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Chapter 15

BPOV

Uhhh. It was 5:13am, and I totally forgot about school. It was Monday. Again. Surely enough, Hayden would be running in within the next hour to get my clothes out and dress me up like a doll. I really hated it when she did that. And the outfits she picked out were always so random. You know I haven't chosen my own outfit in over 7 years. I'm not joking. I totally forgot what my closet looks like. I decided to beat Hayden to the chase and walked over to the closet doors and opened them.

Going along 3 of the walls were rails and bars holding the clothes. In the corner was one of those turning things to show the clothes and the other wall was covered by a huge shelf that had at least 100+ mini shelves the size of shoeboxes. And on those shelves were shoes. Off the side was a large dresser filled with all my underwear and bras and socks and leggings and etc, etc. And on another wall was a wooden door. I walked over and opened it. There was a rail filled with coats. And along the bottom were boots. Jeez, I would hate to see Hayden's closet. I would probably get lost. Also, on top of the shelf were a bunch of purses and bags and pocketbooks.

Okay, this will be hard. I walked out of my mini closet inside my huge closet and started looking around for a simple pair of jeans. I finally found a pair of dark blue skinnys. I grabbed a very light, soft cream coloured cashmere sweater and quickly ripped off the price tag before I even saw how much Hayden spent on a sweater. I grabbed a new pair of underwear, a white push-up bra, a pair of socks and walked out. I quickly got dressed even though it was still early.

It was raining out and cold so it would be very unusual to see a "human" walking around with a sweater this thin on. So I walked over to my bed and picked up my baggy dark brown almost black guy hoodie from American Eagle and shoved my arms through it. It actually wasn't mine, it was Dylans but whatever. I grabbed my cheap black Wal-Mart boots and went to brush my hair. I know I wasn't really matching but, whatever. I usually try not to. I brushed my long dark brown (practically black) hair. It reached to about my elbows and was wavy. I washed my face and brushed my teeth and went down stairs.

" Ohmygosh!Izzywhatareyouwearing?Whydidntyouwaitforme?Yourenotmatching!HaveItaughtyounothing?" Hayden spoke quickly.

Rae was beside Hayden now. " She dosent look that bad. Except for the boots, and that sweater is Dylans but wearing a guys sweater is cool."

" Dosent look that bad?" Hayden questioned Rae. " She looks, well, I don't even know. Jeez! Why didn't you let me dress you?"

I shook my head, pointed to myself and pulled at the leg of my pant.

Dylan was on the other side of Hayden now. " What? What is she trying to say?"

He turned his head to Hayden.

Hayden sighed. " She said ' No. I want to dress myself.' Right?" She turned towards me.

I crossed my arms and nodded and leaned against the wall.

" Just leave her. She looks fine Hayden. Casual and comfortable." Dylan said walking away. " Ya. She looks fine. Just let her choose her own outfits once in a while." Rae replied as she walked away. I nodded in agreement.

" Fine. At least change your boots." Hayden said pointing up the stairs. " Brown ankle boots with the buckles.

I glared at her, crossed my arms and huffed.

" JUST GO PUT ON THE DAMN BOOTIES!" She yelled pointing to the stairs again.

I sighed and started walking up the stairs. I went into my closet and then into the connecting little mini closet.

" OH1 MY FAVORITE SONG!" Rae yelled.

I frowned as the song began to play.

"Oh, thinking about our younger years

There was only you and me

We were young and wild and free"

I hated this song. And Rae knew that. But she loves it way too much to turn it off. She turned the volume up louder.

" Now, nothing can take you away from me

We've been down that road before

But that's over now

You keep me comin' back for more"

Whatever. I stuck my hand up onto the shelf trying to find the stupid boots that Hayden wanted me to wear. I looked around when suddenly, a hinge holding up the shelf broke and somehow, all the shelves fell on me. Awww geeez.

"Baby, you're all that I want

When you're lying here in my arms

I'm finding it hard to believe

We're in heaven

And love is all that I need

And I found it there in your heart

It isn't too hard to see

We're in heaven"

Something then fell and hit the top of my head.

It was a box. A shoe box.

The lid of the box fell off and all of the things inside the box spilled out.

My eyes widened and I flinched at what I saw.

XxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxX

I crawled over to the box on my hands and knees. I have been avoiding everything in this box for the past ninety years. I picked up the picture as some sort of moisture rimed my eyes but did not go over. I was staring at him. I felt a hole in my chest be re-torn open. I looked at all the papers cluttering the floor now, and wrapped my arms around me. Pictures, letters, notes, plane tickets, and a Cd. I couldn't stand it any longer. I stood up, and ran down stairs.

"Oh once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Bring you up when you're feelin' down"

I ran through the living room and out the glass backdoors into the forest.

" Izzy!?" Hayden yelled out.

I kept running. I wasn't even sure where. I just stared ahead and kept running. Suddenly, I just couldn't do it anymore. I fell to my knees and began to dry sob. I cried for 3 hours. I then stood up and I knew where I wanted to go. Not home.

Not to school.

Not home.

The cemetery. I wanted to go the cemetery.