left. She walked over to Nick and gave him the phone to look at the message, he chuckled at the message he and Becker had spoken earlier about him and Sarah going on a date for the evening. Nick remembered the look on his face as he playfully teased the young Captain about it.

He handed the phone back to Jenny before checking the time on his watch, nine in the evening it was earlier than he thought. Jenny noticed this and an idea ran through her mind smiling she stood up and pulled Nick up with her. Nick's face showed obvious confusion as she led him towards the front door, she grabbed her coat and gave his to him before putting her shoes on.

"Fancy going for walk I fancy some fresh air the walk will do us some good" Jenny asked as she opened the door with a grin on her face. Nick nodded in reply taking her hand and walked out of her house and after checking the door was locked they walked down the street heading for the nearest park they could walk in and sit by the lake or river whichever came first.

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I Loved writing this chapter and I hope you all enjoy it please review as this is the first chapter I am proud of this chapter.

Also I was disgusted at episode four - where was the emotion the only person who showed mourning was Connor and maybe a tiny bit from Jenny personally I am outraged at the shows writers. Their best character leaves and they just forget him after about five minutes.

Review please.

One more chapter to go.

Spoiler Please don't read if you don't want to know!

Jenny leaves next episode after Nearly being killed by the fungus creature, she quits the team because of it. Claudia Brown is due to appear in the final episodes weather Cutter returns for those last series three episodes I do not know. Tom Ryan may returning though it is not confirmed. All this information came from