Chapter Eleven: Explanation
Edward's POV
I left the house and went back outside. Carlisle was home now, he must have gotten back while I was upstairs with Bella. He was in the backyard with Esme, Jasper, and the two traitors, Emmett and Rosalie. They were all waiting for me. Jasper was controlling the situation as well as he could. I could hear everyone's thoughts and they were all anxious to see what I would do. Esme and Rosalie were now afraid to see that happen. Good, Rosalie should be scared.
"Edward, before you say anything please let me explain. Please just give me a minute before you yell at me." Rosalie begged me. I could see that she was at least remorseful for what she had tried to do. I folded my arms across my chest and nodded for her to continue.
Rosalie took a deep breath and explained, "Edward, despite what everyone thinks, I never really hated Bella. I was mostly jealous and I felt threatened by her. I guess-"
"Wait, what? Why would you be jealous or threatened by Bella?" Emmett interrupted. Rosalie looked at me to see if it was ok with me if she answered him. I nodded at her.
"I'm jealous of her because she has the opportunity to have what I never did. Bella is human. She can cry, blush, change, have babies, and die without being ripped to sheds and burned. She is willing to give all that up and I don't understand why. Emmett, I love you so much but the truth is that I would trade places with Bella in a second if I could. If I had one wish, it would be that you and I could be human again together. We could have a family and grow old together. I've always wanted to be human and have you as my loving husband and a few beautiful children with you, Emmett." Rosalie started out talking to me but as she spoke Emmett's name the first time, she turned to him. She had her hand on his cheek and he was looking upset. His thoughts were upset at least.
"Rose, if I could turn us into humans, I would. If we were humans, I could give you that child I know you really want. I know you have always wanted a family. I would do it just to make you happy. I would like to have that too, actually. I'm sorry that is impossible for us." Emmett told her. He was holding Rosalie in his arms now. I was getting annoyed as I watched Emmett lean down to kiss her.
"Ok, enough of that. Rosalie get on with your explanation." I ordered her. She twisted around in Emmett's arms to face me again.
"Oh, right, sorry. I actually do like Bella but I was a little angry with her this morning for the fight she had with Emmett. I told him that I hadn't forgiven her for it. He made me look at Bella as she got sicker and told me that whether I liked it or not, Bella is my sister and I had to help her. Emmett was right; Bella is my sister and I have to do everything I can to help her." Rosalie paused, then. She looked up at the house and I followed her gaze. Bella was standing at my window, watching us. Alice was standing behind her, trying to distract Bella from us. Rosalie smiled and waved at her and Bella smiled back, pressing her hand to the glass.
'Don't worry, sis. I'll take care of this.' Rosalie thought. I had mixed emotions about that thought. I liked that Rosalie had finally accepted Bella into the family. She was the only one who hadn't accepted Bella yet. I was a little angry because Rosalie expected to get her way and force me to change Bella.
"Anyway, I'm going to do everything I can to help Bella. I can't just sit here and watch her suffer anymore. I wont let her be miserable if I can prevent it. Before you threw me to the floor, I was about to do the one thing I can do to prevent this, it's what Bella wants, it's what we all want." Rosalie said firmly. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. She thought that she was actually helping.
"So you were going to risk killing her? I can't believe you would do that! That was extremely thoughtless not to mention dangerous!" I thundered at her. Rosalie shrank away from my anger.
"I think Rose is right. She went about it the wrong way but she's still right about changing Bella. Edward, you of all people should want to end her suffering. You love her, right? So end this, please." Emmett begged me.
None of them understood why I didn't want to do that. It would feel like stealing Bella's soul and condemning her to hell. I didn't want to do that if I didn't have to. I would much rather have Bella stay human. There was no getting around what I had to do. She couldn't stay human and she really hated the idea of having to. I didn't want to admit it out loud right now, but I knew they were right. Bella had to become a vampire.