Disclaimer: sadly I do not own ?Twilight or any of the wonderful Stephenie Meyer's characters but I do own nick and chase so HA!
Chapter 3 : The Sight That Made Her Blush
BPOV
Nick, Chase, and I were hunting some mountain lions tonight. This area was supposed to be having a problem with them so we decided to help out. My depression was fading but it didn't take away the hurt. It was better when I found Nick and Chase but, I still couldn't deal with the fact that he didn't love me. It made sense, but at the same time, I couldn't wrap my finger around the concept. We had been so off balance, it only made sense for him to not love me. I knew it made sense but I loved him so much, I wanted him to want me again. I knew it was a stupid thing to want but, I just wanted it so badly. I knew that could never happen. Even if I did run into him sometime. Fat chance that would be.
I attracted Chase's power just to check the future. Chase could see the future like…Alice. I forced myself to think the name. I did this a couple times each day, I trusted Chase but I got nervous sometimes. Chase didn't always tell us things that were problems. Mainly because she doesn't think they were problems. I searched the future for any problems or things we might want to avoid. More specifically that I wanted to avoid. And what I saw was something that I wanted to avoid. I knew Nick and Chase wouldn't exactly understand why I didn't want to have this little meeting. I had talked to them about this but they just didn't seem to understand why I wanted to avoid this kind of thing, they thought I would want this. Exactly the opposite. "Hey I'll be right back. I have to go check on something alright?" Chase looked at me weird and nodded.
I ran a couple of miles to calm myself. How could they be here right now? Why were they here right now? Of course, the mountain lion problem. How stupid could I be? It's his favorite. That's why it's my favorite. I guess I thought that maybe they lived too far away to get here for it. Or too far away to hear of it. But distance shouldn't matter. I mentally kicked myself for being so stupid. I wished I hadn't given Chase her power back it would make this so much easier. I thought about taking it back, but I realized that it wouldn't make a difference. I took a deep breath and ran back to the meadow where I had left Nick and Chase.
I stopped running a little bit before the meadow. I walked up behind Nick and Chase with my head down, scared to see their faces. I swear that if I had a beating heart it would probably be hammering at the speed of light. I wanted to look up and see his perfect face again, something I hadn't seen in 50 years. At the same time, I knew the hole in my chest wouldn't be able to take seeing his face and then it disappearing for another 50 or 75 something years. I was stubborn but, I didn't win this battle with my eyes. I had to look up. I had to see his perfect face, beautiful topaz eyes that matched mine now, his messy hair that always seemed to fall perfectly. I looked up. My imagination hadn't done him justice. He was even more beautiful than I had imagined.
"BELLA?!" cried Alice. She looked so shocked to see me. Well I guess she should be shocked, I was supposed to be dead. Well I guess she might not know I was supposed to be dead. By now I
would be 68; I mentally shivered at that thought. I guess she's more surprised that I still look 18. I still am 18. I gave a faint smile, completely embarrassed by the situation. I know that I if I could. I would be beat red right now. It was then that I realized that I was staring at Edward, embarrassed again I quickly looked away off to the side of Alice.
"Hi, Alice" I said quietly. I paused before greeting Edward. "Hi… E-Edward." Stupid nervousness making me stutter. He was probably laughing on the inside at my nervousness. He didn't care what I was feeling or anything about me. Then, if possible, Chase made me feel even worse,
"Oh, so these are the Cullens you were talking so much about, Bella." She said. I looked down, embarrassed, mental sigh, yet again.
"Well, I guess I've got some explaining to do," I said quietly. This would not be an easy story to tell. And I didn't know if I wanted to. I knew I had to. Stupid past getting in my way, again.
"Why don't we all go back to um, our… house. You can see Carlisle, Esme and ev-everyone." Alice stammered, still shocked by my presence. I nodded and followed.
Still working on making these chapters a little longer. The next one should be longer but this was harder to make longer since it was BPOV of the last chapter. So, please, please review!