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Chapter 18
I stood outside his house. Staring. I haven't been here in over 90 years and I'm surprised I'm here. But this is where my heart led me. I don't even know why I'm here. I was just led here. I walked up to the front door and turned the handle as the hole in my chest was beginning to throb. I turned the handle. The door was unlocked. Of course. I slowly pushed it open and stepped in.
I instantly stopped breathing. I didn't expect anything or than what I saw.
All the furniture was covered in white sheets. I walked around the living room, waiting for me to break down, but I held strong. I walked over to the piano and ran my fingers along the keys. I thought back to hearing my lullaby not too long ago. Oh, how I wished for it to be played again.
I could play it, if I really wanted too, but I'm scared. Scared that once I start, I will just break down.
The hole in my chest ached as I thought about it. I walked to the middle of the room. And sat down.
I looked around again at the dust covered furniture… Thinking about everything that happened. Before I broke down into a sob-fest, I picked up my guitar, and played a couple notes.
I tried to hum the notes. But nothing came out. I tried again and still no sound. Have I lost my voice permanently? Is it gone forever? Can I not even hum?
I started playing the notes to my song and tried to hum again to the note but it didn't help. I tried one ore time, starting the song over on my guitar and out came a small whimper. Good. That's process. A whimper. Big process.
I strummed my guitar again, starting the song over. I cleared my throat…
The lyrics were : These four walls. They whisper to me.
Sing those lyrics. I thought to myself. I was scared to even try. I had written that song awhile ago and memorized the lyrics, but I still had the page with the lyrics and notes on it here. Just for backup.
I examined my guitar. Looking over it and skimmed my fingers across the indents on a small metal rectangular plate, on the back of the guitar:
Isabella "Bella" Marie Swan
Christmas '06
Love you,
Dad
That was the last Christmas I had as a human. I missed my father. I sighed and cleared my throat, breathed in then out. I closed my eyes and began playing the cords.
I opened my mouth and…
Nothing came out. I tried again and still nothing. I breathed in one more time.
The-
Great half a word. Come on. I breathed in once more.
These four walls
I shuddered at my voice. It sounded course and brittle. Like I, well, like I haven't spoken in a century. Figures…
They whisper to me
They know a secret
I knew they would not keep
I cleared my throat again.
Didn't take long
For the room to fill with dust
And these four walls
Came down around us
My voice cracked every other word.
Must have been something
Sent me out of my head
With the words so radical
Not what I meant
Now I wait
For a break in the silence
'Cuz it's all that you left
Just me and these four walls again
I sounded like a freakin' dying frog. My voice cracked and I hardly understood myself.
It's hard now to let you be
I won't make excuses
I made my peace
Didn't take long
For me to lose the trust
'Cuz these four walls
Were not strong enough
Whenever I hit a high note, my voice, uhhhh, I don't even know how to describe it. But it did sound better than at the beginning of the song. It was just the high notes.
Oh
Must have been something
Sent me out of my head
With the words so radical
Not what I meant
Now I wait
For a break in the silence
'Cuz it's all that you left
Just me and these four walls again
Ya it's difficult
Watchin' us fade
No word
It's all my fault
My mistake
Ya
It's difficult
Let's take it down
No word
It's all my fault
You're not around
After that last note, my voice just cut out. The hole in my chest was burning with every breath I sung. But I wouldn't stop. This song is exactly how I'm feeling and I have to finish it.
Must have been something
Sent me out of my head
With the words so radical
Not what I meant
Now I wait
For a break in the silence
'Cuz it's all that you left
Just me and these four walls again
Again
Oh
These four walls again
I started to dry sob and dropped my guitar and wrapped my arms around myself. Trying to keep myself from falling apart.
I just sang for the first time in over 90 years and you would think I would be happy. But I'm not. The song, my song was right.
Everything happened here was all my fault. Everything that happened. My fault they left. My fault he left. My fault my parents hearts were broken. My fault they stressed over months of looking for me and me never showing up, even when they had a search party out looking for me fault.
I never meant for any of this to happen. But it did.
I lied on the floor, holding myself together, when I heard a twig snap.
I don't know what it was but I ran. It could have been a bird or a squirrel but I didn't want to take the chance of bumping into anyone that I didn't wan to bump into.
I ran out the glass doors leaving my guitar and my lyrics there.
Better safe than sorry.
Yaaa..Chapter 18. i don't think I did very well on this chapter at all. I'm not sure. It was sort of rushed but did you guys think it was good or no???Please review and tell me. I might update quicker. I have the whole next chapter in mind and it will probably be up by th end of the wekekend.
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