Disclaimer: All Naruto characters belongs to Kishimoto-san.
Pairing: SasuNaru
Warning: Yaoi, OOC, OCs and unbeta-read.
Chapter 03: Prima Volta
Staring into those eyes, which had intensely darkened with hatred, Naruto knew he could never deny that Sasuke was in this great conspiracy against Konoha. The man in front of him was a great threat to the bonds he made in Konoha, but he didn't want him to be. Never wanted him to be.
"Why are you here?" he had asked Sasuke once and his friend answered, "Checking to see if this place will suit me."
"Why did you pretend to be dead?" and he replied, "I want to start a new life."
Painfully, he realized that everything Sasuke said were nothing but lies and like the fool his friend thought him to be, he believed every fucking word and all because he still believed in Sasuke. He believed him. With his life. With his soul. With his everything.
He gulped as panic settled heavily in his stomach. What should he do? Sasuke was still looking at him and Tsunade was expecting him to complete his mission. God! He wished things were back the way they were. He wished he knew nothing about Sasuke's agenda. However, he knew he couldn't turn back time, but he could pretend. Yes, pretending was the best way when he didn't have the courage to accept things. He turned and fled towards the door, ready to pretend... to forget this time of his life.
"Comrade," Sasuke told the three men who were ready to kill the fleeing blond and in a move so sudden that his seat fell back to the floor, he ran after his friend. Simultaneously, he wrapped a hand around tanned wrist in a vice-grip and slammed his other hand on the half-open door. "Don't," he whispered into Naruto's right ear and neither of them were aware that there was a plea in his voice.
"Let go!" Naruto shouted as he freed his hand and in the silence, his voice was louder than usual.
"I want you to listen," Sasuke told him.
"I have had enough of your lies!" Naruto retorted while he tried to open the door.
"You want to understand, right? I'm giving you a chance!" He stumbled backward at the force of Naruto's punch. He tasted blood. Fucking dobe! He scowled and threw shurikens at Naruto's general direction. He missed the blond, but he managed to get him away from the door. When Naruto moved towards it again, he intercepted him, causing them to clash again.
"Get out of my way, bastard!" Naruto ordered while he delivered a roundhouse kick, which Sasuke had expertly blocked with an arm. With a powerful punch he failed to elude, he found himself flying and landing on the table, their three spectators scurrying away. He shook his head to clear his mind and glared at the haughty Sasuke. He growled and lunged forward like a wild animal desperately trying to leave the trap.
Sasuke tensed too, his body braced for impact. He clenched his fists and swung his left one. Naruto smirked and flipped himself upward, passing Sasuke who didn't expect that move. The dark-haired man turned and the thought that Naruto would successfully walk out on him scared him. Angered him. He couldn't accept it. He wouldn't allow it.
A sense of relief washed over Naruto as he finally reached the door. He wrapped a hand around the knob and behind him blue light started flickering. He snapped his gaze backward at the cacophony sound of birds and his eyes widened. He ungracefully slumped to the ground as Sasuke's chidori current sapped his strength and completely numbed his body. He was electrocuted. The bastard!
"That's cheating," he growled when Sasuke hovered above him.
"I won't let you leave," He heard Sasuke reply before he flinched as the other man lifted him up onto his arms. He wanted to struggle, but he was completely detached from his body.
Sasuke looked at the three men who seemed to be amused and speculative. "Let's continue this discussion when I come here again." They nodded and slightly tightening his hold on the blond, both of them disappeared.
Sasuke made Naruto sit on the chair while he sat on the edge of Naruto's bed. "Here is your chance, dobe," he grimly said, ignoring Naruto's heated glare.
"Madara, my ancestor and co-founder of Konoha had revealed a truth I would have never known if I had remained in Konoha. Yes, Itachi killed my clan, but it was an order given by the elders of Konoha."
Blue eyes widened. "Stop giving me lies!" Naruto half-screamed, frustrated. If he could, he would have punched him.
Sasuke lowered his gaze as if in shame. "The clan had planned a coup d'etat and to gain information, my father, who was the leader, ordered Itachi to join ANBU."
"Why would a clan as respected as yours do that?"
However, Sasuke continued instead of answering, his eyes glazed over while as he recalled Madara's words. "Itachi who had experienced war at an early age. Itachi who wanted a peaceful Konoha." There was admiration in his voice- the same admiration he had when he was still a boy who was completely unaware of his brother's descent into madness. He clenched his hands. "Itachi who was taken advantage of by the village elders. Itachi who betrayed our clan..."
"Sasu- But why?" Naruto asked and he maintained his wary look, never giving away the fact that sensations were coming back to him and it would not be long before he could move again.
"Because my clan was scorned... deemed as outcasts." Because Naruto's blue eyes glimmered with confusion, he told him everything he learned from Madara.
Hearing the history of the Uchiha clan and seeing Sasuke carrying the burden of it all, Naruto's heart clenched. He couldn't help but to sympathize with him and especially because he believed him.
"And Itachi, the fucking asshole didn't tell me. He just asked Sandaime to spare me from the truth. What purpose would that serve?" he mumbled, ignoring his stinging eyes. When he had everything out from his chest, he felt the weight from his shoulders lessen, but also felt empty.
Naruto quietly regarded Sasuke with his heart aching. Up until now, he had thought that his friend had everything - pedigree of warriors, honor, respect and admiration. Who would have thought that the clan who had lived at the outskirts of Konoha was outcast from the rest of the village? How many of them had thought that the clan had distanced themselves from the rest of the villagers as a display of their sense of superiority? And now, Sasuke, as the last Uchiha, had to bear all the consequences of his clan's actions as well as Konoha's.
Sasuke...
He could finally understand the doleful eyes Sasuke always wore. Finally... finally, he understood and it hurt. If there was only anything he could do for that pain to disappear...
Sasuke...
Before he could even comprehend that his body could now move, Naruto had approached the man.
Sasuke tensed when he felt soft lips pressed against his right eye then onto his left one. His eyes fluttered open to stare into blue eyes full of emotion, which managed to go straight into his heart, making it quiver.
"Don't cry," Naruto whispered so softly, his breath mingling with Sasuke's. Boldly and not understanding why, he leaned forward again and this time, he planted a lingering kiss on Sasuke's lips.
Surprise wasn't enough to describe what Sasuke felt to receive a kiss, and from Naruto no less. He also felt goosebumps rolling over his skin like waves. The contact had been too short for him to decide whether he liked it or not. He looked at the blond who was also staring at him, probably scrutinizing his reactions.
"I'm sorry," he heard the blond murmur. Sasuke couldn't tell if Naruto was apologizing for the sudden kiss, or for all the miserable things that happened to him. If it was the former... He pulled him in for another kiss, and this time Naruto was the one who had been surprised.
Sasuke planted his right hand on the bed to support their combined weight while they pressed against each other. His other hand wrapped around Naruto's nape. He felt himself shiver when he felt hands gently cupping his face. So gentle... so delicious. He breathed Naruto's name between short breathless kisses and finally pulled him down as he laid on his back on the bed.
As he dragged his lips on the exposed pale neck, Naruto wondered which part of comfort did this act fall under and if it was okay to continue; to let himself be carried away by this raging current between them. His eyes fluttered closed when he felt cold hands slipping under his shirt.
Sasuke...
He shuddered at the feel of those hands on his skin. Sasuke's hands were cold but they were making his body catch fire.
Touch me more.
Sasuke's throat constricted as another silent moan passed through it. For a moment, he had hesitated. Not because he was disgusted, but because he was scared for all the meaning this act implicated. However, something was rearing in him, filling whatever emptiness he felt a while ago. And God! He did want this emptiness to be filled. He opened his eyes, wanting to ask the blond if this was okay, but seeing him with that look of wanton and something else he couldn't name, Sasuke decided for himself that it was. Besides, he could no longer stop his hands from wandering, from feeling Naruto. He discarded Naruto's shirt at the same time that Naruto parted his kimono open.
"It's okay," Naruto mumbled to Sasuke who nodded. It was okay because this was Naruto... the dobe who believed in him through and through. It was okay because Naruto... he could trust him. He let out a strained moan when the blond began to nibble his way down from his neck to his chest. What was the name of this sensation? He reached out and buried his hands into the mop of golden hair, pulling its owner closer. He bucked when his left nipple was teasingly nipped before a hot mouth enclosed it.
Naruto...
He could feel the flame swirling in his stomach while something akin to lava coursed through his veins. He was burning at the same time melting beneath those caresses that were exploratory and seductively innocent.
Melt me...
Was it okay to want someone so much? To share with that person whatever that lay beyond these webs of pleasure surrounding them? He reached out a hand and cupped a scarred cheek when Naruto hovered above him, his eyes glazed and half-mast.
"Naruto," he murmured breathlessly, chest too tight with all those strange sensations the blond above him made him feel. He tugged him down for another hungry kiss and he made a noise of approval when Naruto lowered himself on him. So close... so distractingly close. While he drank the blond's sweetness, he trailed his hands down a tanned back, feeling the muscles tensing beneath his hands and it pleased him. Naruto was always responsive towards him, but who would have thought that he would carry that same capability even in this activity? He slid his hands into Naruto's black pants and massaged the two globes of flesh that were concealed underneath the said pants, drawing a long moan from the blond. He rolled them over, trailing his hungry mouth over any exposed skin that had taken his attention and loving every sound that came forth from those swollen lips. As he licked the tanned body beneath his, he finally understood why the first intimate contact with Naruto made him want more. Naruto... He tasted of power... the power over him, the power that could give him his revenge and the power to which the fire in him responded passionately. Without a doubt, he wanted him.
"I want you," he murmured while he traced the tip of his tongue around a tanned navel and noticed the swirling black seal appearing faintly. He slowly and softly traced it with his right thumb. I want your power. Wasn't this one of the reason why he accepted Madara's offer?
Arrogantly, he heard Naruto reply in a thick voice, "Then want me, bastard."
He snorted in reply and licked his suddenly dry lips as he regarded Naruto in his naked glory. His heart thudded loudly against his chest. There was so much trust and desire in those blue eyes. He quietly gulped, excitement roaring through his veins. The container of his power was beneath him, waiting for his mark.
Naruto...
It was obvious that the blond had no idea what he was doing to him and it was better that way because if he learned of it, it would have proved who was stronger between them.
You don't know how much I-
Sasuke leaned forward to teasingly brush his lips against the other's erection, making the man beneath him cry out. He dropped butterfly kisses on tanned inner thighs and his nose twitched at the scent of desire. All for him. His own erection twitched in approval.
He pressed his tongue flat against Naruto's perineum and saw a pearl of white fluid sliding down from his penis. Reaching a hand, he toyed with the blond's balls while he slid his tongue lower and lower.
Blindly, Naruto opened his legs for more while he raised his hips, giving Sasuke's tongue better access. His hands dug into the bed while he struggled to breathe and swallowed his saliva through his constricting throat. All of his muscles were too tensed to even do its daily basic functions.
"Sa..suke," he panted and he draped one of his legs over the man's tensed left shoulder.
His eyes flew open the moment Sasuke's tongue snaked around that verysensitive place, wetting it with his own saliva. Even before he could get used to the spikes of pleasure shooting through his entire being, his friend had added a finger to rub and press against his opening and it made him see stars; made him so close to wherever this moment would end. He breathed out Sasuke's name while his sweet torture continued. He was so close. He was ready to burst and he would've, if not for the hand which was painfully wrapped around the base of his dick... the same hand, which a while ago had been mischievously toying with his balls. A low groan came past his lips as a reaction to that finger penetrating him without a warning.
"That's unnatural, asshole," he growled.
Saliva dripping from the side of his mouth, Sasuke replied thickly, "Sex is natural, dobe." Especially between us.
Whatever smart-aleck comment Naruto had for a comeback dispersed into white glittering dust as his sensitive spot, after being simulated, sent an electric sensation throughout his entire being. It was like being electrocuted with Sasuke's chidori current except that there was no discomfort and pain just pleasure... Undiluted and raw.
"Yeah, " he muttered, his back slightly arching. "More."
Following the blond's half-plea and half-command, Sasuke added another finger then another while his tongue continued teasing his ring of muscles. When Naruto almost reached his apex, Sasuke pulled away causing Naruto to glare at him. However, his glare's sharpness was absent, completely rendering it useless. He had to admit though that seeing Sasuke remove his clothes hurriedly had excited him. Of course, seeing his erection - all red and angry, also pleased him. He wasn't exactly innocent. He knew, thanks to Jiraiya's novels, what would happen between men, but he had never known that him and Sasuke would be sharing this kind of intimacy.
"Hurry, Sasuke," he said, eyes half-closed. He propped his knee and opened his legs as far as he could. "C'mon," and he stretched out a hand. When Sasuke was within reach, he grabbed him for a kiss while he welcomed the man between his legs. It was so good to see Sasuke so alive, to have him feel so warm.
They laced their hands together and let them rest above Naruto's head. Sasuke broke their kiss to stare at Naruto while he pushed himself in... inexorably. Imitating Naruto's action a while ago, he pressed a tender kiss on both of his eyes upon seeing the pain and discomfort that crossed that flushed, tanned face. He then dragged his mouth to a tanned ear to whisper, "I want you." He then thrust all the way before he plunged his tongue into Naruto's right ear, showing him what would happen very soon.
Instead of complaining and whining about the pain, Naruto just entangled his legs with Sasuke's and moved against him, causing the male above him to tremble with sheer desire.
Naruto's chest tightened upon seeing that smirk before Sasuke pulled then pushed into him, deeper.
"Move slightly to the left," Naruto whispered, his hot breath fanning Sasuke's forehead as those wicked lips dipped to leave marks on his neck. "A little bit to the right," he added and his ring of muscles tightened around Sasuke's erection when Sasuke finally hit the right spot and from there on, it was an ascent to a madness they didn't know existed up until now. Forces pulled and pushed them while the webs of pleasure tightened around them, leaving them no time to ponder what was happening and what was going to happen. All they knew was that, it was perfect despite the awkwardness of it... their rhythm and their tempo.
Everything that happened between them since they were kids lead this moment to be meaningful for the both of them; to become the force that pushed them higher and higher from the ground and past the ether and finally to the heavens where everything exploded and turned into a wind of flame that surrounded them.
There was silence as their passion created their place in the heavens... their dimension.
Distantly, Naruto felt Sasuke slipping out from him and collapsing on the bed beside him. He raised his eyes and it saddened him to see on pale cheeks, the trails created by the tears Sasuke had shed half an hour ago. Although it hurt moving, he propped himself to lick the trail on left cheek before he laid back down. Slowly, he squeezed Sasuke's left hand.
"It's going to be okay," he heard himself say.
To his surprise, Sasuke slipped their hands together.
-SasuNaru is love-
Naruto stirred to awakening and sleepily brought a hand to cover his eyes from the columns of sunlight that streamed from the window. A smile curled his lips upon seeing Sasuke who had just stepped out from the shower.
Ignoring the sudden increase of his heartbeat, Sasuke grabbed another towel and tossed it towards the blonde. "Take a shower so we can have breakfast downstairs."
"Morning too, asshole," Naruto retorted sarcastically while dragging himself out from the bed. Grabbing his clothes, he sleepily marched towards the bathroom. In his half-asleep state, he was completely unprepared when his left foot slipped, causing him to lose his balance.
Sasuke had just thrust his legs into his pants when he heard a loud thud from the bathroom. Cursing, he flung the door open to see what injury the clumsy idiot had brought upon himself. Heat travelled up his neck and face when he saw Naruto haphazardly sitting on his butt, legs propped and spread and eyes wide with confusion.
When the blond's mind finally digested what happened and who was watching, he immediately righted himself just as he heard Sasuke muttered, "Clumsy dobe," before he slammed the door.
Sasuke sat on his bed and sighed. He was troubled to realize that the sight few seconds ago had managed to draw out a response from him. He gripped his knees while he willed his slight erection to disappear. What was wrong with him? Until last night, he hadn't wanted Naruto and yet it seemed like this yearning had started a long time ago and was buried deep. If it weren't for last night, this feeling wouldn't have reared its head, but it did and he sensed trouble ahead. What should he do? He needed and wanted the blond, especially in order for his plan... for his vengeance.
When a fully-dressed Naruto stepped out from the shower, he avoided Sasuke's gaze and was quiet. He was embarrassed because... No, he was just embarrassed, period.
Half-annoyed at the blond's sudden standoffish behavior, Sasuke none-too-gently knocked the blond's head with a fist while they made their way downstairs. "What's with that attitude, dobe?" He inserted his hands into his pockets, slightly hunched his shoulders forward and walked ahead of the still quiet Naruto. "It's not like nothing intimate had happened between us."
Naruto flushed and called after him. "Don't mention that in public, bastard!"
-SasuNaru is love-
Naruto and Sasuke regarded each other warily the moment they went back to their room right after having an awkward breakfast. It had been a routine for both of them to leave for work after having a meal, but yesterday's great revelation had upset it.
Naruto cleared his throat and started, "Sa-"
"No," Sasuke immediately replied. "I won't abandon my plans."
"But what about the innocent people? The children?"
"Did the elders consider the children and the innocent when they ordered my brother to wipe out my clan?"
"Then what about the people you know? Kakashi-sensei? Sakura-chan? Iru-"
"I hate anyone or anything that represents Konoha."
At those words uttered in sincerity, blue eyes turned dull as if the life that was reflected in those orbs was snuffed out. Naruto averted his gaze to the floor while he stated simply and quietly, "You hate me then."
He let out a gasp of surprise when he felt a hand grab a fistful of his hair and tilted his head back so he could stare into those empty black eyes that were flickering with something he couldn't name. "I don't," he heard Sasuke reply before he dragged his lips on his neck, making him shiver.
"Don't," Naruto said. He didn't want to be so close to Sasuke when they still hadn't finished their conversation, but he found his resolve slowly wavering as his friend continued his light kisses. He couldn't push him away. He never had the power. Even when he felt his pants slipping to the floor, he couldn't step away. His body was betraying him at the same time, awakening. Sasuke huskily whispered his name and Naruto knew he couldn't deny the man anymore. If human contact was what Sasuke needed, then he would give it to him. Wholeheartedly.
-SasuNaru is love-
It was already noon when Sasuke left their room to meet the three leaders.
"Have you taken care of him?" Wataru asked while he offered a seat to Sasuke who nodded in reply.
"He doesn't look capable," Yoshi commented off-handedly. In his opinion, a man as strong as Sasuke wouldn't need someone like that blond.
"He has fangs and claws," Sasuke replied. "You should not question me when it comes to him. I know him well despite his being unpredictable."
Testu scratched his stomach while he waved his other hand dismissively. "Then we won't question him. Let's continue where we left off yesterday."
Sasuke nodded. "As I had mentioned, my team members..."
While Sasuke was discussing his plans, Naruto was blindly walking around the town, lost, torn and confused. In the end, his feet led him to the club building Rika was staying and working in. He stood in front of it, wondering whether or not he should go inside. Despite the woman's insufferable flirtatious behavior, to Naruto, she was a familiar face... she was serenity in this moment when the waves around him were churning violently. Thinking that she was probably out or working, he decided to leave, but her voice stopped him.
"Naruto-kun?"
He looked to his left side and saw her with a paper bag full of groceries pressed against her chest. "What are you doing here?"
He scratched the bridge of his nose, suddenly embarrassed. "Well, you see..."
Rika just smiled. "Let's go to my room. It's my day-off so we can talk if you'd like," she offered sweetly. He gave a quick nod at her offer as he followed suit.
"I heard what happened at the den yesterday," Rika told him. She paused and held an open wine bottle above Naruto's cup, waiting if he'd refused, but when he didn't, she tilted the bottle downward and filled his cup. "You two seem to know each other."
"I knew him well. He was... is one of my important persons... the person I am ordered to kill," Naruto replied before he pressed a hand against his eyes. "In the village, the rest of my important persons live there and I don't know who I should choose. Why do I have to choose? Why does it have to be 'either' and 'or'? Why can't I have both?"
For a moment, Rika had been surprised. In her work, there were customers who shared their problems with her either out of want for her to listen or for her advice, but their problems were nothing compared to the teen in front of her. She felt sorry for him.
"I can't... I don't know. The more I am keeping his existence a secret, the more I am putting the village in danger, but I don't want him to disappear again... to turn his back on me." Naruto grabbed the cup and drank the offered wine. Now that he thought about it, Sasuke hadn't asked him to keep his presence a secret from Konoha. It was his selfishness and fear that prevented him from reporting to Tsunade. In the end, it wasn't between Sasuke and the rest of his friends but between his selfishness and the village safety. Could he ignore his desires for the greater good? Was he that kind of a martyr? Was that what Konoha expected from him when he took the mantle as its shinobi?
His eyes widened when he realized that he had been crying. He turned his head, wanting to hide from Rika that he was crying.
"It's okay if you want to cry," the woman told him. "I'll pretend that you aren't... that I am not seeing your tears."
What should I do?
It was already late at night when Naruto returned to their room and by then Sasuke was already sleeping, and judging by the peaceful look on his face and his steady, even breathing, he was in a deep slumber. Quietly, Naruto approached Sasuke's bed and slowly leaned over him.
Naruto finally realized that he would be a monster if he would let all the villagers die by Sasuke's hands. Although, the elders had wronged his friends, he couldn't allow Sasuke this chance to crush Konoha. He had sworn to live and die for Konoha. He had sworn to protect the village his father protected. He was willing to sacrifice Sasuke just as his father sacrificed him. All to save the lives of the villagers.
With his gaze on Sasuke's handsome face, he withdrew a kunai from his pouch. The blade glittered under the column of pale moonlight and his sorrowful-looking blue eyes were reflected on the blade's sleek surface.
I'm sorry Sasuke, but I have chosen them over you... over me.
He had made his decision and even made sure that this was what he really decided. He had finally made his resolve to kill his best friend, so why did tears leak from the corners of his eyes? Why did his hands tremble? Why did he want to plunge his kunai into his heart instead of Sasuke's?
"Get on with it, dobe," he heard Sasuke's gruff voice mutter, surprising him. He tensed when Sasuke turned to look at him. Contrary to what he expected, there was no sharingan or hatred etched on his face. Sasuke was looking at him with a resigned look.
"My mission is to kill the man who is plotting against Konoha, Sasuke," Naruto explained, wanting him to understand. "Why does it have to be you, bastard?"
Sasuke regarded him and sighed, "I'd rather die by your hands." With a steady hand, he grabbed Naruto's hand and guided the kunai towards the body, causing blue eyes to widen. Sasuke was going to kill himself!
In the silence of the room, the sound of flesh being pierced was heard. In a split second, blood tainted Sasuke's clothes, bed sheet and blanket.
Goodbye.
TBC